The Departure and the Incident

It seems that whatever I do now to get his attention always fails. I feel lost with no connection to him, whatsoever. He now appears to have another side to him, I feel forgotten, lost deep in his heart. If only life was different, then, maybe, he'd see what he's missing........ me......

Typing the last words, a brunette stared blankly at her laptop screen. She felt lost at words as she took in emotions she felt. It seemed now, her brother no longer cared for her. In her mind, it was emotionally sick to her stomach. He wouldn't bother talking to her at all, all he ever did was give her a glance before returning to his computer. Stiff, Mikan collapsed on her bed and stiffled a sob. She loved her brother, but he wouldn't notice. It felt to her that a sibling relationship was forbidden. Dazed, her hazelnut brown eyes quickly turned dull and dark. She slowly closed her eyes before muttering a word.

" Forbidden......."

After she blacked out from being dazed, she got up and stomped down stairs grouchily. She always hated that fever-like feeling after falling asleep in the afternoon, especially in the summer.

" Take care Natsume!! Have a safe trip and call us when you get to college!!" Mikan's mother Yuka, shouted.

Still groggy, Mikan didn't hear clearly enough to her mother's shouting. Muttering incoherent words, the brunette poured out some orange juice.

" Mom, who was that you were shouting at?" The hazel-eyed lass asked.

" Natsume of course. You could've at least figured that you're older onee-chan was leaving couldn't you?" Yuka hummed while answering.

" WHAT? He's leaving? Where to?" Mikan gaped, still shocked that she didn't realize it.

" College dear, is something wrong with you? You're father and I told you about it yesterday night during dinner." Yuka explained annoyed her daughter didn't listen one bit.

" Oh..... alright. Why didn't he come say bye to me then?" The brunette pouted frustratedly.

" He saw that you were still asleep and didn't want to wake you up so he just said bye to me. And I can't even believe the nerve you're father has to even consider going to work on a weekend when our baby boy's leaving for college!!!!!!!!" Mikan's mother yelled obviously angry at Yukihira.

" Okay.... whatever, I'm going back up stairs." Mikan told her, confused that she missed the only chance to say bye to him. Walking slowly upstairs, she put on a stoic face and concentrated on entering Natsume's old room without crying. She glared and kicked his trashcan in frustration. ' I can't believe he left,.... just like that.....' Mikan thought.

She sighed and layed on his bed. She blinked and focused her brain on remebering the good times. She sucked in air through her mouth in annoyance. Wrinkling her nose and arching her eyebrows downward made her look like an angry bull. She laughed at her so-called memories. How she used to smile and kid around with her brother. When they were little, they'd have sleep overs in each other's rooms and jump on the bed until the were tired and hugged each other as they slept. But since they grew, they had to keep some distance away from each other because of "puberty."

Growing reckless, Mikan gently touched her cheek where he used to kiss her when they were little. Ever since they grew up, all he ever did was annoy her continuously with sarcastic smart remarks.

Tearing up, she breathed in deeply and was about to close her eyes before her mother shrieked. Brown orbs widening, she quickly got up and ran hurriedly downstairs. Her mom collapsed due to shock. Her mother's brown eyes were wide with fear and shock.

"What is it mom?" Mikan asked while trying to comfort her.

" You're brother, ....... he got into a car accident..... darn it to heck for that drunk man crashing into Natsume." Sucking in air with anger, Yuka got up and put on her coat. " Would you like to accompany me to the hospital Mikan?"

" Yes..... alright." The brunette quivered from the news. She really wanted him to be alright.

As soon as they got to the hospital, Yuka and Mikan ran down the hallways to Natsume's room after checking which number it was from the assistants. 'Please be alright Natsume.... please be alright.' Opening the door, her breath hitched up and practically stopped breathing. He looked terrible. Cuts and wounds were covered by bandages.

" How is he Doctor?" Yuka asked irratibally(sorry if I spelled it wrong).

" He's in good conditions right now, although, he has fallen into a coma. here's a 62% chance that he may lose all his memories and only a 25% chance that he'll regain consciousness and still remeber who all of you are. And there is also a 13% chance that he may never even wake up." The Doctor explained.

' All those memories we had together when we were little, he could forgot all those??!!' Mikan anxiously thought.

" DON'T GO INTO THE LIGHT NATSUME!!!" Mikan shouted as people froze in place and stared.

Sweatdropping, she nervously chuckled before running all the way back.

' Natsume...... why? Why do you have to forget??!!' Mikan thought, crying hopelessly.

' Is this just fate? Tell me God!!' Mikan thought while staring at the cold ground. Entering her house, she quickly booted up her laptop and typed.

This is only the beginning of what has happened to my life......

Mikan stopped typing on the keyboard before closing her laptop.

Journal Entry 1 completed.........