I'd do anything! oneshot to convince you that I'm nothing
I
sighed as I pulled my knees into my chest and rested my forehead on
my knees once again. I was sick of feeling like this. Hated for only
one reason.
I guess when you tour with the Connect 3 as part
of their crew, girls see you with them, and automatically thing your
dating one of the boys.
The truth was, I wasn't dating anyone, and
I was sick of the fans stupid glares. I wasn't doing anything, to be
hated. Even if I was dating one of the boys shouldn't they, the
fans, be happy for the boys.
I suddenly felt a hand on my
back, I knew exactly who it was but I didn't want him to be
there.
"Shane what do you want" I said, a bit rudely.
"I
want to know what's wrong, you left in such a hurry" he said,
softly as he started to rub my back. Shane was like my best friend,
he always wanted to be there for me. My issue, however, was he
liked me, and I didn't want him to like me when there where so many
other girls out there. I wasn't thin, I was sorta cute I guess, but I
was nothing compared to the many skinny beautiful friends, and fans
he had. In fact I was nothing at all, I came from an ordinary family,
didn't do anything extraordinary, I was just plain old Cori from the
middle of no where Utah.
"Shane just go, go be with your
family, and go see your fans. The meet and greet starts in 5 minutes"
I said quietly. I never looked up at him, but I could tell he was
giving me that look. That look that said, 'I care, now tell me
what's wrong'.
"But Cori" Shane started
"Shane
don't start, just go I'll tell you later" I said finally looking
over at him. His eyes made contact with mine, and I suddenly felt
butterflies. That's NOT supposed to happen when you look into your
best friends eyes. I couldn't fall for him, not now, not ever.
He was my friend that's how it had to stay. So many other girls
would be so much better for him. I broke eye contact and looked away
from him.
"Ok Cori" he said, he sounded kind of hurt.
His hand left my back I looked towards him a few seconds later, he
was slowly walking down the hall.
Before I knew it the concert had ended. And I was helping pack up. As I sat something into the bottom of one of the buses, someone tapped my shoulder, I went to stand up and see who it was but I hit my head hard on the bottom of the bus. I immediately blacked out.
"Hey
Cori you ok" I heard someone ask as my hand reached for my head,
a few seconds later I opened my eyes. My head was on Shane's lap, and
Shane, Nate, and Jason where all looking at me.
"I'll be
fine" I said as I quickly sat up. The room started spinning, so
i laid back down.
"Cori don't sit up" Shane said, i just
looked at him.
"Shane I'm not staying on your lap" I
said, as I slid my whole body onto the couch. Jason started busting
up laughing at my tone of voice, and Shane's shocked face.
"You
really do puzzle me Cori" Shane said scratching his head.
"Its
not that hard" I said under my breath. I than heard Nate and
Jason start busting up laughing. Yes, I was being rude, but I didn't
want Shane to like me. What else was i suppose to do. Shane sighed
and stood up. I just closed my eyes hoping the dizzy-ness would go
away.
"You know Cori, you don't have to be so..." I
heard Nate say as the couch sank.
"Rude" I mumbled
finishing his sentence, as I opened my eyes and looked at him. He
just smiled and me and nodded.
"You know, you crush his
spirits a lot when you do that, he does like you" Nate said
looking towards the back of the bus.
"I don't want him to
like me" I said ever so quietly.
"Why" Nate
whispered.
"I'm nothing" I said as I looked away from
him.
"Yeah right, Cori your not nothing"
"have
you not seen your fans, all of them are beautiful, and some of them
are like supermodels" I said looking at him. He just smiled,
sighed and shook his head.
"But
Cori, your real, half our fans fake it. You don't" Nate said. I
sat there in silence; I couldn't argue with Nate, he would some how
prove me wrong. He always did. "I'm going to try and get some
sleep. I recommend you do the same" Nate said. I just
nodded.
--
I awoke by being pulled out of my bunk. I screamed and hit the person, who was pulling me out.
"Oww… Cori, God. Calm down!" Shane said in hushed tones, as he lowered me to the ground. I glared as best I could at him with how dark it was.
"Shane what the hell? I was trying to sleep."
"But Cori we need to talk" he said.
"And it couldn't wait until the morning"
"It couldn't wait." He said quietly, I just sighed in frustration.
"Fine" I said, he just gestured towards the back lounge of the bus we were in. I sat on the couch and folded my arms across my chest.
"What did you want to talk about Shane?" I asked, still peeved he woke me up.
"I want to talk about us" He said quietly.
"Shane there is no us" I mumbled.
"Why" he said.
"Because I'm nothing," I said quietly
"Cori, your not nothing" he said gently lifting up my chin so our eyes met.
"I am too" I muttered so quietly I could barely hear it.
"Cori, your not nothing, your amazing. I wouldn't love you if you were nothing." Shane said.
"Shane you don't love me." I said.
"How would you know" He said.
"Because if you loved me, you would treat me well, and make sure I'm ok, and take care of me" I trailed off, getting quieter with every word, realizing he did do all of that.
"Cori, I do all of that." He said.
"But Shane I'm no good for you, I'm not famous, I'm not a model, I'm not anything out of the ordinary" I said. He softly laughed and shook his head.
"I think your extraordinary, not every girl gets to be part of the Crew for us. And your not a model, but your beautiful" he smiled. I couldn't help but Grin, he was making my heart melt, and butterflies go crazy in my stomach.
