Missing you

Vivi.

You were always the quiet one. The one I always ask to come with me when I went exploring. You always came to. You were special, and I never realized it. Until now.

I can't believe I never realised it. You were shy, unsure, and just needed some one to talk to. I could be that person. I wish I had noticed sooner. I miss you. I wish I could tell you how I feel, but it's to late. I miss you, I need you, by my side. I hope you come back.

Vivi? If you can hear me, please come back. I need to tell you, to feel your arms around me. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel lonely. You used to always keep me company on our journey. What if you came back? What would happen? Would you still be the same? Would you still be the Vivi I fell in love with? That's right, L-O-V-E. I never knew, til you left. come back, please.

You plague my dreams. I can't get any decent sleep, unless it'd dreamless, which it's usually not. If you were here...if you were here, I'd don't know what I'd do. Cry? Never let you go? Tell you how I missed you? Probably all of the above. You know how emotional I can get.

I'm starting to get corny. How pathetic...

Hey! My birthday is next week. I've grown a lot since you last saw me. Doctor Tot says I'm tall for my age. I bet you would be taller. I'll be 14 in case you were wondering. Yea, it's been 8 years. Long time, eh? It's your own fault.

I swear I almost died when you walked into the castle, and on my 12th birthday! You just said a simple 'happy birthday' and I could tell you were smiling. Your eyes glow brighter when you're happy. Quite entrancing. Poetic? See what boredom has forced me to? Well I ran straight from my balcony when I saw you walking up to the gate. That's a lot of stairs. See how much I missed you? I hugged you so tight, I think you went numb, or couldn't breath. Whichever one it was, you still hugged me back. It was then you promised me that you'd always be at my side. I was so happy.

Clue word: was. It wasn't till a whole year afterward that you told me you would eventually stop. I didn't like how you said it, that you would stop. It was like a taboo word. I hated it. Especially when you used it like that. I didn't believe you...I couldn't. You were special, to me, to everyone. You were someone that would never...COULD never, be replaced. Then when it happened, you stopped, my world crashed. Instead of killing me in the crash, it decided to fall around me and spare my now void life.

I was in a deep depression, I still am. No more bright, colorful 'cheer-everyone-up' Eiko. I wear black and gray, with an occasional white. I stay in my room, I don't talk much any more, except to you, and that's only either in my mind or on paper. Dagger told me this isn't what you would have wanted. I already know that. That's the point.

I don't know what to do anymore. People think I have gone insane. I tell them I spend my time in my room talking to you, which I do, it temporarily fills that void you left. I miss you Vivi.

Wait for me please, I'll be there, soon.

Owari
Old story. Re-edited. Hope you like.

#Hikaru#