Rightio. This would be my first songfic ever and its quite personal too. It's something I wrote in my own journal about a week or two ago and I figured it would make a half decent songfic! The song is "Something more" By Aly & AJ Yeah, I cant believe I actually like that song. I hope that the fact that this really does have alot of meaning to me might make it a little better. Either way, review if you like! Oh, I'm not going to deny it. Its very, very short. But hey, if I wrote the entire journal entry down and turned it into this CSI Sara songfic Well, it would give it all away! Hehe.

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I didn't know what was in store.
When I walked right through the door.
Then I saw you over there, our blue eyes locked in a stare.
I didn't know quite what to say
Sometimes words get in the way.

I'm not quite sure when this actually started. It's becoming harder to believe every single day. You make me panic. I actually spend more than an hour on my appearance before work just so you'll notice me. Damn, I feel like a teenager in high school trying to impress her first ever love.

And I remember
the night you said, "Let's go for
A ride" - I didn't want the night to end
Would we be - more than friends
Yet little did I know before
We would be something more

I sit for hours on end trying to work out how you do this to me. But in all honesty, I don't think I could put it down to one thing. You have the most adorable smile; sometimes I wish I could ask you to smile more often. You have a brilliant personality and you're so determined in everything you do.

In black and white I read the screen, of all your lines and in-between.
Then your message on the phone
I saved to hear when all alone.
And now I know just what to say
This doesn't happen everyday.

That's where everything seems to fall apart. Your you and I'm me. So why bother trying to take this further? It's obvious what'll happen. Although I'm not as bad as Grissom, I'm still in the top five for the most anti-social people in the lab. Christ, why do you have to do this to me?

And I remember
The night you said, "Let's go for
A ride" - I didn't want the night to end
Would we be - more than friends
Yet little did I know before
We would be something more

Pathetic, that's what this situation is. But I love it. I love you. And as awkward as it is, I never want this to end. The feeling of loving someone. Loving you. It's so perfect. I wake up and I have a reason to smile even though you're not lying beside me. I can cope, but not for long.

I know we're both young, but we know how we feel.
We know was is false, and we know what is real.

I thought I was in love before. I thought the love I had with him was genuine. But that was until I felt this, now I know that everything I felt before was one big lie and everything I'm feeling right at this very moment couldn't be more real and true. It doesn't matter how much I try to tell myself that I need to get over this for my own health. Screw my health. I want to be with you, even though it's virtually impossible. I'm a different person now that I've found this. Maybe if I forget the risks for a few seconds, maybe if I forget the deep, intense burn of being rejected. I could tell you. Yeah, then maybe we could be something more.