A.N. – Heyyy! Ok so this is my first HetaliaxReader. There's a little DenkmarkxReader in there too! Anyway, You just lost your mom and your Dad has become a drinker to "help" with his depression and who's never in your life anymore! He seems to waste his life away! Please help! Enjoy~

We Lost It All

"I HATE YOU SO MUCH!" you yelled as you slammed your bedroom door shut so hard it made even yourself jump.

"Come on _, I said I was sorry." A slurred voice came from the other side of the door. You rolled your eyes and continued stuffing clothes into a bag. Your dad continued to knock on the door with unsteady beats as you walked into your connected bathroom and grabbed your tooth brush.

You looked into the mirror staring at your (e/c) eyes with tears that blurred your vision but you forced them back. You walked back into your room carefully placing your favorite little brown teddy bear your mom got you before she died. Ever since then-

"_, _ please! Just open the door." Your eyes daggered the door and you slung the bag you packed your stuff in over your back marching toward the door. You swung it open harshly startling the man who stood before you making his green eyes go wide.

You pushed past him but not before he grabbed your wrist. You whirled around in fury grabbing the collar of his shirt.

"I will not forgive you anymore! Look at what the hell's happening to you! Just because mom died doesn't mean you can just throw your life away and bringing your only daughter with it!"

You didn't mean the words you said but that didn't keep you from making your way out of the house and slamming the door. You rested your back against the door with a heavy sigh lingering in the warm hall way of the apartment you lived in.

You tried everything to at least get his attention to see what he was doing. You misbehaved, got detentions, snuck out, you even tried drinking once but you would never do that again. Since mom died of cancer dad's been miserable. He drinks all the time and he pays no attention to you at all.

He missed your Art Show where you got first for the best still life drawing and he knew drawing was your life. He missed your Prom night before you got to leave. Your date was your best friend Mathias who kept ensuring he would come but he never did. Not for pictures and not even for a, "have fun." Now, he just missed your 18th birthday party.

Everyone was there; friends, family, you were even sure mom was there somewhere. But dad wasn't. It just didn't feel like he cared anymore and ever since you were little, you always wanted to be like him… but not anymore.

You laid your head back against the door listening to your dad's slurred voice and a complete sober one.

"Dude, you really screwed up this time, Iggy." said your dad's friend Alfred. You liked Alfred; he was like a second father who was now turning more into a first.

"I told you not to call me that!"

"I'm just sayin' man,"

"Shut it you bloody git!" your dad, Arthur, muttered. You decided "dad" was a name for people who deserved it.

You couldn't take it anymore. Running outside you ignored the rain that pelted your face and let your legs take you to where ever they wanted. You soon appeared in front of Mathias's apartment. You hadn't even realized you knocked till you saw cute blond hair and dazzling blue eyes.

The tears wouldn't stay back anymore as your name came out of his mouth shocked. You threw yourself into his arms sobbing into his chest. Wrapping his arms tightly around you he stroked your (h/c) hair and whispering in your ear everything would be alright.

He picking you up in his arms bridal style and carried you into his house and sat you in his lap on the couch. You cried a little longer till the tears came to a hiccup.

"What happened?" he asked softly. You shifted your position so you could look at him and his blue orbs begged for an answer and that his best friend would be ok.

"I'm done, Mathias. I can't take it anymore." The words came out quietly as you shook your head.

"_, you know he's just having a hard time right now. All he needs is you to be there. To let him know everything will be ok."

"I already tried that! He's the one not trying!"

"It's only been almost a year. You know your dad-"

"Arthur," you cut in.

"What?"

"Dad should only be used for people who actually deserve that name." Not wanting you make you more upset he nodded confused and continued.

"Arthur still having a hard time and you know your mom was his first and only love."

"But does that really give him a reason to miss my Art Show? My-My Prom? My 18th birthday? Instead of a typical reason for not coming, like work or something, he just goes and gets drunk! He's probably going to miss our talent show too not to mention our graduation! I just can't take it anymore."

Mathias frown and cupped your face in his hands wiping your tears away with his thumbs.

"No," he whispered. "That's not a good reason, I'm sorry, _."

"Would you let me move in with you? I swear right after high school I'll get a full time job and help pay rent and everything!"

"You know I'd let you move in anytime and you wouldn't have to worry about the money so soon; we'd figure it out. But, I really don't think now is a good time." He lightly kissed your forehead making your heart flutter. When he pulled away he gave a small white smile. "But I'll make you a promise; if you at least talk to your dad then you can move in."

Your face lit up and you beamed throwing your arms around his neck and hugging him.

"Thank you," you said warmly.

You stayed like that for a while until he pulled away.

"_, I need to tell you something." You stared into his eyes trying to read his expression but there were too many to tell.

"What?" you panicked.

"I would've said something sooner but I didn't want to ruin our friendship."

"That would never happen-"

"_ I love you!"

Your eyes grew wide and a dark crimson blush spread all the way to your ears. Well, you certainly weren't expecting that but your heart couldn't help but beat rapidly. You knew deep down you had always loved him but you had the same reason. If he didn't love you back you didn't want your friendship to end.

"I-I love you too."

Your words came out as a whisper and breathlessly. It was his turn for his eyes to grow wide for it wasn't the answer he was expecting.

"For a while." you added.

His lips suddenly crashed to yours stunning you. He kissed you fiercely but with so much emotion you could help but moan and wrap his arms around his neck. His tongue sneakily slipped between your lips making you squeak.

It was your first kiss- yes, 18 and your first kiss- but you couldn't have been happier that you shared it with Mathias.

You felt him smirk against your lips as his tongue battled for dominance but you fought back harder. You eventually let him win though, you didn't feel like battling anymore and you just wanted to enjoy the moment.
Your fingers tangled through his hair as he flipped you over so he was now on top and straddling you.
"Mathias," you moaned. "I love you."
"I love you, _."
That night you slept at his house soundly with Mathias's arms wrapped warmly around you. He was the greatest thing that had ever happened in your life and you wouldn't trade it for anything.

A.N. – Yoo! So there's one more chapter on the way and that's it! So please don't ask me to continue it! Sorry~ But some advice on improvements are always welcomed! Thanks for reading and don't forget to Review!