A/N: Okay so I'm back with another anti twilight fic. This one is going to be exploring Bella's life as a vampire as well as her desire for human blood. I also wanted to explore the whole animal blood substitute concept for Smyer's vampires. In my opinon it makes them even bigger pussies well that and the sparkling it also insults the whole concept of vampires in my opinon. To quote Malcolm from True Blood "Honey if we can't kill people, what's the point of being a vampire" thank you Malcolm truer words have never been spoken.
Bella Swan hated her life. Every morning she would lie motionless and listen to her husband breathing softly beside her in their bed and every evening she would watch him leave with Jasper and Emmett to go hunting for deer, leaving her with this insufferable hunger.
It was quiet in their home. Alice was out shopping with Rosalie, Carlisle was working at the hospital and Esme was at her book club. Bella was alone again, she liked being alone both in her human life and this one. Too many people annoyed her, but right now what was occupying her thoughts was this painful hunger clawing at her stomach.
Edward and his brothers never let her go hunting with them. He said it was too dangerous and that a new vampire like her would be too "fragile" so he had arranged for his brothers to bring some extra blood from their kills for her. She hated drinking the animal blood; it was bitter and never really satisfied her. Edward had said she would get used to it but after two years no such luck.
She began sniffing around for blood; this was another perk to being a vampire that she enjoyed, the stronger sense of smell. She could smell everything from the Chanel perfume Alice had worn three months ago to the chocolate chip cookies Mrs. Morrison baked for the neighborhood kids every Saturday. Bella missed the taste of a chocolate chip cookie; it was odd not having the little pleasures that humans often took for granted.
The scent grew stronger as she neared the basement and her fangs slipped out in anticipation. Edward had said that only vampires can smell it and that no matter what she must resist her urges. He claimed after a while the smell didn't even bother him very much, yet she could still see a little flicker of excitement in his eyes whenever he smelled fresh human blood on Carlisle after he came home from work .
Downstairs were shelves stocked with medical supplies and old textbooks. Bella had never been down here. It was an unwritten rule that you stayed away from the basement in the Cullen home. Bella had always wondered what was down there, when she had first started dating Edward her curiosity had gotten the better of her one evening and she attempted to venture into the basement, Carlisle had stopped her saying that what was down there was extremely private and dangerous.
There were several shelves stacked up against the wall that had old medical textbooks and school books from the 1950' began combing through them, looking for the source of that smell. She was desperate to find it and didn't know why. She began knocking books down frantically searching for it. Finally after what felt like hours her eyes fell on a tattered old book titled Your Appendix and You. This book was suspicious to her; it was oversized and had a bizarre lock keeping it shut.
Bella took out a bobby pin from her hair and began working on the lock; she had learned a few tricks about picking locks from Alice, they came in handy when Edward would lock her in the house when he was in one of his jealous moods and her paranoia was starting to kick in as she thought she heard footsteps above. It snapped open and inside was hollowed out containing a small package of blood, tempting her. Bella licked her lips and her pupils darkened with desire. She picked up the blood and examined it. The color was crimson and had a strange smell to it.
Her mouth was watering and that last bit of self-control was slowly disappearing. Bella could hear the blood sloshing around in the plastic and the sound was driving her mad. She bit into the bag and began to drink. It was one of the sweetest things she had ever tasted, sweeter than Mrs. Morrison's cookies, sweeter than her father's lemonade, sweeter than all of those things combined.
The hunger that ate away at her stomach was dulled and she felt better, stronger even. Her senses were heightened and her mood was elevated. Bella felt as though she could run to California and back in under a minute. She licked her lips of the last few drops and examined the empty bag.
A part of her felt guilty. That she had greedily stolen something, others were in dire need of, but her hunger and curiosity had overcome her better judgment. At least that's what she told herself while throwing the bag under a loose floorboard and heading upstairs to hopefully find something that would hide the smell on her breath.
"Hello Bella" Edward said and she welcomed him with a small kiss on the cheek. "How was hunting you guys"? Emmett grinned with pride as he held up a large bucket of deer blood. "This will probably last you for at least a few weeks, darling" Bella forced herself to smile at her husband; even the smell of it was nauseating. "Have you fed yet"? He began sniffing at her and Bella's heartbeat began to quicken out of nervousness. "Um no but I'm not really hungry at the moment, I'll eat later"
"Bella please we've been hunting all evening and I want all of us to eat together as a family, I've worked hard trying to find food for us all and I want my efforts to be appreciated so would you kindly join us for dinner" Edward kept an even tone but his voice sounded forceful. It was more of a command than a request, but lately almost everything he said was. Still she did not want to fight tonight, when they fought things got ugly and sometimes violent.
Alice and Rosalie came in a little later than usual which annoyed Edward but he didn't say anything. The blood was boiled and seasoned with garlic (of all things) and mild chili pepper. Still it couldn't hide the foul odor coming from it. Bella didn't understand why no one at the table seemed bothered by it. Maybe it was because they were so used to it or just tolerated it.
She took little sips of the blood, trying to force herself into taking bigger gulps and was reminded of when she was a child and her father would attempt to make her eat Brussels sprouts. She missed her father and her mother. The only time they would ever really see each other was during the holidays.
"That was really good, we should have deer more often" Edward had murmured, gently stroking Bella's hair as they lay in bed. "Uh oh yeah it was pretty good". He looked down at her puzzled. "Are you alright, you seem distracted?" She smiled gently and snuggled deeper into him. "I'm fine just a bit tired is all". This reassured him and he soon started to drift off to sleep. As Bella herself began to slip away into her dreams she realized two things about herself, one that she very much enjoyed human blood and two she desired more of it.
A/N: Okay so that was the first chapter. Please review, tell me what you think, give me constructive critisicm and ideas. I have an idea of where I'm going with this fic but I keep bouncing back and forth. Oh and there's gonna be alot of Edward bashing in the future. I hate the guy, it doesn't mean that I'm team Jacob however I will say he's the lesser of two evils. I'm also trying to make Bella more relatable and likable well she was neither of those things in the actual book but I'm gonna try, damn it. Anyway please review tell me what you liked, what you didn't like. You can even tell me that Edward is gonna dazzle me to death with his sparkles.