So, I'm Leah Clearwater. Some say I'm the bitter, hate the word type. Maybe I am. I'm sure you would be too if you had my life.

My dad was Harry Clearwater. He passed away a little over a year ago. Me and my dad were pretty close. My mom is Sue and my brother is Seth. He's annoying as hell, but I love him anyways I suppose.

So, whats happened in my life that has made it so terrible? Well, I was happily engaged to a wonderful man named Sam Uley. He was everything to me and I loved him with all my heart. I never thought anything could make us part.

One day my cousin and best friend Emily came to visit me. She had met Sam a few times before. When Sam walked in, it looked like he was seeing the world for the first time. I thought I was just imagining things and tried to but that thought out of my mind. I introduced them again. Sam told Emily it was nice to see her again. Not looking away from Emily he said "I just remembered I have made plans with some other friends. I'll see you later. Bye." He turned away and ran out of the door. "Well that certainly was strange," I said to Emily, "I wonder what his problem was." She just looked at me with a clueless expression.

Later that night, I laid in my bed trying to go to sleep. I couldn't get that vision of the way Sam looked at Emily out of my head. I drifted off somewhere in the night.

When I woke up Emily was nowhere to be found. I had a note on the dresser that said "Emily's with me. I wanted to get to know her a little better. - Sam" I couldn't help but feel a little jealous as I thought about Sam and Emily without me. Why couldn't they have woken me up? I waited for about an hour trying not to have a heart attack when I heard them coming in the door. I ran up to them. Sam said, "Leah, can you go for a walk with me?" I nodded. Sam looked at Emily and told her he would see her later. She smiled. There was something weird about the way they looked at each other. It was too... loving. What the hell was going on here??

Sam and I walked out the door and down to the beach. I looked at him and asked what was going on. He gave me a pained expression and told me to sit down. We both sat on a big rock. He grabbed my hand. He told he couldn't be with me anymore. He said he was so sorry and he knew I had hurt him. He said he loved me. He kissed my forehead and walked away, leaving me sitting on the rock confused and heartbroken.

I thought maybe at first this was some kind of sick joke. Maybe him and Emily were just trying to tease me a little bit. Then I thought about the look on his face. He was a terrible liar and actor. There was no way this was a joke. I think I must of gone out of it because the next thing I knew it was dark and I was on the ground with my back against the rock. I got up and walked home with tears pouring out of my face. It was the first time I had cried since he told me. Emily was gone. Thank God. I didn't want anyone to be around me.

I didn't leave my house for the next week and a half. When I did come back to the surface, I discovered that Emily and Sam were together. What the hell?? How could Emily do that to me? I mean I know Sam dumped me but that doesn't mean she can have him. ESPECIALLY not after only a week and a half. She knew how much I loved him. How could either of them do that to me? They were the two people I trusted and loved the most, and they both betrayed me.

All this sent me into a deep depression. I didn't come out for a while. Now, Sam and Emily live together and few blocks away from me. They're happily engaged and are never seen apart. I try not to talk to either of them unless I absolutly have to.

So now, do you see why life is so terrible? Well theres more.

I am a Quileute Indian. In my generation, our tribe turns into werewolves when we become a certain age. Yup, I'm the only female werewolf. Aren't I just the luckiest person. Sam Uley is also one, but thank God for Jacob Black. If he hadn't of started his own pack, I would still be stuck doing what Sam says and listening to his thoughts all day. *shudder* Now, I am Jacob's beta, keeping an eye on the Cullen land. Werewolves watching over vampires. What kind of sick world is this.

So yeah, life is just peachy, but I suppose I'll make it through. Too bad we don't die and we heal quickly. Death doesn't sound that bad to me.

Until one day when everything changed....