More
than words
to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say
if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
Didn't
he saw the hurt in her eyes? What did those word mean? He loved her like a
sister, like a daughter, like a woman…? She went to the temple to serve Aoshi's
evening tea. Her hands were trembling, so was the tray, she had to show him,
that she still cared, that she still loved him. It didn't make a difference
when he say it, he was still the same. Misao was walking towards the temple,
her shaky hands making some of the tea fall. Now, by the noise she was making,
it was sure that he had noticed her.
His
eyes still closed, and when he sensed Misao, when she got out of the building,
his back tensed. He didn't need this, he avoided her because he didn't even
know why he said that. He didn't even feel that, did he? He was so damn
confused, her presence was stabbing his air, he heard when she left the tray
beside him. He stiffed even more, trying to focus on his meditation. Misao
gulped noticing Aoshi's indifference, she grabbed her hands cupping them in
front of her chest, gripping them tightly, she opened her mouth, trying to say
something, but no sound or word got out from her mouth. She gave up making her
arms fall down her sides heavily. She lowered her head, but then there was a
trembling on her shoulders, she clenched her fists. Without lifting her head,
she said seriously.
"I…I…love
you…" she said, holding her tears back. Aoshi opened one eye, he was shocked,
but he could still held composure. He looked at her from the corner of his eye.
"I don't…I don't love you…like a brother or a…a…father…I'm…I'm…" she was
trembling now, little blood droplets were falling down from her grip. Aoshi cut
her speech, again with emotionless voice. "Do you want anything more, Misao?
Can't you see I'm meditating?" that struck her hard, very hard. She still held
composure, her hands trembling furiously. Her pulse was high, and now she was
panting, her head shaking miserably. She finally said with a shaky voice;
"No,
no Aoshi-sama, I won't bother you anymore, no more…you'll…you soon won't notice
my disturbing presence, I'm so sorry for everything, and thank you…for keeping
my father's oath" with that her trembling figure walked through the door. It
started to rain, a rainstorm, thunders crashing against the earth. Misao
couldn't feel any droplet, now she couldn't feel anything but sadness,
rejection…
Now I've tried to
talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do
is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands
and touch me
Hold me close
don't ever let me go
What the heck was he thinking
about? She was declaring her pure love to him, and what did he do? Change the
subject and break her heart…as always…Why was he doing that? Her meditating
figure broke, his hands on his face.
What have I done? What have I
done? Why does she love me? How could she love someone like me? After treating
her like that, she deserves much better. What have I done? His hands digging on
the depths of his hair. His eyes tightly closed, breathing heavily. Do I really
love her? Did I really mean it? Those words…?? I don't know…I just…don't want…to
lose her. He stood up, his head still hanging down, he saw the rainstorm, he
didn't care. He walked through the merciless rain. Searching her…he found her,
sitting miserably below a tree. Did I do that? Of course you did moron! What
were you expecting, a happy child, before all the things you have done??!! Aoshi
sighed as he approached to her trembling body.
"Misao…" His voice deep, and a
little bit hurt. Misao slowly lifted up her head, with scary eyes. Gosh! He hated
to look her like that, she was afraid of
him. He sat beside her, Misao moved to avoid contact, Aoshi gulped, he up drawn
a knee where he rested a hand, the other one over his leg. "I´m…sorry…I didn't mean
it…" he murmured, Misao's were burning on fire.
"You always didn't, but that's
what you say, but it isn't what you mean. I get your point Aoshi-sama, I won't bother
for your sake and for mine itself." She said rubbing her eyes angrily. Aoshi got
shocked. Misao stood up, and Aoshi grabbed her obi. Misao went blank, he pulled
her down, but his expression was faraway.
'Please Kami-sama! Not again!´
she thought as he scared the hell out of her. She was close to him, but not too
close. He reached out his hand, and began caressing Misao's hand, who jolted way
from him. She looked at him, he hid his face on those black bangs. He lowered more
his head, Misao gulped and approached to him, she hold his limb hand and encircled
it on hers. Aoshi was now the one who jumped at her touch. Misao giggled at this.
Aoshi frowned and looked aside. Misao smiled tenderly. Aoshi eyed her, behind his
black bangs, he relaxed just looking at her bright smile. For her it was so simple
to smile, to laugh…to love…yes…he loves her, immensely. And he couldn't…
"Let those guys hurt you…I couldn't
handle being without you" she finished. Was she talking? He only realized about
the last words, the ones there were on his mind.
More than words
is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say
that you love me
Cos I'd already know
"I know, and…I'm sorry…I just…don't…can't…live…"
he murmured but nothing concrete got out from his mouth. Misao smiled even more.
"Yes…you told me, I guess…you…l-o-v-e…me
like a child, like your imouto…" she said fading that beautiful smile. Aoshi looked
at his gloved hand, little drops falling from it. Then he looked at her, fright
on his eyes. She bit her bottom lip, her eyes looking down.
'can't…I can't!! I'm blank, what
should I say, I don't love her as a child neither as a younger sis. I lover her
as the woman she is…but…how can I say that? I can't my tongue, my voice, everything
it's paralyzed.
What would you do
if my
heart was torn in two
More
than words
to show
you feel
That
your love for me is real
What
would you say
if I
took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by
saying I love you
"I….ii…iie…" he approached carefully whispering
it to her ear. She trembled at his warm breath. No? what did he mean with no? Misao
panicked again she moved away but Aoshi put his arm around her, getting her close
to him, now she was scared. "Who are you?" she said trembling, this was NOT her
Aoshi-sama. Aoshi wanted to laugh, really
hard, but then he approached more, to show her, his love for her was real…not a
child…not a sister…just Misao…Misao almost faint when he kissed her parted lips,
caressing them slowly, sucking the drops that there were on it. Misao began caressing
his cheek with light fingers, as he embraced her more, and tangling her hair on
his fingers. Misao broke the kiss gasping some air, Aoshi was becoming closer but
Misao placed her hand on his lips. "Don't cheat me, who are you? You're not Aoshi-sama!!"
she growled. Aoshi half smiled and Misao frightened again.
"I couldn't say what… I really feel…I don't
know how…so…I proved that…I do…" he said loosening his grip. Misao hummed;
"I guess you don't kiss like that your sister
or daughter, do you?" she said placing her hands on his chest. He embraced her again,
resting his forehead on hers, she giggled softly.
"Aa…" he said simply. Now that was the Aoshi
she knows. She stealed a feathery kiss from his lips, now her head on the hollow
of his shoulder. He took her legs and carried her, at first she hanged tightly,
then she relaxed. Aoshi was taking her home…in his arms…
"I rather this, more than words…" she whispered
softly. A secret smile formed on his lips.
THE
END
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