I didn't want to do it but I had no choice. I was forced into it. If I didn't they would have died and everyone, as usual, would blame me for both of their deaths. This never would have happened if she had just stayed away from my son. I was trying to move on. I swear I was trying to move on. Every thing was changing for me; I even had a new man. I was done with Ethan. I was finally, ready to move on. Yeah, I still loved him. He was a big part of my life but he had proven over and over that he didn't want me. Gwen just couldn't live with the thought that I was finally ready to move on; that I had someone that wanted to move on with me as well. I was going to finally be free of Ethan and Gwen. Why couldn't she just see that? Ethan was hers now. Ethan was her problem now and not mine. It's like she needs me to be a part of her life; I think she may have an obsession with me. Here she is crying and telling her sob story of how I stole her man when I don't even want him anymore. Why is she acting like she's a victim in all this? This is all her doing.

I can't believe I'm sitting here with so much joy in voice  I know it's wrong but I can't help but feel that it's so right as well. I've been praying for this day and finally it's come. I'm going to have my own baby soon. Yeah, I know that Theresa had to have the procedure to kill one of my babies but that doesn't matter now. I'm having a baby girl. My own little girl. I think I'll name her Sandra. Theresa killed my precious little Sara and now she's giving me another girl in place of Sara. This is just too great for words. My own enemy is repaying me by giving me another daughter. I know Theresa is upset that she had to have the procedure done and she's probably feeling emotional pain over the trauma done to her body; but, who cares? As long as I have my baby girl, nothing else matters. Nothing but my happiness should matter anyways. Ethan's already made that quite clear.

I can't believe that I actually am sitting here and praying that that baby girl is mine and Gwen's. I can't believe I'm praying for my other child with Theresa to be dead. I love Theresa but I have to stay with Gwen. It's the right thing to do. I've already hurt Gwen too much. My love for Theresa caused her to loose her baby. If I had just stayed away from Theresa, none of this would have happened. If I wasn't so noble, Theresa and I would be married right now. Since, we'll never be together our child has to die. It's the only right decision. I know it is. Trust me. Theresa will thank me some day.

I just hope and pray that my baby made it through the procedure and that Gwen's and Ethan's died. I swear that no matter what, I will be bringing home this baby. Gwen will never get this baby. She killed Sara and blamed me for it, she took my son, and now it's time to repay the favor. I know that I've made mistakes in the past, but at least I've admitted my faults. Gwen on the other hand, kills and kidnaps children and then blames me. She can smile and thank me all she wants but in the end this child will be mine and Gwen will know what it feels like to get slapped in the face.

My poor Gwenie! I warned her about Theresa and did she listen to me? No, she didn't. I'm her mother. I know what's best for her. Theresa is planning on keeping that child. I know she is. There is no way that lying bitch is going to give my Gwenie her child. I know she won't. She tried to steal away her one true love and now she's trying to take her husband and her baby. I swear, I'll kill Theresa if she does anything to ruin Gwen's happiness.

I know that Theresa is my daughter but right now I can't help but feel anger towards. She stole Gwen's eggs and had them implanted in her and then when she thought she wasn't pregnant, she raped Ethan; so that she'd have a baby to give them. What kind of monster have I raised? I know that I've never raised a single one of  my children to behave like this. Theresa is in for a world of hurt if she doesn't give them this child. I can't believe she decided to have that abortion. She should know what she did was wrong. I just pray that her child doesn't survive now.

Theresa is my best friend. We've been best friends since grade school. Every time, she gets an idea into her head I try to stop her. Why can't she be more like me? I'm an upstanding moral person who tries to do everything right and by the book. If Theresa would just try to be like me, she'd be better off with her life. Look at me now, I've got Fox and he's going to be the father of my baby whether he likes it or not. Now I know what you're thinking. You're think what I'm doing is just as bad as what Theresa did to Ethan but it's not. Theresa got what she deserved because she's not pure and righteous like me. I on the other hand, got screwed over by my mother and am therefore justified in all of my actions.

Soon, everyone would know the outcome of the procedure.

I decided to do it this way for the fact that I wanted to write how I feel the character's act in their own mind.

I know I might have gotten a little out of hand with Whitney!