Life is hard without those bumps in the road. Let alone having them. On top of that feeling all alone. People try to help like me mom and brother but I just don't think they understand the only people that do I feel are fake they are from Television shows. I feel my life is nothing. I'm like that leaf in the fall that is brown while all the others are orange red yellow. I know we all die in this world but I feel I want to leave something behind rather it's a book or a letter. It does not matter I guess. All that really matters is… I don't even no what matters. I don't know why I'm on this earth anyways. 1) I'm ugly (so don't say LOVE) gosh I HATE that word it bring tears to my eyes. I feel like I'm burning in a hole and I called peoples names but no one comes. 2) everyone hates me… really everyone…..even my mom does…*cries*... Right before I wrote this me and her got in a fight over a private school she wants to send me to called 'girls academy'. she got me pissed saying 'your going and there's nothing you can do about it' so I'm running away. Well bye-bye for now I need to go.

3 from the one and only …

3 Mika : new moon 3

I close my book and put the pen in my pen bin. I run to my bed jump on it face down and scream. I HATE moving schools, sometimes I think she does this just to make me mad. I grab my I pod touch and grab my leather jacket. I put my leather jacket over my orange shirt that says 'don't HATE me cause I'm better than you in everyway' with a wink smiley on it. I grab all my money from my desk and shove it in my bag. I start to climb out my window but than I remember my books and I grab them. One is for drawings and the other for writing about my sad life. I rip a piece of my paper out and hurry and write a letter to my mom. I made sure I put sorry like 500 times. I slip out the window and go to grab my phone to call my best friend 'Ryuu' he did not answer so I sent him a text saying:

Mika: get over here now and help!

Ryuu: I can't I got to pack I'll be there in 10 mins chill

Mika: that's easy for you to say cuz you got a car! I have to freeze my toes off!

Ryuu: I'm in my car hold on

Mika: did you grab my packed suit case from your house from last night!

Ryuu: yes don't worry I got the extra money the car…. Food…water….pop…and that's it.

Mika: sounds good. See ya ;)

Ryuu: I see you XD

Mika: shut up

He pulled up in front off me and opened the passenger side door I got in and he drove away. We sat there in silence and it felt good to know that me and Ryuu are going to the same school and both of are parents don't know. He broke the silence by saying "are you okay I mean you look cold there is a blanket in the back if you need it… we are not going to be there by tonight so get some sleep okay" he said with worry in his voice so I grabbed the blanket and nodded it was warm and furry. I remember saying "goodnight Ryuu" and that is all before I closed my eyes and drifted in a warm black atmosphere.