Meredith sat in the chair, drumming her fingers against the arm rest. She had been sitting there for awhile. There was one other person sitting across from her.

"Meredith, you can go in" the receptionsit told her. Meredith stood up and strecthed for a second before she went in to the other room. She sat down on the couch across from a woman that looked in her earlty thrities. Awards hung on the wall behind her, but Meredith paid no attention to them. She had a sudden interset in her shoes. She knew that today they would talk about him and she didn't know where to begin.

"Just start at the begining" Holly Smith said. She had years of experience and knew how to get a person to talk about pretty much anything.

"Well, you know that I met him at a bar. And that he chose his wife over me. Thats what really destroyed my trust in him, in pretty much any man. Then comes along Finn who was great and perfect for me. But Derek was still there apart of my life. I guess thats why they say never to date your coworkers"

Holly just nodded her head, wanting Meredith to continue, which she did.

"Anyways, he was always looking at me and it was impossiable to move on. It all came to a head at the prom and I was forced to make a decision between the two of them. Derek came out on top, naturally. But the trust never came back. I couldn't put my whole heart out there becasue I was scared that he was going to trample all over it. Which led to us breaking up and S&M"

"Sex and Mockery, and that made it worse?"

"Yea, It was like we were in limbo and couldn't get out of it. Then I finally tell him that I am ready, I want to move on and I hear that he kissed some nurse"

"And how did that make you feel?"

"Like I was second best, that he couldn't even wait for me to become ready for what he wanted."

"And that was?"

"A house, marriage, everything. And now he has kissed Rose, but he still wants everything with me. He is making me so furstartd and I don't know what to do"

"Have you told him that you are seeing a therapist?"

"No"

"Why not?"

"I don't know"

"Don't you think that him knowing you are healing yourself would help him relaize that you are trying to get ready for him"

"Maybe"

"Here's what I want you to do. Tell him and bring him in for the next session"

"What if he doesn't want to come?"

"Just try and see what happens"