AU: This is my first fanfiction ever. I would appreciate some feedback.
Diclaimer: I own nothing but my own nameless character.
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It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
Dean Winchester has walked in and out of my life more than times than I can count. It hurt just as bad every single time. I know I should always expect to wake up to an empty bed when it cam to Dean Winchester. He would come over once every couple of months. No words would ever be said, just actions. The night would be filled with hot passion and pure bliss. But every passionate night would find an end. The same thing would happen every morning. I would awake to find that Dean has left me with nothing but a note. I'll see you next time. How much colder could a person get? I know I should be mad but I can't seem to find that anger.
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
After every night and empty morning I tell myself the same thing. There will not be a next time.
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
I will not submit to him so willingly anymore. He will not have so much power over me.
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time
Sometimes I can convince myself that I will not give in to Dean Winchester. But all that strong persuasion flies right out the window when I find him on my doorstep.
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts, in my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
It is almost like I'm not in my own body anymore. I have no more control, no thoughts, and no morals when he kisses me with those plump luscious lips.
It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now
My mind tells to stop. Don't fall for this again. Don't give in. But I can't seem to find the brake. I can't stop. Not now. Not with those lips slowly trailing down my neck.
It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts, in my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
In the back of mind I know I shouldn't be doing this. But all I can say to myself as Dean's hands attack my clothes is just one last time. One more time couldn't hurt.
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time, then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
Then the next morning I find myself in the same predicament as always. The same thoughts rush through my head. I find myself saying the same thing: Never again. This was the last time. But we all know that is lie.
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts, in my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
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Thanks for reading. Like I said at first, this is my first fanfiction. Please review.