A/N: I'm very sorry for this. I have just watched Judgement Day, and that combined with listening to the Evanescence song "Even in death", is not a good combination. So yeah, post JD, Gibbs pov. Lyrics are "Even in death" Evanescence.

Even In Death

Give me a reason to believe that you're gone
I see your shadow so I know they're all wrong

You are not dead. How can you be, when I can see you so clearly before my eyes? I never would have expected, that when I blink, you are gone from my sight and I am left in confusion for your absence. They say you are dead, say that they are sorry for my loss, but I don't understand. You are here. I see you in the shadows cast by the moonlight that seep in through my bedroom curtains. I hear your voice in the wind that rustles the leaves and make them bang gently on my window. I know it's you that are knocking on my window.

Moonlight on the soft brown earth
It leads me to where you lay
They took you away from me but now I'm taking you home

Your shadow is just outside my bedroom door. I follow, but you keep elude me. You disappear around the next corner, and the next. I suddenly find myself outside; I barely acknowledge the cold in the dark night, it doesn't seem to affect me any more, it cannot freeze me any longer, I'm already as cold as I can get. It's as though when you left, you took with you all the warmth from my world.

I see you in the moonlight that streaks across my path. I am eager to follow, to see you again. The leaves crunches under my shoes as I walk down a path that shouldn't be familiar, but it is, and I keep wondering, how many times I have gone to visit you?

The gate creaks as I push it open; it's not keeping me from seeing you.

I crouch before the headstone that has your name carved into it, the carvings filled with gold. I brush my fingers over your name, wishing it wasn't you it marked the last resting-place of.

I will stay forever here with you
My love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on

I lean my back against the headstone, my fingertips gently grazing the pink and white rose I had planted there. You like flowers, I still recall you explaining the meanings of some of them, I wasn't listening so intensely. There were other things on my mind back then. But I recall you saying that a pink and white rose meant "I love you still, and always will". I think that resemble my feelings quite spot on.

Some say I'm crazy for my love, Oh my love
But no bonds can hold me from your side, Oh my love
They don't know you can't leave me
They don't hear you singing to me

I can hear your voice singing in the wind, I cannot catch the words, but I know it's you, with your lovely gravelly voice. I'm going to stay here, let you keep me enchanted.

I don't want to think about what it means that it's your name on the headstone. I refuse to accept that I'm being kept from your side. Don't you know you weren't allowed to leave me? Don't you know I can't be left here alone? Don't you know this isn't how it should have happened? How could I let you pass me by, without having told you I love you?

I feel you in the wind blowing across my face, and maybe it's not too late.

"I love you, Jenny." I whisper into the darkness. I close my eyes and see your face before me, smiling as you lean in to kiss me. The wind on my face is fierce, yet tender, just like your kisses.

I will stay forever here with you
My love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on

I stay here, listening to your voice singing to me, singing songs about us, what we had, what we lost, and about our love, that stretches beyond the boundaries of death.

And I can't love you, anymore than I do

I must be goddamn crazy. But when the wind lays your hand on my cheek, I know there isn't anything I would do to be with you once again, my love.

People die, but real love is forever

The End