AN: This is a song-fic .The song is called Almost by Tamia
Olivia was walking into the precinct at 5.00 in the morning, she couldn't sleep.
"Olivia?" Alex said "Why are you here so early?"
"Ah, couldn't sleep" Olivia said
"You're not alone my friend" Alex said patting her shoulder
"But, Alex it's a bit more complex" Olivia said rubbing the sides of her head. Olivia closed her eyes and sees Elliot in her bed "That was incredible Liv" Olivia's eyes popped open
"Alex! I need to ask you something" Olivia yelled panicking
"What? Stabler problems?"Alex said winking
Olivia started talking and didn't notice Elliot standing in the doorway
"Alex, I imagine him everywhere, in my bed, in me, doing things that he's never done, kissing me. Alex it's crazy" Olivia said "He's my partner and I'm imagining him being my husband my boyfriend just things that don't make sense because we aren't together he doesn't think of me like that" Olivia said tears forming
"Alex, Can you tell me how can one miss what she's never had? How could I reminisce when there is no past? Elliot has a family and I'm not in it. But my dreams are telling me otherwise. No, I'm not crazy. How could I have memories of being happy with you boy? (Elliot) Can someone tell me how could this be? It's like I'm living in my own world"
Alex noticed Elliot in the doorway showing her the divorce papers "Well, Benson I think he cares very much, maybe he'll go to extreme lengths for you but hey I could be wrong" Alex said smirking
Olivia sighed "But how could my mind pull up incidents recall dates and times that never happened? How I could we celebrate a love that's too late and how could I really mean the words I'm about to say? Olivia said tears falling out of her eyes quickly
Alex sighed "Olivia all you need to see is like right in front of you" Alex saw Elliot mouth to Alex to tell Olivia he does love her "And I think Stabler does love you"
"Every time I saw Elliot and Kathy I would imagine it was me" Olivia whispered "I miss the times that we almost shared, I miss the love that was almost there, I miss the times that we used to kiss, at least in my dreams just let me take my time and reminisce. I miss the times that we never had, what happened to us? We were almost there, whoever said it's impossible to miss what you never had? Never almost had you (him).
"After the whole Gitano mess, I requested for a new partner because that's what I thought he wanted, I've pushed Elliot away so many times. That case we had with a mother who was sleeping with her lawyer and accused her ex of rape and later he burned her to death, I told Elliot a few nasty comments. I've been so rude to him but he's never rude to me, I cannot believe I let you go, or what I should say, I should of grabbed you up and never let you go. I should of went out with you I should of made you my boo, boy yeah this one time I should of broke the rules."
"Wow" was all Alex could say
"Yeah? Right"
"I should of went on a date, should of found a way to escape, should of turned a almost into
If it happened now it's too late. He's probably gone now, he probably realized how much of a bitch I am and he can't deal with me. How could I celebrate a love that wasn't real? And if it didn't happen why does my heart feel? When I was undercover, I missed him like crazy I thought about the time we made out on my couch. But the thing is that never happened. I missed the times that we almost shared .I miss the love that was almost there. I miss the times that we use to kiss, At least in my dreams Just let me take the time and reminisce I miss the times that we never had, What happened to us? We were almost there whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had? Never almost had you. I'm a stubborn bitch!
You seemed to be the perfect one for me, you, you're all I ever wanted. You're my everything yes it's true. Those moments that I imagine being with him in ways that we've never been in together, damn, boy it's hard to be close to you, my love. I know it may sound crazy but I'm in love with you.
Elliot was still in the doorway in tears "Why does Olivia feel that way?" Elliot mouthed to Alex to ask Olivia.
"Benson, why do you feel like that?" Alex said truly concerned
"Never mind," Olivia said "I'm whining"
"No you're not Liv" Elliot said walking towards her. He grabbed her hand and kissed each knuckle. "Liv, the moments you're imagining could be real and they are going to be real now because I finally have a solid answer if you love me or not"
Olivia jumped "How long have you been here" Olivia said whipping her tears.
"Don't worry, Liv, I love you so much. You mean the world to me. You're my everything and look at these" Elliot said pulling the divorce papers out of his pocket.
Olivia was shocked "You….and …Kathy are…done? For good?" Olivia asked
"Yes, we're done Liv and you and I have just begun. I love you Olivia Benson and I mean it" Elliot said
Elliot pulled Olivia and wrapped his arm around her waist and locked hands with Olivia with his other hand and kissed her sweetly. It was full of emotion, emotions that were hidden for almost 12 years she smiled against his mouth and whispered "I love you too Elliot" they broke the kiss and noticed Alex was gone. Elliot pulled Olivia in and pecked her lips and kissed her earlobe and whispered sweet nothings to her until it was time for them to work. They both would be a lot happier today all because of an Almost turned into reality.
AN: So tell me what you think it was a one-shot