Author's Note:

Hello all and welcome. Here is my story on what happened after ST: Into Darkness and I've ended up involving Winona Kirk in this one and you'll find out about her and Jim's history. Like the rest of my stories there is a lot of Pavel though it's a bit more angsty then the others but don't worry fluff will appear somewhere.

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Winona

It had been three days since Jim Kirk died.

Three days since Khan, three days since Marcus and the Vengeance, three days since the Enterprise nearly fell to Earth killing all aboard her, three days since Captain James Tiberius Kirk had entered the warp core and sacrificed himself to save his ship and crew and Pavel Andreievich Chekov still didn't know how to deal with all of it.

His Captain, his Papa had died and though McCoy had found a way to bring him back he had still died and Pavel couldn't shake the feeling that it was his fault.

Everyone had been telling him otherwise; Scotty had done so several times, Hikaru had sought him out and said so along with Nyota, even Spock and McCoy had broken away from their constant watch at Jim's side to try and tell him but no matter how many times they said it wasn't his fault Pavel still wouldn't believe it. This was why he had yet to visit Jim at the hospital; he couldn't bear the thought of facing his Captain now when it was his failure in Engineering that left the ship in the state it was forcing Jim to enter the warp core. So he stayed shut up in the apartment that a few of the Command Crew shared and brooded in his room despite the continued pleadings of Nyota for him to come out.

It was into this situation that Winona Kirk arrived.

Leonard McCoy was exhausted.

He had barely left Jim's side since three days ago, in fact he had only left the hospital once to try and convince Pavel to come and visit Jim and to tell him it wasn't his fault. Unfortunately all he had seen of the boy was his bedroom door and McCoy was certain that his words had done little to convince the teen. He was sat in a seat next to Jim's bed trying to get some sleep but it was proving to be as elusive as the last couple of nights and he eventually gave up. Spock had left earlier that night, the half-Vulacn had spent almost as much time with Jim as McCoy and had only left to sleep and to try and speak to Pavel himself. If what he said when he arrived at the hospital that morning was to go by Spock had also been unsuccessful with the boy.

Bones whiled away the night hours remembering the things he had done with Jim and had eventually drifted into a half-doze when a voice startled him.

"Leonard?"

He jumped in his seat and looked towards the door and was surprised to see Winona Kirk standing there. He knew very little about what happened between her and Jim, all McCoy knew was that they had been out of contact for a long time until after Nero when they got back in touch and commed regularly. Since then she had visited the Enterprise once or twice and met the rest of the Command Crew and had thanked McCoy profusely for 'looking after her Jimmy'. He had obviously managed to send a message to her about what happened when he had a chance but she worked on a cargo ship that was at the other side of the Federation so he hadn't expected her to be able to return so soon.

Bringing his thoughts into focus McCoy spoke, "Mrs Kirk, I didn't think you'd be able to make it back this quickly."

She moved towards Jim's bed, "When my captain heard what happened he turned the ship around and got back to Earth as quickly as possible. I only arrived back about an hour ago."

By the time she had finished speaking she was standing by the bed looking down at Jim, "How is he?"

McCoy sighed before answering, "The radiation did a lot of damage but at the moment the serum is doing its work. It's just taking a long time so we have to keep him on life support until his body has healed enough to keep itself alive.

She nodded still staring at her son and Bones got up out of his seat so she could sit down. They stayed with Jim with Winona sitting holding Jim's hand while McCoy stood beside them not saying anything. Eventually Winona spoke, "How are you holding up?"

The Doctor paused before answering, "I'm coping, there's no point moping when he needs my help."

She smiled, "You're good to him and the rest."

"Well someone has to be the responsible one on that ship."

There was a lot more in that statement than appeared and Winona understood. She spoke again, "How are the rest managing?"

"Spock's been here almost as much as me, in fact I only think he sleeps elsewhere cause Nyota makes him. She's been here a few times though she's largely looking after Pavel. Scotty is either here or on the Enterprise busy with repairs and Hikaru visits every day, I'm not sure what he does when he's not here but I think he's living in Jim's arpartment with Nyota and Pavel."

"What about Pavel? You haven't said what he's been doing. I thought he wouldn't have left Jim's side?"

McCoy gave a huge sigh, "He isn't doing as well, he's blaming himself for what happened and nothing we say can make him think otherwise. He won't leave the apartment and he barely leaves his room, he hasn't come to visit Jim either and I don't think he's eating properly despite Nyota constantly trying to get him to do so. She rarely goes back to her and Spock's apartment now cause she's worried, we all are." He rubbed a hand tiredly down his face, "He's going to do a lot of damage to himself at this rate but the only person who could possibly get through to him is Jim."

Winona gazed down at her son before giving his hand a squeeze and standing. She turned to McCoy, "Thank you Leonard, I'll be back soon but I should go and find somewhere to stay."

"Why not stay in Jim's apartment?"

She looked at him confused and he spoke again, "It's fairly close and I'm sure Jim won't mind, it belongs to both of me and him and everyone else seems to be staying there anyway. I know Nyota would be happy to see you and since we don't know how long it'll be before Jim wakes up you don't have to worry about paying for a hotel or something."

She thought about his offer before replying, "Thank you Leonard, it is kind of you to make that offer."

He smiled at her, "It's the least I can do. I'll let Nyota know your coming. Do you need transport to get there?"

"It's ok, I've hired a car and I know the way. I'll be back to visit him soon."
"I'll let you know the moment anything happens."

"Thank you."

With a quick kiss on Jim's forehead she left as McCoy took his seat again.

It didn't take long for Winona to arrive at her son's apartment and Nyota met her at the door. The younger woman placed a finger on her lips as Winona entered and she gestured to the couch.

"Scotty's sleeping."

Winona looked and saw that the CEO was indeed asleep on the couch and looking like he hadn't slept in a while. She quietly entered as Nyota shut the door behind her and looked around her. The apartment was as she remembered but there were definite signs that several people had been living in it. Nyota looked apologetic, "Sorry about the mess but pretty much everyone has been staying here on and off since three days ago."

"It's alright Nyota; everyone has had more important things to worry about."

Winona noticed how tired the younger women looked, "How are you holding up?"

Nyota rubbed her eyes tiredly, "Ok, Leonard says that it's just a matter of waiting for Jim to get better unless something drastic happens. I'm currently really worried about Pavel, did Leonard say mention anything about it to you?"

Winona nodded sadly, "He did, I take it he hasn't been any better."

"No, I've tried everything as has everyone else but we can't get him to even leave his room. I don't know what to do, I can't get him to eat or even just talk to me."

Winona placed a comforting hand on her shoulder, "You're doing everything you can and who knows, maybe as Jim gets better Pavel will to."

Nyota smiled gratefully, "Thank you, here I am pouring my worries on you when Jim is your son and is in hospital."

"Jim is in good hands with Leonard and as Pavel is his surrogate son that makes him my surrogate grandson so he's partly my responsibility to."

Nyota nodded before speaking again, "I've been using Leonard's room so I hope you don't mind using Jim's, it's all set up for you and everything. Hikaru will come back some point tonight; he's been helping in the city where the ship crashed so don't be surprised if you hear him come in late."

"Thank you Nyota."

"Do you need help with anything?"

"Its ok, I can manage."

Nyota nodded before making her way to the kitchen table and starting something on her PADD. Winona made her way to where she knew her son's room was and passed Pavel's which was next to it. She paused outside and listened and heard muffled noises inside, she thought about knocking but decided against it and moved on. As she entered her son's room she noticed how sparse it was, it seemed that like his father Jim was more at home on a starship so he left very few personal belongings on Earth. Her mind then turned to Pavel, out of Jim's crew he was the one she had most contact with closely followed by Leonard and was worried like everyone else by his behaviour. As she unpacked what little she had with her she decided to help him anyway she could. Jim's recovery was in the hands of medicine, the least she could do was take care of his son in his absence.

PS-I hope you enjoyed this and I should update this or 'Unofficial Rules' soon. Please let me know what you thought.