this is my first ever SakuraxSyaoran fanfic and so, please don't be 2 harsh!!!

in this fanfic, Sakura is a card captor, but Syaoran isn't...2 bad, ne?

well...on with the strory, den...

This is Sakura's POV:

Well, this is my life. I'm living my sweet sixteen, having a grand time. I have everything I could ever ask for: Great friends, a caring father, an overprotective brother and I must say; I don't look that bad. Well, my hair is an unnaturally long auburn (just like my mum's) and my eyes, well, people say they resemble the emeralds in the queen's crown. I think I'm ok, just the way I am. But there's something I can never have, well, not after that day…

I suffer from what the doctors call 'multiple sclerosis'. It's a disease you should never wish for; its better dying than suffering from something so dreadful. But, since I'm quite used to it now, I don't really mind.

I still recall the day I realized that I won't be normal anymore:

FLASHBACK

A younger Sakura during her Card captoring days. She is wearing a periwinkle blue costume designed for her by her best friend, Tomoyo Daidouji. As usual her best friend has surpassed herself and the result was very delighting: Sakura looked like a princess.

"Kawaii!" exclaimed Tomoyo, as she walked around the girl, trying to get better angles for her video shots. Sakura simply sweat dropped and suddenly became alert. The card, she thought, concentration etched on her face.

After a long and tiring fight, Sakura turned to Tomoyo with a victory sign, when, suddenly, the staff in her hands slipped and fell. Sakura stared at her fingers, a cold feeling enveloping her. Her fingers felt really numb. Her legs were shaking badly. Tomoyo came running to her and asked her, her eyes shining with worry, "are you ok, Sakura?" Sakura nodded and smiled at her.

As they made their way home, Sakura suddenly felt her vision go hazy. She stumbled and fell down, causing Kero to yell in fright. "Sakura! Sakura!" came the screams, but Sakura was already far away; her eyes closed.

The next day, she woke up feeling better. Yawning, she made her way downstairs to find Touya and her father, deep in conversation. They looked up when they saw her enter. Fujitaka stood up and said, "how are you feeling, Sakura?" "I'm OK, now. I guess the stress just got to me," she replied, smiling. Seeing her father's worried face, she continued, "Seriously, daddy, I'm OK! Don't worry!" however, Touya was not convinced. Sakura saw the worried look on his face as he glanced at her before leaving for college.

After a few months, the numbness and the double vision increased. Sakura now frequently fell down while walking in school. She could no longer ride a bike or roller skate. All along, she shook off the feeling that something was wrong with her as she didn't want to accept it. But once when Touya saw her falling in school and embarrassing herself in front of her friends, he couldn't take it anymore.

They visited the doctor next day, much to Sakura's disdain. Touya narrated everything to the doctor, who listened attentively, a solemn expression on his face. Sakura sat quietly, with her mouth clamped shut, frequently glaring at Touya when he mentioned something scary. Mr. Kinomoto smiled at his daughter, but she didn't smile back. She was watching the doctor's face, which was slowly changing color.

The doctor stood up and said, "I think I know…but, we'll have to confirm that." Turning to Mr. Kinomoto, he said, "We'll have to perform a few tests. Are you ok with that?" Touya and Mr. Kinomoto nodded. Now, Sakura couldn't take it anymore. Standing up, she yelled, "I'm OK, just a bit tired!!! Honestly, dad, Touya, you worry too much!"

The doctor turned to her, a look of sympathy on his face. "Miss Kinomoto, please, its just a few tests. I assure you, you'll be alright. It's just that, it's a bit unnerving……" "Do it, Sakura," said Touya.

Sakura sighed and gave in. after the doctor had finished, she swung her legs over the examining bed and got off. As the doctor glanced at the reports, he said gently to Sakura, "could you please wait outside while your dad and I have a little talk?"

Sakura nodded and went outside.

Nobody spoke as they got into the car. Sakura badly wanted to ask about the reports, but Touya's face silenced her. When they reached home, Sakura went to her room. But, she could not sleep. She decided to get herself a glass of milk when she heard voices coming from the living room.

Walking stealthily, she hid behind the large ornamental plant in the dining room. She could see her brother clearly, along with her father. As she strained her ears, Sakura heard, "she's so young, Touya. It's so unfair." Touya nodded. Sakura was startled to see tears streaming down her brother's face. She had never seen her brother cry. The only time he had shed a single tear was during her mother's funeral. Touya's next words hit her like a thunderstorm: "Multiple sclerosis! Why she? Why Couldn't I have it?"

That's when Sakura's happy life took a tragic turn. She didn't want the world to know she was weak, but there's no way she could hide it….

END OF FLASHBACK

Today, I can't walk without crutches. I don't mind sitting in a wheelchair, but seeing other kids going to night clubs, for dances and other stuff, I can't help feeling a lump rise in my throat. I wish I could be like them. Yeah, I really do.

I'm still a normal kid, though. I read, get good grades, listen to music (which is my passion) and of course, daydream about good-looking guys, like all other sixteen year old girls do. I forgot to mention this, but I love singing. Oh yes, once I open my mouth, I just can't seem to stop!! Touya says I sound like a toad croaking in the rain, but I know Touya, as I have spent half of my life with him. Tomoyo loves my voice and keeps writing new songs for me so that I can set them in perfect tune and then, sing them for ages.

I don't go to school. Instead, I've got a tutor. She's the sweetest person in the whole world! I think Touya likes her too. (Hehehe) Miss Mizuki is not only my tutor; she is also the person I share everything with. She knows me inside out.

I can never forget her words of consolation when I was down and my tears didn't seem to stop. "Sakura, people may look at you and whisper things about you and even say you're abnormal. But you should know, you are what I term as 'special' and not abnormal. So no matter what happens, you shall always be the star for the Kinomoto family and for me."

so, did u like it? well, the next chapter is a bit more revealing, truly!!!

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