The List
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Marissa tries to clear her head after the truth comes out about the Music Box.
Marissa's head was whirling from Bianca's revelation of her true involvement in her reunion with JR. She hated how gullible she had been to fall for JR's lies once again. Marissa felt lost. She hoped work would help clear her head.
Marissa was scanning through her computer files searching for a deposition she had to read before Friday. A few misplaced mouse clicks had deleted it from her desktop. Whilst scrolling through her trash folder she spotted a document she had almost forgotten she'd written. It was titled simply 'the list'.
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Marissa had typed the document weeks ago. JR had surprised her with donuts and orange soda in the park and then ruined it all by coming on way too strong. The doubt that had been in the back burner for a while came back clear and strong. When Bianca had come to Krystal's later and consoled her Marissa had found herself staring at her best friend. Not for the first time she thought things would be so much simpler if she and Bianca were in love. It had always been a secret game Marissa played in her head when JR did something that hurt her or she felt sad, how it would be so much better if Bianca had been there instead. It seemed slightly wrong to think about her gay best friend that way but Marissa felt very safe having these private thoughts about Bianca just because she was so amazing. That day the feeling had been particularly strong so as a silly exercise Marissa had sat down and wrote a list on her lap top comparing Bianca to JR.
JR's list proved surprisingly long as she thought back on all the things he had done for her over the past weeks. Bianca's list had actually been quite short by comparison.
JR - AJ's father, Handsome, Smart, New Man, MUSIC BOX, Comedy store, Donuts and Orange soda, Listens to me, Gets me (sometimes), Loves me.
Bianca - Best Friend, Fun, Caring, Smart, Beautiful.
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Now as Marissa stared at the document she felt the betrayal again. She had committed herself to a man who had been lying to her for weeks and a best friend who had done the same. One because he didn't care what he did as long as he got her back and the other because she thought she could never have her.
Marissa stared at the list again and with a flick of a wrist she began editing it. She cut and pasted over half of JR's list on to Bianca's and after a moment's thought deleted some of the other words on JRs list, replacing them with more accurate ones. Marissa then starred at Bianca's new list and after gazing at it for a long time realised there was only one word to move.
Marissa sighed. Her safe little game from months ago was now something very different. It had felt anything but safe after Bianca's confession of attraction in the hotel room. Marissa had been running from that moment ever since. Now with a better perspective Marissa recognised her feelings for what they were. Everything really was so much better when Bianca was there and now she knew why. It was right there on the page. Marissa stared at the last two words. One thing was certain, she and Bianca were no longer just friends; she just didn't know if she had the courage to do something about it.
JR - AJ's Father, Handsome, Selfish, Dumb-ass.
Bianca - Best Friend, Fun, Caring, Smart (sometimes), Beautiful, MUSIC BOX, Comedy Club, Donuts and Orange soda, Listens to me, Gets me, Loves me.