AN: This is the first chapter for this story. I hope that everyone likes it! Thanks again to everyone who reviewed or favorited my pervious stories. :D
My feelings for Usagi have always been mixed up. He always tells me how much he loves me, but that's mostly when he's acting weird (which is a lot of the time.). I don't know what you would say we are. We live together, and I suppose you could say we are lovers. We do all the things that lovers do, like, we kiss, eat together, go on dates, and even have sex. But it seems different, somehow. Either way, I never expected that I would end up being in this kind of relationship with another man.
All my life I had thought that I was straight, so it was crazy when Usagi randomly came into my life and messed that all up. I've actually ended up admitting that I loved him several times, and I guess I really do. But I could never dare to tell anyone else about this, and there's are a lot of reasons why! First of all, Usagi is a full ten years older then me, so that would be controversial already. Also he's a guy, which still isn't completely accepted by society. My brother probably wouldn't be angry, but he might become even more overprotective of me if he found out about all the "fun" things I've done with Usagi, who used to be his best friend. My brother Takahiro doesn't realize that I am a 19-year-old and not a little child anymore!
Lately, Usagi has been hinting that he wants to go public about our relationship. But, since he's a famous author (and boy's love mangaka...) we would get more attention from the media than I would ever want. Plus, some people might not want to read his books anymore, and I would hate to cause something like that to happen to him. Not like it's really my choice at all, though; when Usagi wants something, he gets it. I know that from experience...
One evening, I came home from school and I didn't have my part time job that day, so I decided to get started on dinner earlier than usual. I found Usagi sitting on the couch with a few of his teddy bears (even though he is an adult, he has a whole closet full of them!) He had the same serious expression on his face that I have have seen so many times, with a hint of that lustful smirk of his showing through.
"Usagi-san!" I smiled, "I'm going to start making dinner now. What would you like?"
"Right now, what I want is you." he said, grabbing me and pushing me onto the couch. He did things like this all the time, so I wasn't really surprised. As much as I hated admitting it, I actually liked it when he treated me this way.
"Stupid Usagi-san! Stop it! I was talking to you!" I whined.
Usagi laughed, "Misaki, if you didn't want it, then you'd fight back harder."
That actually was true. But there was no way that I could ever be so clear about my feelings towards Usagi-san! That would be way too embarrassing!
I didn't know that he would be in this kind of mood again today, but once again I suddenly felt his big hands on my member. He kept moving them up and down, and I was in far too much pleasure to fight back or complain anymore. Then, he removed his hand.
"Are you ready now, Misaki?" asked Usagi.
"Y-yes. I'm ready now." I stuttered, not really knowing what to say.
Without another word, Usagi positioned himself between my legs and began thrusting inside of me at an increasingly fast speed. Having him inside of me, touching me so very intimately, was something I was familiar with, yet it got me by surprise every time. And, speaking of that, he was the only one who had ever touched me in that way; the touching of his most private and personal area of his body (other than, perhaps, his mind) touching my most personal places, his lips kissing me softly. I had always tried to avoid it, but now that I think about it, I had always enjoyed it a lot.
"U-Usagi-san!" I moaned, "Ahh! Nnghh!"
Then we both came at the same time, him filling me with his seed and me covering his hands in the sticky white liquid.
I got dressed and so did he. I realized that we had stained our clothes, as well as the couch, so I went to go get something to clean it up. But, just as I was getting up to do so, his editor came in. Oh shit, I thought. How could this happen?! I can't let her see me like this!
"Aikawa Ari-san! Um, welcome..." I said awkwardly panicking, "M-maybe you could come in at a later time! Please, we can't talk right now!"
She laughed and walked in anyways. I didn't know why the hell she had a key to his house, considering how she was just his editor, but I guess I didn't know what the life of an author is like anyways.
"Nonsense, Misaki-chan. I have to discuss his new tragedy novel that he's just starting! You wouldn't want to get in the way of his work, would you, Misaki-chan?"
"I-it's not that. It's just that.. I mean..." I tried to say.
But it was too late to reason with her. She had already walked in and sat down on the couch next to us.
"My, my. I can see that this stuff is a little bit dirty. Have you two been naughty while I was gone?" asked Aikawa-san, "I know Usagi wrote those mangas about you... But I thought those were just his little fantasies. I had no idea that you two were actually together!"
"N-no! It's not... I mean, yes, but..." I stumbled for words to use, "Just don't... Just, I don't know!"
Ago
"That's what I've been meaning to talk to you about, Misaki-chan." Usagi explained, "We really do need to tell them about it."
"What do you mean by 'them?' Just who exactly are you going to tell this to?!" I questioned.
"Pretty much everyone." Usagi shrugged.
"What?! But, if you do that, then even my brother would know!" I complained, "And you're a famous author, so that will really hurt the feelings of your fangirls, right?"
Even I, who could be pretty slow at times, could understand that my brother would grow worried about me living with Usagi if we told him that we had a more... romantic relationship. He probably thinks that Usagi treats me like a child or like someone he is simply taking care of; he wouldn't realize that we actually are MUCH more than that.
"It's time we let the world know about our love, Misaki." stated the serious Usagi-san. I knew that when he is in these kinds of moods, there is no way to get around it. Usagi gets what he wants.
"O-okay. But we should at least tell some relatives and stuff first, before you go out and blab about it to everyone in Japan!" I whined.
"No. I'm telling everyone. That's final." Usagi said in a matter-of-fact kind of way. There was no arguing this anymore. It would happen, whether I liked it or not.
Usagi planned on announcing his relationship with me at a speech in his upcoming award reception ceremony. He hated going to those, but his editor and publishers usually forced him to go. I would go too, and even Takahiro would come as well. I wasn't exactly looking forward to this event, but I wouldn't mind telling people about it. The problem was that I had just begun to accept it myself! How could I expect others to understand us right away? They might mark us as wrong or disgusting, they might abandon us or make fun of us. And, of course, I would be thought of as "super-cute" by all too many yaoi fangirls!
Most of all, I would have to give up the little bit of privacy I had left. I gave up quite a bit of it just by living with Usagi and having this kind of relationship with him, considering how he dropped me off at school in that fancy foreign car, how he always made a scene in front of my friends, and how he was, of course, rather famous, so that itself took away a lot of my "alone time." But, still, these sacrifices were nothing compared to the newfound happiness that I had found from being with Usagi-san. As much as I hated admitting it, I really am in love with him.
One thing that I had to fear, though, was meeting with Usagi's family again. His sister is nice, but she can be a bit loud at times, his brother always sends me millions of fruits and is after me in a weird way, and his dad is kinda creepy. Plus, every time I make contact with any of them, it always ends in drama. I couldn't even imagine what would result from seeing all of them at once! But, I guess it was all for the best. I'll just hope it doesn't turn into a disaster.
AN: This first chapter is pretty short... Because I really suck at writing long chapters. Sorry! Well, anyways, I hope you liked it. Chapter 2 will probably come soon. Sometime this week.