Disclaimer: Batman is not mine.

A/N: Written for this week's drabble challenge in BatmanAndRobin group. The word is trust. Not betaed.

Trust 1
Bruce's View of the Situation
by
annakas

It all came down to trust. And I just didn't trust him anymore. It is
so very sad of me, no? I love him, I really do love him, he is the love
of my life. I am sure of it with my entire soul, but the trust is gone.

I can not trust him to watch my back anymore, I can not trust him to
keep my heart safe anymore, I can not trust him period. He left me
before to search his inner self. At least that is what he told me. I
smothered him, he said, I didn't appreciate him he told me. And so my
Robin left me. Just like that... and he was gone.

I raised him, I gave him everything that was left of my dark soul, I
loved him in the beginning like family, later when he was older like
a lover, he took it all and then he left me.

Tim stayed, became the new Robin, but Dick left. Nothing can replace
him to me. Tim is like a child to me, but Dick is my love, my former
lover, my soul, my everything.

It was so dark when he was gone. Darker than before at least. I am
always in the dark now days. And now he is back as Nightwing. He
told me he found what he had been searching for. And now he is
back. He wants to be my lover again, continue where we left
things off...

I should be happy that he is back, but I am not. It all comes back to
the trust issue. I don't trust him anymore, not with my heart, nor
with my safety in battle. He left before, he could do it again. And I
am not strong enough to survive if he left again.

I will not cut him out of my life. I will always love him, no matter
what but I will not start our love affair again. Because I don't trust
him to keep me safe. But still I can't cut him out.

He is too strongly inside my soul for that. So it will be like a guilty
pleasure/pain/torture to see him again on regular basis. More like
the last two words of my description.

I want him back, I won't take him back it would kill me if he left
again. I can not survive another mind game.

It is over... OVER... but why is it so hard to accept it? I won't take
him back I WON'T!

Unless he can convince he is serious. Unless he wins the trust of the
Darkknight. Until Batman trusts him to watch his back. Until Bruce
Wayne the billionaire trusts his heart to him again. Until...

NOnononononooooooo I will not hope, I will not, I can not...
because I don't trust him ever again.

Bitter? Ohh yes that I definitely am.

It all comes down to trust...

fin