Narusai: Flourishing Feelings
This is the first fanfic I've done in 4 years so I'm very rusty… -.-'
WARNING!: Yaoi. Do not read if u don't like! Or if u don't like extreme yaoi, or if u don't like the pairing.
"What we call love is the desire to awaken and to keep awake in another's body, heart and mind, the responsibility of flattering, in our place, the self of which we are not very certain."
-Paul Geraldy
Naruto awoke one morning to a ray of sunlight. The slight shimmer of ray traveled through the window's glass and hit in between his eyes. It's warmth in the near November end was a rare occurrence. Once it landed on Naruto's skin, he stirred. Only when that warmth spread did he wake up. Naruto yawned and stretched. Already, he could feel the chill in the air once his covers slid down his body, caressing him over his clothes.
Naruto slowly stood. He trembled a bit as the cold ground under him sent icy shivers up his legs and throughout his body. Slowly, Naruto walked to fix himself some breakfast. He put the kettle on, and while he waited for the water to boil, he dressed himself. Once he'd got on his trademark orange outfit, the water was boiling. Naruto poured it into a cup of miso ramen. He sighed impatiently. He hated waiting the designated three minutes. Naruto allowed his mind to wander. There was no mission that day, and there was possibly no way that he would hang out with Sai. Naruto decided that he'd go visit Sakura. Naruto smiled at the thought. It was perfect. A surprise visit.
The aroma of delicious ramen wafted all over his apartment. Naruto's smile spread. He sat down at his table, ramen in front of him, ready to eat.
"Itadakimasu!" Naruto cheered before digging in.
The ramen didn't survive more than five minutes. Naruto beamed. He licked his lips, savoring the last of his breakfast. Naruto stretched. He walked into the bathroom and quickly brushed his teeth. The anticipation of seeing Sakura overwhelmed him. Once he was done, he locked up his apartment and made his way to see his teammate.
Naruto whistled a cheerful tune as he strut happily though the village. He walked past an empty training field. He stopped in his tracks, and he stopped whistling. He back tracked his steps until he reached the field again. He stared at it. Naruto blinked. He had been correct. Sai sat on a log. He was staring out at the horizon. Naruto blinked again. Sai sat motionless, but what caught Naruto off guard was his expression. Sai wore a pensive, distracted look. Naruto blinked a third time, he rubbed his eyes drastically. He opened them and looked. No. He had been right. Naruto frowned.
"Hmm…?"
Naruto walked away. He found it odd to find Sai like that. Although Sai was learning about emotions, Naruto never expected such a sincere expression on him. Naruto shook his head, ignoring his unsettled thoughts, discarding them to the back of his mind. Naruto hurried along to see Sakura. When he got to her residence, Naruto was informed that she was with the Hokage. Naruto made his way to see Tsunade. Once he got there, he was stopped by Shizune before he could get any further. Shizune informed him that Sakura could not be disturbed, because she was undergoing rigorous training.
Naruto sighed. Down in his spirits, Naruto slowly walked away. Subconsciously, he made his way home. Again, he paused once he got to the training area. He stopped completely when he noticed Sai. He sat in the same spot. In fact, he hadn't moved at all. Naruto frowned. Sai had not moved a single muscle. He looked like a sculpted figure, his pale skin only making it more so. Naruto walked over to him.
"Sai. What are you doing?"
Sai looked at Naruto. His expression was blank, all trace of emotions lost.
"Nothing."
Sai's monotone voice disturbed Naruto. Sai looked back at the horizon. He looked…distracted? Naruto stared at him, feeling a strange sensation of desolation for the boy.
"Aren't you cold? You're going to get sick, with your midriff exposed like that."
Naruto blushed slightly at his choice of words. He didn't know he could realize such a thing. Sai seemed unfazed. He continued to stare at the line where earth met the sky. Although his expression was blank, Naruto knew something was on Sai's mind. He concluded that Sai was in fact, distracted, a hard fact to accept.
"No…I'm not cold…I don't feel anything at all actually…" Sai spoke tonelessly, but Naruto could sense the solemnest behind it, infuriating him.
"What do you mean you don't feel anything!?" Naruto asked angrily.
Sai did not speak. He stared silently at the prospect. A small sigh escaped him. Naruto scowled. He grabbed Sai by the scruff of his shirt and pulled him towards himself, making Sai stand. He did not look startled at all, and that fueled Naruto's anger. He punched Sai in the face. Again, Sai wore an expressionless mask. He didn't move.
"Why won't you answer me!?"
There was a pause before Sai answered.
"Because I have nothing to say…"
His impassive eyes looked at Naruto, who growled, not getting the answer he wanted.
"You annoy me! You know that!?"
"Yes."
When there was not hesitation in Sai's answer, Naruto snapped. He lashed out and began punching Sai, who didn't resist. When Naruto was about to deliver the eighteenth blow, eighteen in total, Sai caught his fist, holding it securely. Sai smiled.
"That is enough. Thank you."
Sai's smile frightened Naruto. His lips tweaked downward. What was he smiling for? Sai let go of Naruto, who took a couple of steps back once he was free. Sai began walking away.
"Hey! Where are you going!?"
"Home."
"No you're not!"
Sai stopped.
"I'm not?"
"No! You're not! You're going to the store!"
"I am?"
"Yes. You are. You need to buy a sweater."
"…" Sai looked at Naruto, perplexed. "No I'm not. I am going home."
Naruto sighed.
"You're hopeless. I guess I could give it to you."
"…" Sai looked at Naruto blankly. "You…want to give me something…?"
Naruto nodded, "Yes. Hasn't anyone ever given you anything before?"
Sai nodded.
"Yes. Enemy ninja give me wounds, cuts, and bruises all the time."
Naruto sighed again, looking at the ground, shaking his head slightly.
"You really are hopeless…"
"…"
Sai turned around and began walking away again.
"Here!"
When Naruto called out, Sai stopped and turned around, only to be met by a dark but soft object, colliding into his face.
"Omf!"
Sai took off the cloth from his face. It was Naruto's jacket. He stared at it blankly. Naruto walked up beside him.
"Put it on. I don't want you catching a cold."
Sai put on the jacket, but he did not zip it up. He held it closer to himself.
"It smells nice," Sai smiled a tiny but genuine smile. "…like you…"
Naruto blushed and looked away.
"Shut up!"
"It's warm…" Sai noticed.
"I thought you couldn't feel anything?" Naruto looked at Sai suspiciously.
Sai was not paying attention. His attention was on the ground. Naruto frowned.
"Why don't you ever answer me!?"
Slowly, Sai looked up at Naruto, then, he quickly looked away, blankly. Naruto let a tiny gasp leak out of his lips. He didn't know if Sai had realized it, but in that small instant that Sai had looked at him, Naruto saw a hint of sadness in his eyes. He was almost positive that he even saw them get watery for a second. Now, they were as emotionless as ever, staring expressionlessly into the nothing that was the distance.
Naruto looked at Sai with melancholy. Sai had been acting strange all day. Naruto found that he didn't like it. He didn't know why, but he was unsettled by Sai's odd behavior. Something was definitely bothering Sai, and Naruto was determined to find out what it was.
"Sai…Is something wrong?" Naruto asked him, indisputably concerned. "If there is, you can tell me. You're my friend." Naruto almost choked at the word friend. He observed Sai despondently.
Sai looked at him and smiled, there was no emotion in his expression. Naruto noticed how dark Sai's hair was. As black as a black hole, just like his inability to communicate and convey feelings. Naruto observed his partner closely. Sai's lips were tense around the lips, as if they were screaming to get out, to shout out something. Naruto wanted to know what that was. He'd never seen Sai look so sad, despite his well formed mask of vacancy. Naruto didn't like seeing Sai like that. It…disturbed him.
"Sai…" Naruto reached out and gently touched his cheek. He looked into the dark, ominous eyes with care. "You can tell me anything."
Sai stared at Naruto, unemotionally. Sai pulled away and began walking home. Naruto let out an exasperated sigh. He strode over to catch up with him. Sai did not protest to Naruto following him. Naruto walked behind him silently. He wanted to say something, but his mind was at a blank. Both boys walked through the village silently.
When they finally came in front of Sai's apartment, Naruto wondered how long they'd been walking. He had been distracted with thoughts of how he would make Sai spill his worries. Sai unlocked the door and came in. Naruto paused at the frame. Sai turned around and looked at him.
"Would you like to come in?"
Naruto nodded, "You don't mind?"
Sai shook his head. Naruto came in. He looked around. The apartment was bare. There were a few pictures on the wall, but they were nothing special. Naruto found something more fascinating to observe. Near a table, were many canvases, obviously painted by Sai. The sheer magnificence and splendor of the paintings made Naruto feel warm inside. They conveyed feelings that he didn't know were sleeping in him, but it wasn't just that. The emotions they portrayed were things that Naruto thought Sai could not understand.
There was an eerie silence. Naruto felt like he was being watched. He looked behind him. Sai was staring at him with those same emotionless eyes. Naruto blushed. He couldn't take his eyes off of Sai, who stood motionless. Sai's exposed abdomen moved up and down slowly, to match with his low and steady breathing. His lips were a grim line. Naruto didn't want them to be that serious and tense. He longed to relieve that stress off of them. And his eyes. Sai's eyes, they were so lonely. Naruto suddenly felt that loneliness. Much like his own only…he had friends now… Sai…he had nobody.
"Am I disturbing your peace? I can go if you want."
Sai shook his head slowly.
"No…I…I rather like your company."
Naruto's spirits rose. He smiled.
"Really!?"
Sai smiled. It was legitimate smile of joy. It was tiny and soft, but it was expressing great levels of happiness. It almost looked like he was in pain to communicate such sincere elation.
"Really." He said in a gentle voice.
Naruto's smile widened. He walked over and was about to hug Sai, when he noticed a rather plain calendar on the wall. It had the date circled. An thought struck his mind.
"Oh…You…had something planned?"
Sai looked at Naruto, again he had that silenced look that was willing to tell, only forced back. Then, it hit Naruto. He was expecting someone. Naruto felt like an idiot. Of course. Why else would he be so distracted?
"Um. Well, I remembered! I need to go and…do that thing!" Naruto quickly turned around and began leaving.
"Naruto."
"Yes?" He turned around, looking and sounding hopeful.
Sai smiled once more. It was a smile of sad happiness.
"Thank you."
Naruto nodded. He turned and left. He knew what Sai meant. Sai was thanking him for the short company they'd shared together. As Naruto left, he couldn't help but feel his eyes warm with tears. Sai had been acting peculiarly. He wondered who his visitor was. Naruto felt a surge of angry emotions build up and boil in his stomach. The feeling was strong enough, it made him stop. Just the thought of Sai being with someone else enraged him. The thought of going back occurred to him. He had even turned around, but Naruto had no place in Sai's life. Naruto was probably unwelcome in the company of his other friend.
Then why? Why did Sai look so sad? Why did he look so alone? He had invited Naruto in hadn't he? Naruto stood there, mulling the situation over and over again in his head. There was something not right. Something inside him was bothering him. He had a strong urge to go back, and it was only increasing with each passing moment. He wanted to look into those sad lonely eyes and whisper to him, making sure that Sai knew he wasn't alone. He wanted to take those thin lips with his own. Naruto's mouth twitched at the thought. What was bothering him? What was wrong?
Naruto gulped. Those hits. The punches he'd given Sai. They were counted! Sai had provoked him to get punched on purpose! Eighteen times! Naruto gasped! His birthday! It was Sai's birthday! Naruto felt like such an idiot. He had left Sai alone on his birthday! Naruto felt his eyes warm more. He wanted to go back, but to show his face again would mean humiliation. He knew Sai wouldn't care, in fact he'd welcome his presence, but he'd be a humiliation to himself, knowing how he'd run off, knowing how he'd abandoned Sai. Naruto shook his head. The guilt in him was too great. Before he could stop himself, he was running back towards Sai's apartment.
"Sai!"
Naruto opened the door. Silence greeted him. He looked around the empty living room. He scanned and looked out the window. The sun was setting. How long had Naruto been out of it? How long had he been thinking? How long had it taken him to figure out what day it was? Naruto kept looking and found what he was looking for. Sai was laying on the couch, sleeping. His utter peacefulness brought one of its one in Naruto. He let out a sigh of relief. A smile spread across his lips. Warmth bubbled inside Naruto's chest. It soon spread throughout his body, and despite the fact that Sai still wore Naruto's jacket, Naruto did not feel cold. Naruto knelt in front of the couch, in front of the sleeping Sai. His smile became kinder and gentler. He marveled at the unspoken connection between them. Sai wore Naruto's jacket, and Naruto's black shirt matched with all of Sai's attire.
Naruto watched in serenity as Sai's calm breathing made his chest go up and down slowly. Naruto wasn't really sure if Sai was entirely asleep or if he was just pretending, but Naruto didn't care. He was enjoying seeing his teammate in such state of tranquility. He noticed Sai's eyelids flicker, and Naruto wondered if he was dreaming. Naruto mulled over everything that was going on. Why was he going so far for him? Did he matter that much to him? Really? How? And why?
Naruto sighed. He found that it wasn't only a sigh of vexation, but it was a sigh of dreaminess. He couldn't help but notice Sai's pale and smooth skin. He longed to caress that skin, gliding his fingertips over its silky smoothness. Naruto wished he could freely entwine his fingers in Sai's velvety, coal black hair. Naruto's yearning got the better of him, and before he had realized what he was doing, his hand reached out and lightly touched Sai's thin eyebrows. He was glad he'd noticed just in time, to stop himself from touching him harder, enough to cause Sai to awaken. That soft touch was enough to make Sai stir, though. He made a tiny moaning noise as he drifted off back to sleep. Naruto smiled warmly.
Naruto's sapphire eyes sluggishly traveled down and they stared at Sai's lips. He gulped. Naruto found his throat blocked. He could no longer breathe, so he opened his mouth slightly, letting out a breath of air. Naruto's lips twitched once more. They desired Sai's lips. Naruto's heartbeat quickened ever so slightly. His breathing quickened. He leaned in. Naruto's lips hovered over Sai's. If he did this, what did it mean? What was the point of kissing motionless lips anyway? Naruto gulped. The point was, he told himself, that he would never get another chance like this. Even if Sai wasn't aware of what was going on, Naruto knew a feeling would spark.
Naruto pressed his lips against Sai's, kissing him gently. Though the action only lasted a few seconds before Sai woke up, Naruto was able to feel his heart accelerate and his stomach get a strange prickly feeling. It was almost instant when Sai reacted. Once Naruto's lips touched Sai's, he shifted and woke up. Sai withdrew, Naruto went with him, and only when Sai spoke, did Naruto pull back.
"Um? Naruto? Why are you kissing me?"
At hearing Sai's voice, Naruto jerked back. He blushed and looked away, rubbing his lips with the back of his right forearm. Why did he kiss Sai? Naruto wasn't entirely sure himself. Naruto looked at Sai, who was sitting up now, staring back at him, blankly. Naruto noticed on Sai's cheek, what he hoped were the last traces of a blush. Naruto sat next to him and looked the other way.
"Shut up! I wasn't kissing you."
"…then… what were you doi--?"
"I was just really close to your face okay! I was looking at…something!"
"…"
Odd minutes of silence passed by the two boys. Naruto was the first to break it.
"Oh, and…happy birthday!"
From the peripheral of his vision, Naruto saw Sai turn to look at him.
"How did…?" Sai was too startled to even finish his question.
"I guessed. It was actually kind of obvious once I thought about it. You let me hit you eighteen times didn't you?"
Sai nodded.
"And that's how I found out. How did you find out about that?"
Sai shrugged, " I read about it. The book said that it was a custom to hit people for the number of years they were."
"Why didn't you just tell me?"
Sai shrugged again.
"I don't know. I've always been alone on my birthday. It's fine."
Sai added when he saw Naruto's distressed face.
"Well, you're not going to be alone this birthday! I'll hang out with you!" Naruto stood up, happily.
"You don't have to…"
Naruto gave Sai a stern look.
"Look, no one should spend their birthdays alone, so I'm going to spend it with you. And besides, if you really didn't want me around, you wouldn't have let me hit you, and you wouldn't have invited me into your apartment."
Naruto studied Sai. He expected another retort but got none. Instead, he was met with Sai's crumbling mask. Behind that mask of indifference, gleams of sadness and loneliness appeared, but there were also glimmers of appreciation and gratitude.
"Now, I want to give you something…" Naruto tapped his foot on the ground and he stared at it, thinking.
"You want to cut me?"
"No! I don't want to fucking cut you! I want to give you something nice!"
"…?"
This time, Sai's expression of blankness was true. He was, indeed, confused. Sai wasn't entirely sure what Naruto was talking about, but he made an effort to.
"Then…you want to give me a bruise?" Sai offered.
"NO!" Naruto turned around, infuriated, and glared at Sai.
Sai looked at Naruto with an attempt to rebuild that mask. But through it's leaks, Naruto saw well hidden sadness and fright. He straightened up, and looked at his friend, startled at himself.
"Sorry…I…I…I didn't mean to snap…."
Sai shrugged. Naruto looked at him with melancholy and sympathy. He really hadn't meant to snap. He wished Sai would understand that. Sai looked away. Naruto sat down again next to Sai and sighed. He felt like he was ruining everything. The two said nothing. They stayed like that for what seemed like eternities. Naruto wanted to turn and face Sai. He wanted to fix everything. Naruto wondered. He genuinely mulled over what was going on. What was Naruto doing? Why was he caring so much about Sai? Why was he so worried? Did he really care that much about what Sai thought and felt? What were these flourishing feelings?
As passing thoughts, and only for a moment, Naruto thought about what Sai had said. It was true that Naruto wanted to give Sai bruises, but not the kind that Sai was referring to. He wanted to give Sai love bruises on his neck and all over his body. Naruto imagined Sai's pale skin covered in his hickeys. Naruto forced back a smile. But the place that Naruto wanted to bruise the most was in between Sai's cheeks, both the front entrance and the back entrance. As quickly as these thoughts came, they left, because Naruto discarded them away.
As Naruto pondered what to say to make things right again, his stomach growled. From the corner of his eye, he could see Sai turn to look at him, Naruto blushed. He turned away.
"You're hungry."
Naruto held back his tongue, because he wanted to comment on how obvious Sai was being. He knew saying that would be rude. He didn't want to make things worse than they already were. Naruto knew that Sai was trying. Or… at least he thought that Sai was trying… Regardless of Sai's attempts or not to understand, Naruto was sure that it was difficult for him. Naruto wanted to help him. No. He would help him. And he was going to start today.
"Yeah, but I'm fine."
Sai didn't respond. He looked away. Naruto ignored his empty and pleading stomach, it could wait. He had to fix things. He just had to. Naruto didn't like the uncomfortable atmosphere around them, and he was bent on changing it. When Naruto's stomach growled again, he knew exactly what to do, and it was thanks to his hunger. Naruto stood up quickly, elated. Sai looked up at him, expressionless.
"I've got it!" He looked down at Sai, smiling broadly. " Come eat with me!"
"..why?" Sai blinked.
"To hang out! C'mon!" Naruto's smile did not let up. "It'll be fun! Trust me! And besides, you need to get out more! You shouldn't stay cooped up on your birthday!" Naruto's voice became more excited with each word. He took hold of one of Sai's hand and began tugging playfully when he spoke. Sai's expression was unreadable.
"Ok…"
Naruto beamed. He ran to the door.
"Naruto."
Naruto stopped and turned around, smile, gone. He had already opened the door and was half way out when Sai delayed him. Sai stood up and took of Naruto's jacket. He handed it to its rightful owner. Naruto just stared.
"Keep it," he said.
"No, take it back. I wont' be cold. Trust me." Sai smiled expressionlessly. Naruto wasn't worried about it's blankness, because he was determined to change that, and it was going to happen that night.
"Are you sure?"
Sai nodded, smile still in place, "Yes. I am accustomed to wearing these clothes, even in this cold weather. You don't have to worry."
Naruto recognized instantly that Sai had noticed his concern, a good sign, and that Sai didn't want him to be uneasy for him, another good sign. Content with the progress, Naruto walked over to Sai and took his jacket. He put it on. Sai's smile disappeared. The expression he worn after wasn't hollow. It was a calm patience. He was waiting for Naruto to take him to wherever it was that they were going to. Naruto smiled. He took Sai's hand and lead the way to Ichiruka's. They had left so fast, it hadn't given Sai time to lock the door, only manage to close it.
When they got outside of the apartment, it was already night. The full moon was up, shining brightly. The inky dark sky also provided light with its many iridescent stars. The natural white lights were drowned up by the yellow electrical ones of the lamp posts. Naruto hurriedly dragged Sai to their destination. Their hands still joined. Both felt the warmth, and Sai was glad for the blanket of night, that concealed his minute blush. When they arrived to their destination, Sai lingered before entering into the light. By then, his face was blank once more.
Naruto was wolfing down his third bowl of ramen when he felt someone's gaze on him. With a mouthful of ramen, he turned to look at Sai, who sat next to him. Embarrassed by the slippery and light tan colored noodles hanging down his mouth, Naruto turned away to swallow them. He looked back at Sai to speak.
"Aren't you hungry? If you want to eat, it'll be my treat."
Sai shook his head. He turned away from Naruto to look blankly in front of him.
"I'm not hungry."
Normally, the cold way Sai was acting at the moment, would've angered Naruto, but he wasn't bothered. He knew he was getting through to Sai, and that was better than nothing. Naruto continued to eat. He found that he was also enjoying Sai's presence. Once all the ramen was gone, he picked up the bowl and began to drink the warm liquid. In his hurry to drink it, a small trickle began to flow down his chin. Naruto didn't notice, and he placed the bowl done when he was done. Sai noticed the liquid that had escaped Naruto. He stared at it and wished to wipe it away. Perhaps lick it away. Sai gulped. He held back. Naruto looked at Sai. He noticed him staring at his chin or…lips? There was a little color in his cheeks. Self consciously, Naruto placed a hand on his lips, blushing slightly himself. Naruto felt the liquid that had rolled down his chin. Of course. His spirits fell. There was no way that Sai would want to kiss him. Naruto wiped the liquid away with his forearm. Sai looked away.
Naruto contemplated getting a fifth bowl, but today was Sai's night. Naruto asked for the check, and once he got it, he paid and stood. He wanted to spend the rest of the night with Sai. After all, it was Sai's birthday, and Naruto had promised. Naruto wanted to do whatever Sai wanted to do.
"C'mon, let's go."
Naruto got out of the stand, Sai followed. They were about to make their way when Sakura walked by. She looked at Naruto.
"Oh, Naruto. I just finished training. Shizune told me you were looking for me. What did you want?"
Naruto was embarrassed to answer that question in front of Sai, "I wanted to hang out with you."
"Oh."
Even though Sakura wasn't looking for Naruto, and they had met unintentionally, she was tired, and a distraction would help.
"Do you want to hang out now?"
Naruto smiled.
"Sorry, but…" he said, shaking his head. "No." He hugged Sai's arm tightly, smile widening a bit more at contact with the other teen. "I have something better to do. I'm hanging out with Sai right now."
Sai gulped and held back a blush, keeping a straight face.
Sakura nodded, "Ok. So it's like a guys' night out only huh?"
"Yeah…something like that." Naruto beamed at her.
"I understand."
Sakura smiled as a goodbye and left.
"C'mon."
Naruto dragged Sai away. They walked for a few minutes before Sai spoke.
"Um…Naruto…could you let go please?… You can… can't you?"
Naruto's eyes widened. He blushed and let go. He looked away, so Sai wouldn't see. Sai didn't notice. He was looking straight ahead. He wondered where they were going, but soon he figured out that they weren't going anywhere. He spoke again a few minutes later.
"Naruto…"
"Yes?"
"I want to go home."
Naruto looked at him, shocked.
"What!? Why!?"
"It's late, and I'm tired."
"But, I wanted to take you somewhere!"
"Where?"
"Anywhere you wanted to go. It's your birthday. I wanted to hang out with you."
"Naruto, I really want to go home."
"But you need to hang out! C'mon! It'll be fun!" He looked at Sai, pleadingly.
"Naruto…"
"Yes?"
Sai stopped, making Naruto stop. Sai looked at him.
"I want to go home. Really."
Naruto studied Sai. The boy really did look worn. His eyes were weary. Naruto knew Sai wasn't used to days like this, probably the reason for his tiredness. It was night after all. Naruto nodded.
"Ok…let's go."
Slowly and silently, the two walked back to Sai's apartment. Sai entered and Naruto followed, closing the door behind him, he locked it. Naruto turned to face Sai. Naruto felt like he was intruding, but Sai didn't seem to mind. Sai looked at him, face void of emotion.
"Why did you decide to hang out with me instead of Sakura?"
"Why do you ask?" Naruto liked the tone of curiosity in Sai.
"Because I know you like her. I can tell."
"Correction. I did like her. I did like her." Naruto repeated the last sentence again with more emphasis.
"Oh… When did you stop liking her…?" The curiosity in Sai's voice increased.
That made Naruto smile. He liked that. Naruto shrugged. With his hands behind his back, Naruto took a step closer to Sai, who was just standing still, merely staring at Naruto with a mask of unconcern.
"I don't know…maybe…a long time ago…" Naruto's smile grew. He looked at Sai inquisitively, a jovial spark in his blue eyes. He leaned in slightly, closer to Sai. "I just never noticed. Because… the right person for me wasn't there… Because you weren't there."
Sai looked away. Naruto noticed the slight change in color in his cheeks. Naruto's face softened up. He closed the space between them. Gently, Naruto cupped Sai's cheek with his left hand, lifting up his head. Sai looked at him. His eyes were scared, worried, and confused. The warmth from Sai's cheeks seeped into Naruto's hand. He looked tenderly into the other boy's eyes.
"But…now…I have you. And you're right in front of me."
Naruto's heated breath was becoming irregular. He leaned in, and once their noses touched, Sai turned away. He took a step back. Naruto sighed. He knew this situation was new and uncomfortable to Sai. He sighed again. He decided to change the subject.
"I wished I could've told Sakura that today was your birthday. That way someone else could have congratulated you."
"…"
"But it is your secret."
Sai shrugged.
"I don't really care." Sai sounded indifferent, like he really didn't mind.
"Do you know why I didn't tell her?" Naruto questioned him.
Sai shook his head. Naruto had an urge to go to Sai, but he fought it.
"Because…I wanted to keep you all to myself."
"…?"
Sai looked at Naruto, who didn't want to admit what he saw in Sai's expression. Sai looked…frightened.
"Why?" Sai finally asked the question that had been lodged in his throat and mind all day long.
Sai looked sad. Naruto didn't like that. Especially if he was the one causing Sai that sadness and pain. But it was also his voice. It was soft and vulnerable.
"Why? You want to know why?"
Sai nodded.
"Sai, do you know what love is?"
Sai nodded again, "Yes. I know what it is. I've seen it. I've read about it. I don't know what it feels like."
"You will. I'm sure." Naruto smiled kindly. "I'll teach you. Will you let me help you?" Naruto looked at Sai sincerely.
The color on Sai's cheeks returned. Naruto's smile only warmed further and leisurely disappeared. Slowly, trying not to scare Sai any more than he already was, Naruto made the distance between him and Sai disappear. He held Sai's face delicately, as if afraid it would shatter into a million little pieces if he wasn't careful enough. Naruto placed his forehead on Sai's, staring lovingly into those obscure eyes that were slightly showing apprehension and fright.
"You still haven't answered my question," Naruto breathed lightly. "Will you let me help you?" Naruto repeated the question even more in a whisper, leaning in ever so slightly, it was hardly noticeable.
The warmth under Naruto's hands increased a little. Sai nodded slowly. The smile on Naruto's lips returned. It was probably the smallest smiled he ever smiled, but it was also probably the happiest. Naruto lightly pressed his lips against Sai's, kissing him softly. Sai closed his eyes to enjoy the moment, and his lips were motionless, letting Naruto massage them to his contentment. Despite his immobility and refusal to cooperate, Sai felt an immense amount of passion explode inside him. It commenced at the lip contact with Naruto's and quickly surged throughout his body. Sai shivered slightly, making Naruto giggle, a mere rumble in his throat. Sai's body felt slightly weaker and more hot. All his insides felt fired up. Sai was was going to pull away, but Naruto beat him to it. Naruto stopped and pulled apart so that their lips were only centimeters apart, Naruto couldn't bring himself up to moving farther away from Sai. His breath against Sai's pale skin was heated, for he had felt the same as his partner.
"Sai…" Naruto's diminutive panting forced a pause in his speech. "I love you."
Sai's eyes searched Naruto. They searched him for a lie. They searched him for a prank. He found none. Sai felt his rims fill up with warmth; the tears in his eyes made his black eyes truly look like the ink he used for his pictures. Naruto noticed. His blue eyes quickly sought an explanation in Sai's expression. His only answer was elation. Sai was too happy. This new extreme emotion was causing him to tear. Naruto wondered if it hurt Sai to be undergoing such a drastic change.
"I hurt you…"
Sai smiled. A genuine smile of jubilation. He shook his head a little in Naruto's delicate hands and stared him in the eyes.
"It's a good pain. A happy pain."
Naruto couldn't help but feeling marginally sad for the pain he was causing Sai. Even if it was happy, the guilt was still there. Naruto observed Sai's eyes fill up more. As Sai's right eye filled up faster than his left, Naruto smoothly brushed under it, just in time to catch the tear, wiping it away. Sai closed is eyes, smile receding. He leaned his cheek against the hand that had removed his tear.
Naruto stared at him lovingly, tiny smile returning at the sight, before it became a straight line again. He closed his eyes and leaned in so that the tips of the tops of their lips touched.
"Sai…Take me to your bedroom." Naruto's voice was soft.
Sai did not speak. He pulled away, and Naruto let him. Sai began walking, and Naruto followed him. They walked across the wooden floorboards, which creaked under them. Naruto found the sounds weird, because they were not cohesive to their weight. Naruto stopped. He listened closely. No sound came as Sai continued to walk down the hall. Sai was so light, his footsteps made no noise. That made Naruto blush. Was he that much heavier than Sai? Now Naruto was frightened of crushing Sai when he would soon be under him. He could already imagine Sai's expression of ecstasy while Naruto was inside of him. Naruto's face reddened even further. What was he thinking!? Naruto shook his head, discarding those impure thoughts away.
Naruto hurried to catch up before Sai could ask what was wrong. Sai had stopped, and he stood in front of his room. He waited for Naruto, staring at him. Naruto was glad that by the time he caught up, his blush had disappeared. Sai opened the door to his room and entered. He turned on the lights. Naruto followed him in. He turned off the lights. Sai turned around to look at him. Even with the lights off, the window in Sai's room had no blinds or curtains which let all the moonlight and stars' light shine in. Both could see perfectly well. Naruto saw the question in Sai's eyes which was forming in his mouth. He answered before Sai could ask.
"Don't…No lights." He said in a low voice.
Sai didn't think it was much of an answer, in fact, the question was still there, but he left it at that. Sai stood still, observing Naruto as Naruto studied his room. Naruto's eyes rested on the corner of the room, which had many canvases and sketch books facing the wall. Naruto was curious as to why the pictures were hidden. He walked over and reached out. He was about to turn a canvas over when Sai stopped him.
"No!"
Naruto was already crouching down, his hand on the canvas. He froze and turned to look at Sai.
"But why not?"
"Please. I…I don't want you to see them."
Naruto would've pressed further, but he saw the worried distress in Sai's eyes. He nodded. Naruto stood and turned away. As his hand slipped across the canvas, it tipped down. He turned around as he heard it fall. His eyes widened at what he saw.
"Sai…These…" Naruto didn't even know what to say.
Naruto stared at all the canvases and all the sketch books. Sai walked up behind him slowly, nervously. Naruto bent down and picked up a sketch book. He flipped through it. All the sketches were of him. He stared at all the canvases that had fallen. All the paintings were of him. There were pictures of Naruto eating, training, relaxing, all moments where ones that Sai had witnessed.
"When…? Why…? Why did you draw all these? Why are they all me?"
"I drew them because they helped me to understand emotions better. But…then I just couldn't stop. I found them…I found you too beautiful."
Naruto stood up and turned around. The sketchbook in his hands slipped. It was true that Sai's artwork was gorgeous, but now his eyes craved the thing that he found most beautiful. Sai. Naruto wrapped an arm around Sai's slender waist and pulled him towards his own body so that their pelvises crushed against each other. Naruto enjoyed the warmth from Sai's exposed back onto his arm and hand. Naruto wanted to ask Sai if he could kiss him, but to ask seemed absurd. Maybe he could just do it, and Sai wouldn't mind.
When Naruto leaned in for his third kiss, Sai managed to get out of his grip and back away. Naruto stared at him in confusion. Sai was looking away, his cheeks pink. He was looking at the ground sadly. Naruto only grew more confused. Sai walked over to the door and opened it.
"Get out."
Naruto's eyes widened. What had he done wrong? Now, Naruto was even more confused. Slowly, he walked over to where Sai was. Sai stared at the ground, avoiding eye contact. Naruto was about to get out when he frowned and stopped. Naruto took the door and closed it, pinning Sai against it, hands on either side of him offering no escape. He stared at him angrily. Sai stared back hints of fear in his eyes.
"I want to know why."
"I prefer to be alone. My life was simpler that way."
Sai's reply startled Naruto, causing his eyes to widen more. His frown deepened.
"Don't say bullshit!" Naruto was infuriated, not only because of his hard effort to help Sai and because his feelings were hurt, but because he could see that Sai was lying. "Sai, I know these feelings are new to you, but you have to act upon them!" Naruto's voice become more kind and calm. "You need to let more people in."
"In where?"
"In your heart."
Naruto then proceeded to move one of his hands and place it on top of Sai's chest, where his heart was. The color on Sai's cheeks were returning. He lifted up a hand and held Naruto's hand there. Naruto looked tenderly in Sai's eyes. He wanted Sai to let him in his heart. He wanted to claim a spot there all his own. But not only that. He wanted to give him the other love as well. He wanted Sai to feel him physically.
Naruto's eyes were practically undressing Sai, and he realized this, because his blush intensified, and he looked away, letting go of Naruto's hand, which dropped. Naruto's feelings for Sai had grown without realization, and there was something that he had been meaning to find out.
"Why? Why did you do it?" Naruto's voice was a whisper.
"Do what?"
"Spare Sasuke? You betrayed your boss, Danzou…to help me…I need to know why."
Sai looked at Naruto when he answered, "Because. He is your friend. He is special to you, Naruto. And I wanted to protect that bond."
Naruto's heart fluttered. He found heat seep to his cheeks. Sai had really done that for him? Naruto gulped before asking another question he needed an answer to.
"Do you like me?"
"Yes. You are my teammate."
"Besides that. I mean, what if I weren't your teammate?"
"Then we never would have met."
Naruto paused and thought. He knew he need to ask the right question. Sai still didn't understand enough to know what he was talking about. Naruto looked at Sai with determination.
"Sai. I already told you my feelings for you. Do you feel the same?"
Yes. That was the right question. Naruto waited for an answer, and Sai's hesitation made him worry. When Naruto asked that question, Sai let in a tiny gasp, which Naruto did not notice. Sai's eyes searched him as if he were making sure it was okay to answer. Sai nodded sheepishly.
"Yes. I do."
Naruto smiled and hugged Sai tightly. He quickly pulled away and stared at Sai with determination.
"Sai. The thing I want to give you for your birthday is an experience."
"I told you. You don't have to give me anything. It's fine."
"No. It's not fine. I want to. I have to."
"But…why?"
Naruto turned around and looked at the corner that Sai had dedicated to the beautiful paintings and pictures of only him. He looked back at Sai.
"I want to make our bond stronger."
Sai nodded slowly. Naruto held Sai's delicate face with a cupped hand. He leaned in and kissed his cheek lightly. He whispered in Sai's ear.
"I'll make this a birthday you'll never forget."
Naruto's hot voice so close to his body made Sai shiver. Naruto smiled. He moved their bodies closer together. He held Sai's body securely to his by the hips. Naruto's body so close to his made Sai gulp. Naruto suppressed a giggle. He leaned in and kissed Sai's pale lips.
The foreign pressure of Naruto's lips on Sai's own made him lean back against the door. Naruto pulled them away so they could be in the middle of the room. With no support to sustain him, Sai lost his footing. He almost fell, but Naruto wrapped an arm around Sai's waist and pulled their bodies closer together. Naruto hardened, and when Sai felt it, the strange sensation of having extra weight added onto him and at skin contact made Sai flush and respond with his own arousal.
Feeling Sai react, responding the same way he had, Naruto urgently walked them over to Sai's bed. He only stopped when the back of Sai's legs hit what Naruto had been searching for. Naruto kissed Sai in a fashion that made Sai lean back. Naruto's last kiss before he pulled away added an extra weight down on Sai. Once Naruto pulled away, it didn't give Sai a chance to balance himself. Sai fell backwards onto the bed. He looked helpless, and that made Naruto smile as he took off his orange and black jacket. After having done that, he place himself over Sai's body, lips hovering right above his partner's.
With one hand, Naruto began to unzip Sai's shirt at a snail's pace. His free hand had positioned itself at Sai's hip, but Naruto wanted nothing more than to make it journey down in between Sai's thighs and feel how hard the teenager below him had gotten. Sai's hand shot up and stopped Naruto's hand from pulling down the zipper any further. Naruto had only managed to uncover down an inch, enough to reveal Sai's collar bone. Naruto couldn't stop staring. It was the most beautiful collar bone he'd seen. The hand that Sai had caught twitched. Naruto wanted to caress that exposed clavicle, trace his fingers down its elegance. Naruto bit the bottom of his lip.
"Naruto…what are you doing…?"
Naruto pulled his gaze away from Sai's bare skin. He looked his partner in the eyes. Sai's expression was unreadable, but it only made sense that he didn't know what was going on. Naruto gulped and pulled away. He sat down. Sai slowly sat up as well, next to him. Naruto watched Sai the whole time, eyes glued to the body he desired so much. His heat did not let up.
"Sai. Do you know what sex is?"
"Yes. I've read about it."
Naruto controlled is breathing. Of course. It was only logical that Sai would have read about it. Naruto couldn't help but gulp again though. How was he supposed to explain to Sai what he wanted to do? Naruto looked at Sai sincerely. Sai looked back, and Naruto was startled by what he found. Sai understood. Once Sai realized that Naruto saw his understanding, Sai blushed slightly but visibly. When Naruto saw Sai's blush, he felt his heart beat flutter. Cautiously, Naruto inched closer to Sai, reaching out with his right hand. He placed it gently on Sai's cheek. Sai rubbed his cheek again on Naruto's hand. Naruto smiled. Sai smiled back.
Naruto was pleased that Sai felt the same way he did. Just to be sure, he was going to ask. After all, Sai held all the power. It was said that the one who loved more was the one who let it. Naruto wanted to respect that. He didn't want to enter if Sai didn't want him to.
"Will you let me, Sai?"
Sai merely nodded, eyes still on Naruto, attentively, waiting patiently and calmly. Naruto leaned in, making both boy's lips centimeters apart, heated breathes mingling. Naruto's chest was moving up and down in rapidly in anticipation. He didn't know what was wrong, if anything was wrong with him at all. All these stranger feelings were new to Naruto. Of course they were new to Sai as well, and Naruto felt reassured by that. Sai's calm expression was the only thing that unsettled him. Then again. Sai always seemed tranquil. But that was because he didn't know any better right…?
Naruto reached up and gently raced Sai's smooth lips with his fingers. They twitched slightly when Naruto got to the corners. Naruto was mystified by Sai's cloudy eyes, hidden from his view to his emotion. Naruto knew that Sai communicated his emotions through his art, but Sai was an art piece in itself, and Naruto wanted to perfect it. He wanted to help Sai convey his emotions freely. Naruto was braking through that thick gloom, and he wanted to go in further into that mist. He had to save Sai from the fog he had built around himself.
Kissing Sai's lips slowly, Naruto then proceeded to finish pulling down the zipper of Sai's semi shirt. Once it was open, Sai panicked. He scrambled away from Naruto, closer to the headboard of his bed. Sai's breathing had become irregular and there were lost traces of a blush on his cheeks. Naruto stared at Sai in his inky eyes. Naruto observed the panic and fright in them. Feeling guilty for causing those emotions in the man he loved, Naruto strayed his eyes away from Sai's eyes. He watched as a trickle of sweat ran down the side of Sai's elegant and slender face.
Naruto did not understand. Was Sai regretting it? They hadn't even done anything yet. If that was the case, though, Naruto would abide by Sai's feelings and leave. He would comply to anything Sai wanted.
"You don't want to? If you don't, just say so, and I'll stop. I'll leave if you want me to. Just say the word." Naruto couldn't help but ramble in his own panic.
Sai looked down to the side. Naruto couldn't help but feel hurt. He had expected an answer right away. Why did Sai have to think about it? What did Sai have to think about at all? Naruto's heart pounded quickly with worry. Sai's indecisive eyes looked up at him. Naruto gulped forcefully through his dry and tight throat.
"Sai…?" Naruto was nervous and impatient to hear Sai's answer, but at the same time, he was also scared of being rejected by him. Naruto dared to ask again, "Do you want to?" The last thing he wanted was to come out as pushy, but he just had to know and get the anticipation over with.
This time, there was no hesitation in Sai's answer. He nodded again slowly, staring sincerely into Naruto's ocean blue eyes. It was then that Naruto that the reason Sai had moved away from him was because he was shy and embarrassed. Relief washed over Naruto. It had never crossed his mind that Sai could be nervous. After all, the two boys had already seen each other naked at hot springs, but then again, back then they weren't going to do anything. It was only natural for Sai to feel this way, especially since all these emotions and feelings were new to him. Of course, these new emotions coursing through Naruto were also new, but he knew how to handle them, especially since he had gone through similar feelings with himself.
Naruto watched as Sai's cheek turned a light colored pink. Naruto felt his insides warm at Sai's response. Sai was allowing Naruto to make love to him. Naruto crawled over to Sai and gracefully placed his hand on Sai's neck. Gently, he glided his hand down slender and elegant neck over Sai's shoulder. He removed half of Sai's shirt. Sai shrugged off the other side, the side with the long sleeve. Naruto took Sai's shirt and disposed of it to the side. Using the hand that was still on Sai's slim shoulder he lightly pushed Sai down and positioned himself on top of him, pressing down on Sai's lower half with his own.
The moment the bottom half of Naruto's body touched Sai's, Naruto felt him become hard, which in turn made Naruto hard. Sai inhaled deeply when he felt Naruto's erection against his body and wasn't allowed to let it out, when Naruto began to kiss him. Naruto was pleased to know that his partner was indeed aroused by him which only encouraged him, turning their kiss into a fiery passion.
When Naruto pulled way, it caused Sai to let out a heated gasp. Naruto sat up and took off his own black shirt. Sai sat up and trailed the tips of his fingers over Naruto's chest. Their skin did not meet, and when they did for a short instant, both felt an odd sensation of electric jolts surging from the source which then quickly traveled all over their bodies and intensified. Sai's opaque eyes were focused on Naruto's chest, but Naruto wanted his attention.
Naruto caught Sai's hand. Sai looked up at him. Naruto's blue sparkling eyes were penetrating. They were staring deeply into Sai's dark ones, and Sai's did the same. They were mirror images of their love. Keeping Sai's gaze, Naruto gradually lifted up the hand that Sai had been using to explore his body and placed the two bare fingers on his lips. Naruto brushed his lips on Sai's fingers. He watched as Sai turned to look at their joined hands. Slowly, Naruto removed Sai's glove. He kissed the back of Sai's hand and then turned his hand over and kissed the palm.
Sai looked back at Naruto. Using his right hand, the one still with the glove, Sai reached up and gently and caringly traced the three whiskers on Naruto's cheek individually, slowly. Sai raised his bare hand and did the same to Naruto's other cheek. Naruto's face flushed, and Sai was able to feel the warmth under his skin. Naruto's cheeks were smooth and warm.
Naruto took Sai's covered hand and did the same he did with the other, but every time he kissed Sai, his lips lingered over the pale skin. Once again, Naruto brought up Sai's fingers and softly placed them over his lips, there he lips parted slightly and he then proceeded to kiss each finger, all ten of them. Sai blushed. Naruto appreciated Sai a lot more than he had realized before. Many said that Sai didn't understand emotions, and Naruto had been one of them, but they had all been wrong, including him. In fact, Sai was the one who understood them the most, only his way of communicating those feelings was through art. Naruto understood that now, and he was ashamed for not figuring it out before.
Both teenagers were grateful for the silence between them and the unspoken love they shared. At the moment, to Naruto, Sai was the only one who existed, and he knew that Sai felt the same about him. Only the two of them existed in the whole universe, because they had each other.
Naruto pressed their lips together, leaning them down until Sai lay and Naruto was positioned on top of him. This time, Sai joined in the kissing making Naruto feel elated. Daring to try something new, Naruto integrated his tongue inside their joined mouths. At first, Naruto felt Sai tense, but it didn't last long. Sai's stiff body loosened up and soon he included himself in the same action Naruto was taking.
Naruto pulled away and sat up, staring down at Sai, who was panting slightly. There was an uneasy calm in his eyes as he waited for what he knew Naruto was going to do. Naruto placed his hands on Sai's hips. Using his left hand, Naruto slowly pulled down Sai's zipper, all the while studying his partner. Sai made no motion to stop him. Naruto's right hand then began to leisurely pull down Sai's black pants.
Naruto was greeted with the sight of Sai's naked body. He should've know that Sai, being as weird as he was, didn't wear boxers. Naruto took in the sight. Sai's bare body was perfect, as it bathed under the moonlight. Naruto basked in the sight of his naked partner and soon to be lover.
Now more impatient then ever, Naruto fully undressed himself, pushing aside all clothes leaving the bed empty save for them. Both unclothed, the two teenage boys were ready to commence. Naruto leaned over Sai's naked body and traced Sai's collar bone with his lips. Naruto felt Sai shiver under him, making him smile. Naruto journeyed his lips up as a hand glided over Sai's body, trekking down. Just as Naruto kissed Sai's throat, his hand gripped on Sai's erection. Naruto felt the rumbled of a whine that never made it out, due to its suppression. This also made him smile.
Naruto knew that Sai hadn't known to masturbate, as he had, to relieve pleasure. The thing was, though, Naruto realized, that he hadn't in fact masturbated himself in awhile. Naruto had masturbated to Sasuke, heck, he had even masturbated to Sakura, but… Now that Naruto recalled it, he had stopped masturbating when he met Sai. Was it out of respect to him? Was it in the hopes that one day he could actually have sex with Sai? Whatever the case, Naruto was bent on both of them having pleasure.
Naruto gripped what he held in his hands tighter and made Sai's lips meet with his own, trapping his gasp. Naruto pressed his own erection hard against Sai's thigh. The smooth massaging motion of their joined lips only allowed for their moaning and panting to be heard as they escaped between the slight breaks in mouth contact. As their slippery wet tongues met in no contest to see which held more affection towards the other, Sai pulled away, to Naruto's dismay.
"Naruto…" Sai spoke between pants. "Why do you want to do this with me?"
Naruto felt his heart shatter. He hadn't expected Sai to ask that question. Was he having doubts? Naruto pulled away from Sai and sat up, looking in the other direction. He felt and heard Sai sit up as well and then move next to him.
"It's true that…I loved Sasuke once, but he never loved me back. All he did was break my heart." He turned to look at Sai with worry. "I assure you that you're not his replacement.:"
Sai just stared at him, waiting for him to finish, not reacting. Naruto looked down at the bed, sadly, legs crossed in front of him, just like Sai had his. Naruto continued despite the fact that he was ashamed and embarrassed at sharing these feelings with Sai. Naruto had never wanted Sasuke, regardless of the kiss they had shared. It was true that Naruto had masturbated to Sasuke, but that was only because he found Sasuke aesthetically pleasing to the eye, and he thought that of Sai as well. In fact, he found Sai more attractive than he did Sasuke.
"I already tried sheltering my feelings with Sakura, but, as you can see, that got me no where," Naruto looked up at Sai, sincerity in his glimmering azure eyes. "But with you…With you, Sai, I feel different. You awaken things in me, feelings I never knew I had… I should've known all along that you were the one for me, Sai. I'm meant for you."
"…" The pause before Sai spoke unnerved Naruto greatly. "Naruto…you don't have to explain yourself to me--."
"But--."
Sai interrupted him with the line Naruto had one day dreamed of hearing from the one he cared for most, and now he was hearing just that from the person he wanted it to come from.
"Naruto. You are perfect."
Naruto looked at Sai with shock, eyes wide, blushing slightly. Sai smiled at him kindly, adoration in his warm eyes. He leaned in and kissed Naruto's cheek, releasing him from his stunned state. Naruto looked at Sai hopefully.
"Really?"
Sai nodded, "Really. And besides, that's not what I meant when I asked you the question."
Naruto blushed more, embarrassed. "It's not!?"
Sai giggled.
"No."
"Then what did you mean?"
"What I meant by the question was, why do you want to make love to me right now?"
"Oh…"
It was then that Naruto realized what Sai's question really meant. Sai still didn't understand that this is what Naruto's birthday present for him was. Naruto smiled tenderly.
"Because I love you," Naruto chose the most simple answer that wasn't a lie to give.
Sai blushed a bit.
"Oh…I love you too Naruto."
Naruto pulled Sai into a hug. The unexpected embrace made Sai's eyes widen a bit and his cheeks to heat up more. Naruto smiled when he felt Sai's erection against his navel. He kissed Sai's shoulder up to his neck lovingly. The contact with Naruto's lips on his sensitive skin made Sai shiver and awaken goose bumps on his arms. Naruto giggled.
"Anything else you want to know?"
Sai shook his head.
"Good. Now, no distractions?"
Sai agreed, nodding, "No distractions."
"Mmm…" Naruto nibbled the side of Sai's neck sensually pushing them down against the bed.
Naruto pulled up and opened up Sai's legs. Sai observed Naruto, panting and sweating. Naruto stared at his lover caringly.
"I want you to relax ok? Things might feel weird, but I need to relax, and let your body do what comes naturally."
Sai nodded. Naruto bent down, getting in between Sai's legs. Using his tongue, he licked his way from the side of Sai's right thigh to the entrance all the while Sai shivered. When he got to his lover's opening, his tongue circled around it before going inside. He heard Sai stifle a moan. Naruto had gotten the desired effect he wanted, and now he was aiming for more. Naruto stuck his tongue in deeper, managing to make Sai moan. Naruto pulled out and smiled. Naruto marveled at how good Sai tasted. He was better than ramen.
Naruto trailed his tongue up Sai's smooth testicles and up Sai's erect penis. Naruto fully licked the sensitive part on top. Sai let out a tiny gasp hidden moan. Naruto smiled at Sai's reaction and at the new and exotic taste in his mouth, arousing him more. Yes. Definitely better than ramen. Naruto stared at Sai, who was panting and had his eyes closed.
Naruto placed himself between Sai's legs. Gently, he held Sai's thighs, rubbing his hands smoothly over the pale and silky skin. Sai's muscles twitches, almost as an instinct to anticipate what was going to come. Naruto got the desired effect he wanted. Sai opened is eyes and looked up to see what Naruto was doing. Naruto smiled at him and moved his hands to softly hold Sai's hips.
Naruto entered his stiff and pulsing hot penis inside. As he came in, the walls tightened around him. Naruto pushed in further. Sai's face contorted to one of displeasure and pain, jaw setting, teeth clenched together. Sai held the sheets tightly and pressed his head further back on his pillow. Sai's hot body began to sweat, and he forced his panting through his nose. Naruto only felt slightly guilty at causing his love this unpleasant feeling, but he knew he would be able to make it up with the pleasure and elation that would follow.
Naruto held his lover's hips securely as he pulled out and came back in, repeating the process. Sai let out a gasp. Naruto was fascinated by his lover's actions. He noticed that Sai was gripping the sheets tighter, and he had his eyes shut once more. Sai was panting and sweating, his head facing the heavens. Naruto smiled again, as he thrust in quicker, making Sai let out another moan. Pleased with is lover's reaction, Naruto continued his present pace. Sai's panting increased.
Naruto observed and studied Sai closely as he came in and out at a rhythmic motion. Naruto knew he was going to memorize every action Sai made, no matter how minute. Each scene would be imprinted and engraved in his mind. These indented images would be at his disposal, so Naruto could play them in his mind whenever he wanted, watching them over and over again. Naruto's body heated at the thought.
Naruto leaned in closer to Sai's body, pushing in further. Sai moaned louder in ecstasy. Naruto could feel Sai's hard cock pressed in between their bodies, turning him on even more. Naruto saw Sai's abs flexing with every push in. Naruto leaned in and covered Sai's lips with his own, kissing him sensually. Sai wrapped his arms around Naruto's neck, hands entwining in Naruto's hair, gripping it lightly.
Naruto pushed in as far as he could go, hitting Sai's prostate. Sai moaned loudly, arched his backing rapture, and gripped Naruto's back. Naruto, in his state of exhilaration, only felt what should've hurt as a caress, though he knew he would later feel the effects of Sai's gripping, and he did not mind. Sai could feel Naruto's hot and sweaty skin under his fingers. Naruto moved his hands down from Sai's hips and lifted up Sai's legs, positioning them at the side. Sai helped by opening up his legs as wide as they would go. Naruto quickened his speed. In the quiet room there was a symphony of both boys' panting and moaning and the creaking of the bed and floorboards underneath.
With each push in, Naruto moaned out Sai's name. In Sai's current state of exultation and in his still engaged panting, he could not moan out Naruto's name, no matter how hard he tired. Sai wrapped his legs around Naruto's waist, clawing at Naruto's molted skin in pleasure, and he pressed their bodies tightly together.
Naruto pushed in, searching for the spot that brought Sai the most pleasure, causing Sai to moan louder, traces of Naruto's name lost in his throat. Once Naruto hit the spot he wanted, three things happened simultaneously. Both of them came, Sai arched his back, and he was finally able to let out Naruto's name.
"Naruto!"
Naruto stopped and smiled. He could feel the sticky liquid against his hot skin, smothered in between him and Sai's. Naruto was overjoyed to have heard Sai' scream out his name in pleasure. It was the voice of his angel, which he would never forget, for it would always be ringing at the back of his mind. Sai opened up his eyes slowly and looked up at Naruto lovingly. He smiled back.
Both lovers panted. Sai's grip on Naruto loosened, and Naruto was able to slip out, laying down next to his lover. He stared at Sai tenderly. He placed his hand on Sai's belly, rubbing it lightly. He looked down and saw some of the ejaculate on his hand. Naruto lifted up his hand land licked it off his fingers; he loved the taste of Sai. Naruto looked back up at his lover. Sai stared back at him affectionately, the sleepiness apparent in his eyes.
Naruto smiled fondly and embraced his lover in a tight hug. Sai cuddled against Naruto's chest. Both their panting had calmed, and their chests moved up in a slow motion of calm and tranquility. Holding Sai in his arms, Naruto was able to feel each touch Sai had caressed him with during their love making as if Sai were actually touching him at the moment. Naruto smiled. He knew that every touch Sai had stroked him with that night were ones he would always feel again from then on whenever Sai touched him. He would feel Sai's traces in that night of their heated passion. Naruto was always going to remember, and he knew sai would too.
"Sai."
"Mm?" Sai replied lowly as he drifted off to sleep.
"Happy birthday." Naruto said softly and kissed the top of Sai's head.
Sai blushed stylishly, realizing that this was the present Naruto was talking about. This was the experience.
"Naruto…" Sai forced his eyes open, and he looked up at Naruto shyly. "Thank you."
Naruto smiled kindly and responded in a whisper that would continue for the rest of their conversation.
"You're welcome."
Sai cuddled back to Naruto's chest and closed his eyes.
"Naruto…"
"Yeah?"
"I love you."
Naruto felt all of his insides warm. His heart accelerated rapidly, and he, too, blushed slightly.
"I love you too, Sai."
Naruto spoke aloud and still in a whisper, not knowing if Sai heard him or if he had already fallen asleep, but his words were true nonetheless.
"Sai. You won't be alone anymore. Not on your birthday. Not ever. I promise you."
And Naruto would keep his promise, after all, it was his way of the ninja.
Naruto thought of the following day. He smiled. They would go to training or perhaps a mission. Naruto didn't care what they did really, but all he knew and cared about was that he would be by Sai's side, and he always would be from then on. Naruto's smile widened at the images in his head. He wondered if Sai would mind him coming over every day to his apartment everyday. Naruto's smile grew once more ever so slightly at his next thought. Naruto would create many more sequels with Sai. After all, it was his favorite movie.