Days go by before I see you again
Alone at night without anyone to tuck me in.
Waiting for the sound of your arrival
Waiting to hear your voice say "I love you."
Tired of never seeing you before school in the morning
Tired of all the tears that have forced themselves out.
My cheeks glisten like frost on a winter's morning.
Regret filling me from letting you leave earlier than wanted.
Trying to be older than I really am.
A little girl of four years up at five am.
Fear runs through my system with the thoughts inside my head
Of forgetting your features, that are now embedded in my brain.
The time was upon us once more
As the last of our heart-filled hugs are given.
Of promises to be the princess I am in his eyes.
Forgetting of his absence later on,
I give him all the love my swollen heart can give.
As your hand slips from my tight embrace,
I remember what I'm here for.
The light making its presence known, as the clock chimes above us.
Leaving one last kiss upon his beard-clad cheek
My mind a ship in the middle of a hurricane about to sink.
I watch as he sails into the clouds of grey
The warrior back inside of me,
Turning away to face the reality that lives in my worst dreams.