Okay so I have decided to start a new story…..I will try to update regularly but I don't know how that will go only because my teachers are evil……haha jk…..but I may have to bump up the rating because of the later chapters but other than that I will do my best with this…..while reviewing if you have any concerns or suggestions feel free to tell me and I will work my writing…..so R&R…..oh and the italics are Alex's thoughts…..peace……_____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________

Prologue

Alex's Pov

"Ahhhhh!!!," I screamed into the eerily quite home. I had a nightmare. No, it was worse than a nightmare it was real life invading my dreams. I have the biggest secret ever but I will absolutely not tell anyone. I feel that it's my problem so why drag anyone into it with me. A few moments after I had laid down to go back to sleep I hear a faint pitter-patter of feet on the hardwood floor of the hallway.

My door creaks open to reveal my best friend. Oh how I wish she was more than that.

"Alex, what's wrong?" is her faint question. Now I feel terrible that I woke her up.

"Can you please just hold me, Mitchie?" I feel scared but I try to not let it show. Especially in front of the love of my life.

"Mhm," is her groggy reply. I can tell that she is very tired. I know that I am the cause of it to, so that doesn't make me feel any better.

After hearing her shut the door, and the sluggish footsteps that lead her closer to my bed I fell the covers rise and the bed dip as she climbs in. I immediately get butterflies in my stomach and I feel lightheaded but for now I push those thoughts out of my mind.I hear her mumble something as she gets situated then I feel her arm wrap around my waist. I didn't quite catch what she mumbled so I ask, "Hmmm…..what?"

"Are you afraid?" she mumbles again but this time I hear her.

I'm internally debating on whether to tell her or not and she must think that I'm just not going to tell her because then I hear, "Please tell me," I can tell that she has put a sad look on her face by the way she said it.

"N…..No" I shakily let out. Now I can sense that she if almost fully awake.

"You're lying, Alex, I know you are, so please tell me what you are thinking," she begs. So I turn around and look into those beautiful eyes of hers and I see nothing but love and concern in them and I start to cry. I didn't even know that I was until I feel her thumb gently wiping away my silent tears, but I still can't control my sudden burst of emotion and I break down. I move my head to the crook of her neck praying that after I have cried my eyes out that she won't ask me what is wrong. For now though I let her comforting words and her hands, one running through my hair the other gently rubbing my back, soothe me.

After a while of letting my emotions out I pull away from her neck to so I can try to sleep but she has other things in mind. "Please," she begs as she puts her fingers under my chin so that I am looking directly at her, "tell me what is wrong."

"I……I just can't….." I try to look away so the sadness in my eyes won't give me away. I don't want this to ruin what we have built as friends. I know that it will.

She silently asks "But why……no matter what I will always be here for you…I promise.."

It's almost as if she can read my mind.

"You really promise," I ask.

"Don't change the subject," she says in a firm but calm voice, "you know that I am here for you." And I do it's just that I needed to hear it right now.

"Mitchie, I don't…..can't tell you…" she starts to open her mouth to cut me off, but I beat her to it by saying, "Please let me explain…"she closes her slightly open mouth and I continue, "I can't tell you because it's just to hard for me to talk about right now…"

I let that sink into her mind, I look away as to not give away what I'm really feeling.

"Alex, listen to me…." I look at her silently telling her she has my full attention she continues. "I want to know why I just got woken up by my best friend screaming." I mentally cringe at the word best friend. I honestly want to forget about what happened two weeks ago and just go back to normal. All because of something totally unnecessary happened it made me realize that I am in love with my best friend. And in this moment I finally realize that I can never tell her what really happened. I have no explanation to give her and I think that she knows it. I look at her and I see her silently begging for me to tell her what is wrong with me……I can see it in her eyes…..so I came up with the best explanation that I have in my head right now.

"I just had a really bad nightmare." I can tell that she knows that I am only telling her part of why I woke up screaming. "What was the nightmare about?" she asked with a look of concern drawn into every one of the features on her beautiful face. I have no idea if I should give her the truth or not but I honestly think I should now. As I am having this long debate in my mind she has this worried look on her face…I plead with my eyes, basically begging for her to just drop this. I noticed that if I looked deep enough into her eyes I can see a lot of determination along with the love, concern and worry that I have put there even though I didn't mean to and for a second I fall more in love with her than I ever have…..it's in this moment that we stare at each other that I think that she might feel the same…but of course all wonderful moments have to end when she speaks and it totally catches me off guard.

"Okay, I'll stop…but the moment you are ready I want for you to tell me." I give her a weak smile and she returns it with one of her own and surprising for me a kiss on my forehead. I roll over so my back is facing her front and I feel her arm encircle me again. I drift off into the most peaceful sleep I've had in a while, only because I have her here to hold me and make me feel loved.