Find Our Way Back Chapter 1: Just to Hear You Say That You Love Me, an one tree hill fanfic

Find Our Way Back

Chapter 1

Just to Hear You Say That You Love Me

Disclaimer: I don't own any of these OTH characters, as much as I'd like to. And none of these songs are mine.

Author's Note: I want to say from the beginning that I mean no disrespect to the artists who rightfully own the songs and lyrics in this Fan Fic. But, for the purposes of my story, they're ALL Haley's songs, unless otherwise noted. The last post of this story will list the songs and their true artists. Each chapter will be a song title that I found appropriate for the feelings I wanted to convey for that chapter.

Quick synopsis: It's been 10 years since Nathan and Haley got married. Andy they've been separated for the past 5 years. Haley and Nathan went their separate ways after college.

Haley Scott sat quietly on her living room couch, working on a new song, when she heard the report on the sports radio station she'd grown accustomed to listening to, "Nathan Scott's out for the night. The exact reason has not been released." She wondered what was wrong. He'd never missed a game. Tuning out the broadcaster's discussion about what had happened with Nathan, she busied herself with thoughts of the last few days. Or even more accurately, the day before. Had they still been together, she and Nathan would have celebrated their 10th wedding anniversary. But, thanks to her, they hadn't celebrated in five years.

For the past five years, that day had been hard for her. The other days, without him, had gotten easier, but that day was still a difficult one. It would remind her of the vows they'd made, and thrown away. They'd never officially divorced, and she wondered if he thought about her still.

If I could win your heart,

You'd let me in your heart
I'd be so happy, baby
Just for these arms to be
Holding you close to me
There's nothing in this world I won't try
No limit to what I'd do to make you mine, 'cause

When she left Nathan, she'd also left everyone else behind. She knew she needed a change. Haley had tried to find her spot in Nashville, so that her reason for leaving wasn't a lie. But her heart wasn't in it. Then when she got sick, she admitted she needed help and called Lucas. Only to find out that he and Brooke, had moved to Nashville when one of Brooke's uncles had passed away and left them a house. Once they'd discovered she was pregnant, Lucas had spent the next year trying to get her to contact Nathan. She'd finally made him promise to never tell Nathan about her, or Jimmy and to never mention him in her presence.

She knew it was hard on Lucas, because he and Nathan were still close. But she also knew that he respected her reasons for keeping Nathan in the dark. He didn't agree, and she knew he didn't understand, but he respects her decision.

If I could taste your kiss
There'd be no sweeter gift
Heaven could offer baby
Oh, baby
I want to be the one
I want to be the one
Living to give you love
I'd walk across this world just to be
Close to you 'cause I want you close to me, yeah

Haley thought about the months before they'd said goodbye. She could never forget the night she'd realized they couldn't stay together.

Haley and Nathan laid in bed, their bodies intertwined. Her head rested comfortably on his chest, and his arms were lightly draped around her.

"Hales," Nathan whispered.

"Yeah baby."

"I've been thinking."

"'Bout what?"

"Us. Basketball. Having a family."

"Oh yeah?"

"Yeah. And I've decided to turn down the NBA."

"What in the hell for?" Haley sat up and scooted away from him.

"For you…"

"Nathan,"

"And our family."

"We don't have a family Nathan."

"I know, but I was hoping we could start one soon."

"I want a family too, but what does that have to do with the NBA?"

"I want to be a good parent."

"Nathan, we've talked about that. You'll be a wonderful parent. You're nothing like Dan. And the NBA won't change that."

"It's not Dan that I'm afraid of becoming this time Hales," Nathan was sitting up now too, "it's my mom. She traveled all the time because of work. I always missed her. I'd travel even more. And I don't want that. I want to be there for my family."

"Nathan, the NBA is your dream. I won't let you give that up," little did she know, having a family was and even bigger dream for him.

That next morning, she'd done the unexpected. After lying awake all night thinking, she'd decided that she could not let him give up basketball again. So, over breakfast, she'd told him that she wanted to pursue a professional music career, and they should split up. Nathan actually cried when she told him. He begged her to change her mind. They could make it work. She told him dreams were too important to be shoved under a rug and forgotten. They owed it to themselves to follow those dreams.

The five months between that day, and the day she said goodbye were hell. Nathan was constantly trying to change her mind. And she became a bitch. If Nathan didn't love her anymore, things would be easier. But he'd tried everything to get her to stay. Their last night, she'd lied to him.

Haley walked through the front door, and saw Nathan sitting on the couch. He had papers in one hand, a pen in the other, and roses sitting in a vase on the coffee table. "Nathan?"

He looked up at her, "This is it Haley. Please tell me you've changed your mind."

She couldn't believe he had divorce papers already, "What do you have there Nathan?"

"Chicago wants to sign me."

Haley breathed a sigh or relief, "That's great Nathan."

"But I want you Haley. Not some dumb basketball contract."

She wanted him to sign, so eyeing her packed bags sitting in the corner, she said, "Nathan, if you sign that, and drop it in the mail right now, I'll stay and we'll find a way to make things work."

He'd signed without a second though. She'd known he would. They'd gone together to mail it, then went to dinner and returned home for what would be, Haley knew, their last night together. And that was the night Jimmy was conceived. The next day, Nathan had gone to tell Lucas about the contract, and Haley deciding to stay. He'd wanted her to go along, but she'd said she would stay home and unpack. But only moments after he left, she had too, with her bags in tow and never looking back.

For the rest of your life
For the rest of your life
Love me for the rest of all time
Oh baby, baby
Just say the word
And I'll give you my world
There's nothing I won't do
Baby, just to be with you

Now she wished things were different; that she hadn't been so stubborn.

I'd climb right up to the sky
I'd take down the stars
Just to be in your arms, baby
I'd go and capture the moon
That's what I would do
Just to hear you say that you love me
Just to hear you say that you love me
Just to hear you say that you love me, baby
Just to hear you say that you love me
Oh, I need to hear you say that you love me, baby
Just to hear you say that you love me
Just say you love me
Just say you need me

But now, she was doubting herself. Haley knew that now she'd do anything, just to hear him say he loved her.

Just to hear you say that you love me

Just then, the phone rang…