My name is Silena Beauregard. I am a daughter of Aphrodite. I love for a living. And I love my boyfriend, Charles Beckendorf. We are still young and in love, yes. But he is dead.
Charlie died in an explosion. Percy said he was thinking of me the whole time on his way to death. I believe him.
I wish Charlie was here—I really do. I look around and I'm surrounded by so many people, yet I am so lonely. I am lonely because I keep a secret.
I wish I told Charlie. Maybe he would've been alive still if I wasn't what I am.
And what am I, really! I'm a spy. A traitor. I'm not a hero, nor a poor girl that just lost her boyfriend. I lost everything. I have nothing. Even love isn't here for me.
I have to be confirmed to being a spy, I don't want to be.
I know how I'll let the secret loose. I will die as a hero, taking my friends place in killing an enemy.
It is not a suicide, it's a blessing. I will be with Charlie again. And I will be with him as a good person, not a despicable girl working for Luke Castellan.
Love will be there for me. And most importantly, I will be happy.