This is a story I started a long time ago and am now just getting the inspiration to continue. It's an AU where Kurt and Blaine don't meet in high school and Kurt marries someone else. Don't judge until you read. This is a Klaine fic though so… I don't own anyone in this story that you recognize. Please review!

Kurt couldn't breathe, or move, but he was far from numb. So far it felt as if the only thing he would ever feel again was the radiating pain that engulfed his body. The pillow still smelled of John, his tooth brush was still on the bathroom sink, his glasses still on the nightstand. It was as if any moment he would walk back in and curl up in the bed, pulling Kurt into his arms. But that was never going to happen again, a mugging gone wrong had sent Kurt's world into a spiral.

"Daddy," and Kurt knew if it weren't for the person that voice belonged to, he wouldn't have gotten out of bed at all in the past week.

"Hey, Baby," Kurt's voice was hoarse and weak from sobbing. He rolled over to look at his son, his brown eyes wide, tears trailing his cheeks. "Wanna get in here with me?" He probably should have suggested they go for a walk in the park, or the diner down the street for breakfast, but his body wouldn't let him leave the apartment. Xander crawled desperately into the bed, getting as close to Kurt as he physically could, burying his face in Kurt's neck.

"Does it go away? Does the hurt go away, Daddy?" Kurt flinched violently, let out a soft sob, knowing it was far too late to hide his pain from the little boy.

"No, baby, it never really does. It doesn't hurt as much, but we will always miss him," Kurt spoke from personal experience, and he hated that this was something he related to his son about. The loss of a parent, he knew that pain, he knew that loneliness, and he would give anything to help his child. Xander nodded and snuggled closer to Kurt, wrapping one leg around Kurt's waist.

"Do you think he can see us in heaven?" Xander asked. Kurt had developed a bit of faith, agreeing that maybe there was something out there bigger than himself. But this was just another example of how that higher power seemed to like to mess with Kurt, but he wouldn't push his son away from god, not when he clearly needed to believe he would see his Papa again.

"Yeah, sweetie, I think he can, and I know he still loves you so much," Kurt replied, hugging Xander tightly and kissing his blonde hair. Xander drifted back to sleep, safe in his father's arms, and Kurt felt like for the first time that maybe they would be ok. Then the a knock came at the door and Kurt's heart sunk, that's how all this had started, a simple knock on the door that had been a police officer telling him his husband was dead. Xander didn't stir and Kurt stood up at gently as he could, his child needed sleep as much as he did. He grabbed a tee-shirt, pulling in on before heading to the door.

He knew they weren't police when he looked through the peep hole, but they were wearing business suits and Kurt still felt like he was going to vomit. He opened the door,

"Can I help you?" Kurt asked, not caring that he looked terrible and his voice sounded like it would give out any second.

"Kurt Hummel?" The woman asked, looking down at a piece of paper in her hand,

"Kurt Hummel-Burman." Kurt practically choked on his last name but then he managed to swallow hard and repeated, "Can I help you?"

"We are here to serve you with contestant papers for custody of minor Alexander Burman," Kurt's heart didn't sink, it shattered.

"Alexander Hummel-Burman," Kurt bit, fire erupting in his stomach at the thought of someone even threatening to take Xander away from him.

"Are you his biological father?" Kurt's eyes narrowed and scowled,

"I am his father, and who is trying to take my child away from me?" He knew he was moments away from tears, but he refused to let these people see. He'd already lost his husband and now they were telling him he was going to have to fight for his son.

"The child's biological family believes that he should be with them as opposed to a stranger," the man explained, with so much judgment and hatred in his voice that Kurt would have punched him had a small voice not called out to him.

"Daddy," it was distressed, Xander had already lost one parent, waking up and not knowing where the other was, was terrifying.

"I'm right here, Bud," Kurt replied, leaving the people at the door to soothe the most important person in his life. Xander let out a soft whimper as soon as Kurt appeared and wrapped his arms around his neck.

"Daddy, please don't leave me too," Kurt shut his eyes tightly, holding his son tightly.

"I'm not going anywhere," Kurt made a promise that he honestly wasn't sure he could keep. Suddenly the two people that had been at his door were now in his bedroom.

"Who are they?" Xander asked softly, his grip getting tighter. Xander had taken after John and had always been slightly shy, and now, when he was already so vulnerable, he just didn't want anyone new coming in his life.

"No one," Kurt said, glaring at the people who had entered his apartment uninvited.

"You are expected to be at the courthouse Tuesday morning, where it will be decided if you are a suitable parent or not,"

"I beg your pardon," Kurt asked his arms wrapped possessively around Xander.

"What did she mean? Daddy," Xander whispered, searching his father's face for a clue as to what was happening. Kurt looked at him, his face the same gentle and loving expression he always wore when he saw Xander.

"Can you do me a favor, Xan?" Xander nodded hesitantly, looking between his father and the strangers in his house. "Can you go in your room for me? I'll come get you," he promised. Xander bit his lip but obeyed, not liking the look of anger on his father's face, his father only got that face when he was mad at someone who said something bad about him or his papa. It wasn't long before he heard yelling, Kurt's yelling and he held his stuffed dog, Gucci to his chest. He had the terrible feeling something bad was going to happen.

I plan on updating this as soon as I possibly can so if you want to know what happens story alert me. I am hoping before this time next week, but if you have read my stuff before you know I update randomly so… but it's a goal. Please review! Much love to all of you who read this! *heart*