We were both lying in her bed, I had my arms wrapped around her and my face nuzzled the back of her neck. She gave a weak sigh and tired to turn toward me, but her body was stiff and her bones were brittle. I helped her maneuver so she was facing me, our foreheads touching. "I love you," she whispered as a stray tear trickled down the side of her face that was now grayish and withering, not with age but with sickness. How could this happen to her? Why did it have to be so soon? I thought I would at least have a full human life with her, but I would have convinced her eventually to let me turn her. I was out of time now. The cancer came on so suddenly and there was nothing more the doctors could do. I thought of the first time I saw her at Fangtasia in her virginal white dress with red flowers, I remember I associated them to blood stains. I knew she was different the moment I saw her.
Even as I watched her with Compton and Quinn, I knew how much she meant to me. I tried to stay impartial, I tried to stay away. She clouded my judgment and compromised my position as Sheriff of Area 5. I tried and I failed. I was failing her now, and there was nothing I could do to ease her pain. She would not permit me to change her. There would be nothing left to live for. After a thousand years enough was enough, I will happily join my maker the moment she leaves this earth.
She looked at me, water starting to pool in her eyes. My own vision began to cloud with red as it did every night of her illness. I had lost a lot of blood in the past few nights I've spent with her. She can hardly open her eyes anymore, and I just lie next to her and let myself feel everything I have held back my entire existence. "And I love you," I reply crimson tears running down my face, I take her feeble face in my hands, and I kiss her as lightly as possible, she smiles. How can she smile now? I don't think I will ever smile again. I hear her heart falter. I am suddenly alert. "Sookie?" It comes out like a whine. I don't know what to do. She will hate me forever if I change her, I let out a sob. She tries to wipe the crimson tears from my face, but her hand feels merely like a feather. "Don't cry for me baby, all humans die eventually," she was smiling again. How could she smile! "I don't know what I will do without you." I sob, "You are, and always will be the lighthouse shining over my dark ocean of an existence without you there will be nothing but darkness… forever." I did not plan to live that long, not by a long shot. But if she knew what I was planning she would make me promise not to, and I could never say no to her. Especially now. "But what about Pam? You'll always have Pam." She said. I didn't want to think about Pam, she would hate me too. But that was not important; she would accept my fate as I have accepted Godric's.
Sookie's eyes fluttered and she shut her eyes. "I love you, Eric, more than you will ever know. Don't be sad when I'm gone, I'll always look after you. I promise." She smiled for the last time and shut her eyes. Her heart faltered once more then nothing. My world was empty, dark, and abyss I would never escape. I sobbed pulling her close to me, "Sookie! Please don't leave me, please!" I begged sobbing into her pink nightdress. And for the first time in my existence I prayed. Whatever, whoever was out there I pleaded for help. Something, anything to bring her back to me. I gripped her closer and felt a familiar pull from inside. The dawn was coming. I watched the sun rise over the forest trees for the first time in centuries, it was beautiful. I felt my face burn and I just held her closer. I would not hurt for much longer. Sookie loved the sun, I thought and then I was no more.