"Martin, your not in love with me. I really am like a sister to you. And when you do find the right women to be with I'll be happy to baby sit for you okay.."

Martin Brewer couldn't erase her words from his mind. He just kept replaying Ruthie Camden's words over and over. He couldn't believe that the girl that he was madly in love with didn't love him back. Not in the way that he loved her at least.

"Daddy!" Aaron, his 2 year old son screamed out snapping Martin back into reality. Sandy was away on business and he had Aaron all to himself for the whole weekend. They were at the park and Aaron was desperately trying to squirm out of Martin's arms.

"Aw, I'm sorry little buddy. Daddy just had one of those moments. You know, when he spaces out." Martin said kissing his son on the forehead.

"Ruthie!" Aaron exclaimed.

Martin frowned. "I wish." Martin mumbled under his breath.

"Ruthie!" Aaron exclaimed once more.

"Aaron, Ruthie isn't here. I know you miss her but she's in Scotland.." Martin rolled his eyes.". With T-Bone"

"Aaron!" A familiar voice said. "Aw you've gotten so big."

Martin was dumbstruck.

"What? No hello?" Ruthie Camden asked her former best friend. She looked more beautiful than ever. Her hair was longer and she was taller. But other than that she was the same old Ruthie. Just the way Martin had remembered her. Beautiful.

It had been 5 months since Ruthie chose T-Bone over Martin. She and T-bone went to Scotland that summer and he hadn't seen her since. She promised to write and call whenever she could but it was so difficult for Martin to write back. What would he have said? He couldn't pretend to be happy for her. Having a friendship with her was so immensely difficult. Even signing a letter was difficult. How could he write sincerely, or your friend, when what he really wanted to write was I love you, come home ? For the first few months their phone calls were awkward. Ruthie would go on and on about T-bone and how amazing Scotland is and Martin would just stay silent on the phone. After awhile, Martin and Ruthie had an unspoken agreement that things were just too awkward for them to remain friends.

"Um hello, Martin. Earth to Martin!" Ruthie said waving her perfectly manicured hand in front of his face. She continued to do it until Martin grabbed her hand.

"Yeah, I get the point." Martin snapped.

Ruthie was taken aback. "Fine. Just trying to be friendly is all."

Martin could see Aaron getting sleepy and thought that it was a perfect excuse to get away. However, he realized that he was still holding Ruthie's hand and she hadn't tried to pull away either. He looked into her eyes and she looked into his.

She finally spoke, "Can you let go of my hand now?" She asked softly.

Martin coughed, "Uh yeah sure. Sorry about that." He was embarrassed and he could feel his face getting hot. "Well I should get going. Aaron is falling asleep and it's getting a bit chilly out here. So yeah, I think I'm going to head home. Nice seeing you again Ruthie."

He gathered Aaron's bag and switched him from his right side to his left side.

"Wait,. I was hoping that you would want to grab some coffee. Maybe catch up?" Ruthie said.

"I don't drink coffee, or did you forget?" Martin pointed out.

"Well then how about some ice cream then? My treat."

"Ice cream I can do." Martin said with a smile.

"So you and T-bone broke up?" Martin asked putting an already asleep Aaron into his bed. Ruthie and him had picked up some ice cream from The Dairy Shack and brought it back to his apartment. Martin had decided to get his own apartment and move back to Glen Oak. Sandy and him wanted to remain friends. "Friends for life." But still have joint custody over Aaron.

"Yeah. He said that his heart wasn't in it anymore and although we originally intended to get married in the future that he didn't want to commit to me. " Ruthie replied nonchalantly with a shrug of her shoulders.

"You don't seem too broken up about it." Martin said.

"The truth is I'm not. But you can at least pretend as if you feel badly about it." Ruthie said rolling her eyes playfully.

"I don't want to pretend. I hated T-bone's guts. " Martin said. He took a long look at Ruthie and she looked back at him. Suddenly there was an awkward silence

"Listen Martin. I am really sorry about everything that happened last summer and - I didn't mean to break your heart." Ruthie spit out, finally breaking the silence.

"You didn't break my heart." Martin lied. He turned away from her. "I'm over you. I have a new girlfriend and just in case you're wondering.. she's beautiful, fun, and most importantly she is great with Aaron."

"Oh." Ruthie said. She couldn't hide her hurt. "What's her name?" Ruthie asked.

"Does it really matter?" Martin snapped.

"I guess it really doesn't." Ruthie said grabbing her coat and walking to the door. "Bye Martin." She said opening and slamming the door all at once.

"You think you can just come back and everything is going to be the same?! Think again Ruthie!" Martin yelled after her. Aaron began to cried and Martin mentally cursed himself for waking him up. "He's never going to go back to sleep now." Martin said out loud. "Welcome home Ruthie." He mumbled bitterly.

"I mean I didn't expect for him to be distraught over me or anything… but I didn't expect him to have a girlfriend either! " Ruthie complained to Lucy.

Lucy was putting Savannah down for her afternoon nap. "Ruthie what does it matter? I mean do you still have feelings for him after all this time? Even after everything he put you through.. With Sandy and Jane?" Lucy asked.

"Okay so maybe he has lead me on a little in the past…" Ruthie started. She was interrupted by Lucy mid sentence.

"A little?" Lucy replied with a roll of her eyes.

"Okay maybe a lot." Ruthie admitted. "But I really do care about him."

"Ever since Martin first moved in with us I knew that there was going to be something between the two of you. The way that he looked at you.. And the way that you always looked at him. But being physically attracted to someone is only part of it.. How do you know that what your feeling isn't just lust? It's perfectly normal." Lucy said.

"Lust? Do you really think so?"

"Sometimes we want what we can't have." Lucy stated.

"But I could have had him Lucy! He told me he was in love with me last summer and I rejected him. I chose T-bone over him. Now he has a girlfriend and I have nobody." Ruthie whined.

"Since when does he have a girlfriend?" Lucy asked confused.

"I don't know. But he told me he does. I mean just because you're a reverend doesn't mean people are going to tell you everything. Remember when you were always the last to know?" Ruthie laughed at the memory of her childhood. Lucy was always the last to know all the juicy gossip whereas Ruthie was always the first to know.

Lucy crossed her arms in annoyance. Everybody always thought it was so funny to bring it up. However, it wasn't funny to Lucy. "Listen Ruthie I have a meeting at the church now. So go talk to Martin."

Ruthie sighed. "Fine I guess I will."

Disclaimer- I do not own 7th heaven.
I took out the whole RV thing because I really didn't like that idea to begin with so I just made it as if Ruthie went to Scotland with T-bone instead. I really didn't feel like getting into Sandy in the first chapter.. I will mention her more latter.

R&R

Authors Note :

I know the first chapter wasn't the best. But I promise it will get a lot better!