Last time he came to me using my words as apology.
I gave in knowing I can never really stay mad at him.
I still feel guilt over losing him his son, sleeping with his brother, & just messing up his life.
I know I have a great husband who accepts me for who I am and respects me finally so,
why can't I let the dream of him go.
The shrinks told me I needed to let go of him with Sonny.
That my dependence on Sonny wasn't my only problem.
But I just can't let it go.
This time he asked if I wanted him to apologize.
That is the only reason he would?
I look down to my hands and see the bracelet I had picked for the baby I want.
I realize in all honesty that baby in my mind has always been his.
It glints in the moonlight.
It's time to grow up Caroline you can't accuse Liz of holding onto a schoolgirl crush when everything Jase has done to you says your doing the same.
I pitch the bracelet into the water.
Picking up my cell I call his.
One last call.
"I've finally realized that my anger about the baby is that it's not ours...Don't worry I know better now and won't bother your family again."
Voice mail!, well at least you said it Carly.
Sighing, I pick the phone up again and dial my husband.
"Jax, I thought we should take the boys away again. I just can't relax knowing there's a killer on the loose."
"yeah, I'll be right Home. You make me and the boys feel safe."
"I love You."
Looking over the water from their bench she says goodbye once & for all.
Lone tear falls as she gets up.
"Bye Jase it was a great ride while it lasted." she says out loud before turning to go up the steps.
I walk away not knowing...
He was standing in the shadows watching the whole time.
At first I didn't want to interrupt her thoughts to just fight again.
I think to myself when did it all become so complicated.
I remember when we finished each others sentences.
No secrets. Heck she even wanted phones that just called each other. he smiles remembering.
I wonder what she is looking at in her hand?
It glints in the moonlight right before she tosses it in the water.
He thinks she wouldn't throw his key chain in the water just because of this fight.
Would she?
My phone vibrates. I fumble in my pocket to see who it is.
It went to voice mail.
He overhears her.
Listening breaks his heart and he realizes now why he really didn't want to tell her.
Taking a step to wards her down the step he stops when he hears her next conversation.
When did Jax take over his role?
He's stopped cold in his tracks be her next words.
His heart breaking in that moment as she leaves.