Hello again everyone! This one's a bit hard to follow and ends rather abruptly. Believe me, I know, but please bare with me.
Lily was sitting in the Gryffindor common room thinking of the week's events. It was certainly one of, if not the very worst. Minerva McGonagall had sought after Lily during her Wednesday morning classes. Lily observed the woman's deep frown lines as said woman explained her reason for excusing the girl from the rest of her classes that day.
"Mrs. Evans, I would expect that you will want to sit before I begin." Taking the hint, Lily sat in one of the armchairs facing the deputy headmistress' desk. Professor McGonagall pointedly gave the worried child a grave look and gestured toward the small vial on her desk.
"This is a Calming Draught. If at any time during our conversation you feel as if you need it, feel free to do so." Lily nodded her understanding.
"This morning it was brought to our attention that young Severus had not attended any of his morning classes. Professor Dumbledore and Professor Slughorn went to check on him in the Slytherin commons. Mr. Snape was found still in bed with a vial containing Doku Ankoku." The girl gasped in horror. McGonagall sighed.
"I take it you have heard of this potion." Lily slowly nodded before adding.
"Yes. Severus and I where reading about potions in the restricted section during the holidays. Professor… is he really, is he really gone?" Her pure green eyes rose to the professor's with a look of desperation. Minerva was at a loss. She did not want to hurt the girl, but she also knew she could not lie to her. So against her feelings, the woman spoke her confirmation. At first the female Gryffindor only stared blankly, but in a matter of seconds she was sobbing uncontrollably into the older woman's emerald robes. Gentle hands stroked the back of the distraught girl soothingly. Only when the tears lessened did the Head of House offer a tissue and proceed with the conversation.
"Do you know of a reason why the poor boy would do this?" She inquired carefully.
"We had a fight a few days ago, and I told him that I didn't want to be his friend any longer." Lily whispered softly. "He took the Dark Mark even though I tried to convince him not to. I didn't mean to hurt him so badly, I was just so angry and scared." And with that her tears started anew.
Lily thought about that awful day wanting to bawl once again, yet she continued to sit numbly and only ponder. A light peck at the window alerted her that and owl had come to her. Pushing the window aside she allowed the bird into the commons. It looked slightly familiar, but Lily could not place where as had seen it before. The creature held out its leg with a letter attached as she walked closer. Fetching the letter, Lily gave the owl a treat from inside her robe pocket and the animal was on its way. She gazed at the note for a moment before finally breaking the seal and reading the message.
Dear Lily,
I don't know how exactly to express my regret and sadness towards the past events. I want to apologize, truly I do. If I had know that I risked losing you while accepting the mark, know that I would not have taken the same actions I did. I had only wanted a place to belong. I had forgotten that I had you. As I mentioned before, I haven't a clue as how to express myself so I think this song should sum it up quite nicely.
You could be happy
I won't know
But you weren't happy
The day I watched you go
And all the things
That I wish I had not said
Are played loops
'Till it's madness in my head
Is it too late to remind you?
How we were
But not our last days of silence
Screaming, bur
Most of what I remember
Makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking
Out the door
You could be happy
I hope you are
You made me happier
Then I'd been by far
Somehow everything
I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment
It's all not true
Do the things
That you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back
Don't think, just do
More than anything
I want to see you go
Take a glorious bite
Out of the whole world
You have James now Lily, and as much as I loathe it, you'll be happy with him. You won't need me from now on. I'm so sorry to have put you through all this pain, you don't deserve it. Goodbye my sweet Lily.
Forever Yours,
Severus Tobias Prince-Snape
Review Please!