My Immortal
I'm so tired of being here repressed by all my childish fears and if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave. Your presence still lingers here and you won't leave me alone.
It had been two weeks since Logan had left Quinn for Mandy Franklin. She was sitting in a chair holding her baby daughter Mary in her lap. She missed Logan so much that she felt his presence everywhere. All her life she had been afraid of being left by someone who loved her. Now that it had finally happened she could not escape the feeling that he was still with her and she wished it would go away.
These wounds won't seem to heal this pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase. When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears. I held you hand for all of these years but you still have all of me.
Quinn held Mary close to her and remembered the night that Logan's father passed away. "She had come home from work early every night and sometimes stayed home completely just to take care of him. Some nights he would have nightmares and Quinn would wipe the tears away from his cheeks. Then she would sit up with him until he fell asleep and his fears were kept away. Even after he fell asleep some nights she would hold his hand."
When she remembered this she felt sick because she had let Logan control her heart then and he still controlled it now.
You used to captivate me with you resonating life. Now I'm bound by the lies you left behind. Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams. Your voice has chased away all the sanity in me.
Quinn put Mary to bed and thought about how beautiful her life had been with Logan. He had also told many lies to her. He pretended to love Quinn and Mary and now Quinn was stuck. Every night she tried not to go to sleep because when she did she saw Logan's face. The thing that hurt the most was that she heard his voice when she was awake. She didn't tell her friends because they would think that she was crazy. The scary thing was that Quinn sometimes thought that she was out of her mind.
I try so hard to tell myself that you're gone. Though you're still with me I've been alone all along.
In the morning Zoey came to see Quinn. Zoey said "Quinn it's been two weeks. It's not healthy to dwell on this. You and Mary are alone right now but you were even more alone when you were with him."
Quinn said "I know you're right Zoey. It's just so hard to let go. I do feel a lot less alone now that you're here. I just miss him so much."
Zoey said "Quinn he doesn't deserve you. You are better off alone. Now lets go out to lunch I think you need to get out of the house."