Son's of Anarchy- The Dirty Little Secrets

CHAPTER 1- Introduction

I grew up in a small town in California, called Charming. Growing up I dreamed of leaving the small town life and move to LA. I lived with my mom in a two bedroom house not far from downtown.

My mom, Ally, worked as an office manager for the local auto repair shop called Teller-Marrow (TM). She was a very pretty woman and had many men over all the time. My mom was very close friends with the local Motorcycle club, Son's of Anarchy (SOA) also known as SAMCRO (Sons of Anarchy Motorcycle Club Redwood Originals).

SAMCRO was an outlaw biker club that loved to party. The original President of the club John Teller and the Vice President Piermont (Piney) Winston; were very close to my mom. I was best friends with their sons Jackson (Jax) Teller and Harry (Opie) Winston. My mom was what the club called a Crow Eater. Crow Eater's were women who did whatever the club told them to while they waited for one of them to make them their old lady (Wife). My mom dreamed of being an old lady.

Growing up was a little hard for me. My mom didn't make a lot of money but the club helped when they could. I never knew my father. When I would ask questions about my father my mom would argue with me or blow me off completely. My mom was never around. She spent most of her time at the Clubhouse which was in the same parking lot as the Auto repair shop. I hated and loved my mom. I hated her for not being there for me but she was my mother so I do have some love for her.

I spent most of my time hanging out with Jax and Opie who were about two years older than me. They treated me like a sister and I was grateful to have someone to talk to and be there for me. I never really got along with any girls; except for Kaden. Kaden was the niece of one of the SAMCRO members, Tigs. Kaden and I were about the same age but I was a grade above her.

I was a bit of a bad teenager. I got into a lot of fights, stole things from the gas stations, and did minor drugs. Jax and Opie were surprised by how much trouble I got into. Luckily for me the club had a little influence on the local police department and the town feared the wrath of SAMCRO. My mom never seemed to care how much trouble I got into.

Most of the girls at school were jealous of me. I hit puberty quickly and early. When I was twelve I already had a C-cup. I was about five foot five, blonde wavy hair, baby blue eyes, and a body most girls didn't get till high school. This is what caused most of my fights. I was glad Jax and Opie taught me to fight at a young age.

When I was thirteen Jax and I started hanging out a lot more. He was lost after losing his brother and his father. His mom started dating his father's best friend, Clay. Jax didn't want to talk to anyone about it except me because I understood what it meant to not have father. We had so much in common that things got heated between us fast. I had always had a crush on Jax but never had the nerve to say or do anything about it until the one night.

One night when I was thirteen, my mom was gone for the night at some club party. Jax's mom and Clay were there too, since Clay took over the president position after John's death. Jax and I both knew my mom wouldn't be back till the next afternoon, so we decided to have a movie night at my place. I still remember that night like it was yesterday.

"I got pizza and movies" Jax smiled at me when I answered the door.

"Good I am starving." I walked to the kitchen with Jax right behind me.

We sat in the kitchen and ate. I cleaned up the mess before we headed to the living room for movies. Jax sat on the couch just inches from me. He and I both knew there was something between us but we never said it out loud.

"What movie do you want to watch first?" Jax grabbed a stack of five movies.

I looked at the movies and noticed most of them were horror movies. "How about this one; I haven't seen it in a while."

"Yeah, me too" He smiled as he put in the 'Friday the 13th' movie in. Then he sat back down but this time there was only a few inches between us.

The movie started to play, as I watched I started to get scared. I had seen the movie many times before but it always freaked me out. Suddenly a scary part came on and I jumped. I hid in Jax's shoulder.

Jax wrapped his arm around me and pulled me closer to him. He stared into my eyes for a long moment. My heart began to race and my stomach fluttered. Slowly, he leaned in and pressed his lips to mine. The second our lips touched, it sent a shock through my entire body. It felt amazing but I wasn't sure what it was. The kiss was soft and long. The more we kissed the closer I got until I was straddling his lap.

"Z," Jax looked into my eyes. Everyone called me Z instead of Zoey. "I don't want to lose our friendship. If I ever lost you, I would go insane."

I kissed him hard. "You will never lose me, I promise!"

He laid me on my back on the couch as he laid on top of me. "Are you sure about this?"

I looked into his eyes as the truth spilled from my lips. "Jax, I have had feeling for you for as long as I can remember. You are everything to me. I want to do this with you." I froze. "Do you want to?"

He gave me a semi annoyed look. "Of course I do, but I don't know if I can take your…" He wasn't sure how to say it.

"Jax I would rather have you take it then some random meaningless guy. If you don't want to I will understand." Every time I looked into his gorgeous blue eyes, everything came out. I couldn't stop myself from telling him the truth and he knew it.

He smirked and kissed me. This time it was hard and more urgent then before. Within minutes our clothes laid crumpled on the floor. He was very slow and gentle as he pushed inside me. It hurt a little but I didn't want him to know that. The feeling was amazing, a good pain. He stared into my eyes as he moved faster and harder. I started to moan in pure ecstasy.

"Are you ok?" He slowed down.

"No" I looked into his eyes, he started to panic. "I'm way better then ok."

I pulled him into a long hard kiss as we rolled slowly into a new position. I was on top of him, straddling him. I moved up and down slow at first. The better it felt the faster I moved. Jax's eyes closed as he moaned quietly. The sex lasted about an hour, but it was the best hour of my life. When we finished we laid in each other's arms with only a blanket covering us.

A little later that night he carried me to my room and we made love again in my bed before falling asleep. I slept with my head on his chest and his arms wrapped around me. I couldn't believe I had lost my virginity to Jax. I had always fantasized about being with him intimately bit I never thought it would happen.

The following three months we spent almost every night together in my bed. I loved being with him and trying new things. We loved to experiment and learning new tricks. Jax was the one I truly loved.

On my fourteenth birthday my mom told me she was sending me to visit my aunt Carrie for a few weeks because she had things to take care of. I promised Jax to write or call daily. The day I left Jax told me he loved me. I told him that he would always have my heart because he was my true love.

Two weeks after getting to Carrie's I was ready to go home. I missed my friends and my extended family (SAMCRO). Most of all I missed Jax. As Carrie was driving me home she got a call that made my entire life change. Carrie was told by Charming Police Department that my mother was killed by two bullets to the head.

For the next month we packed up my mom's house. I was to be sent to live with Carrie in LA. I hated to leave and I hated that my mother was murdered and no one was doing a thing about it. I was also so lost. I had no parents. I would never know who my dad is, it was a secret my mother took to her grave.

After my mother's funeral I only had a few hours before we head back to LA. I spent those hours alone in my house with Jax. He made love to me slowly before I left. I hated to say goodbye to the one person who truly cared about me.

We laid in the bed with his arms wrapped around me. "Z, I hate that I am losing you." Jax's eyes filled with tears, he blinked them back swallowing the lump in his throat.

I sat up looking into his eyes. I loved his gorgeous ice blue eyes. "Jackson, I promise you that my heart will always belong to you."

"And mine to you." He kissed me long and hard.

Saying goodbye to my entire life was the hardest thing I ever had to do. Opie was upset too; he was always the very protective best friend. Jax's mom Gemma seemed happy to watch me leave. Jax said a while ago that he thought his mom knew about us and she hated the thought of us together. I scared Gemma because I was the one person who could take her son away. The rest of the club said if I ever needed anything to not hesitate to call.

The first year in LA, I was a mess. Carrie was a model and gone as often as my mother. I was so angry with my mom. How could she get herself killed? What did she do to deserve this? Soon after I started getting into trouble; I was arrested a few times for drugs, stealing, and fighting. Carrie never really cared.

When I was sixteen Carrie got me my license and car. I went back to Charming soon after. Jax was still the same guy when we were alone but around the club and his friends he was a totally different guy. I hated that everything was changing because of me leaving. I stayed away from Charming from then on.

Just before my eighteenth birthday I started going through the storage unit looking for things to put in my apartment. Carrie was planning to move to Atlanta a month after my eighteenth birthday. She was planning to get me a small one bedroom apartment for my birthday present. It would be paid up for a year after that I was on my own and alone.

As I started going through the boxes I noticed a large white envelope with my name on it. As I looked inside I was unable to think straight. Inside was my birth certificate and listed who my father is. It also had information about my mom's life insurance which left me a ton of money upon my eighteenth birthday.