You're next to me. I am watching you sleeping. One of these days that you feel a little bit tired. You're so handsome with the sunlight in your face. You're handsome in every possible way. Your body, your soul, your heart, your mind. You're the reason that makes me appreciate life even more. You ….. Will Traynor. You are the only thing that changed my life. You are the only thing that makes me want to get up in the morning. Your words. And the truth. The only truth!

So that's why I can't imagine my life without you my sweet man. Not without you in it. You might not know how much I love you, but I do. Our moments together, are precious. They are everything to me. And you don't know it, that I know about this bloody day, the day that you plan to do this bloody thing in that bloody place. In Switzerland. I wish I could only take your pain away. But I can't. Not the physical pain. But I can take the pain inside you. I can make you happy. And that's because I love you Will. And I love you no matter what and I don't care about this bloody wheelchair. This bloody wheelchair that made you bitter.

But you are not bitter anymore. You laugh, you are sweet, caring, with me. Well …. I know that you are in love with me and I thank God every day for that. Because you are a gift to me and I am afraid that I won't change your mind about Switzerland. Because you are in pain and you are tired and exhausted and it's killing me. But it's killing me more that you are willing to end your life. I love you and even if you don't know this ….. I am trying to change your mind. To save your life.

I am the only thing that makes you want to get up in the morning. That's what you said and you meant it. You are in love with me. And I am in love with you. Deeply, truly and eternally. I have to change your mind. You are the only thing, the only person that makes me happy. And you will be forever my man. My Will. I am happy just by one single look of yours. When your beautiful eyes are looking into mine.

And when I sat on your lap ….. I could stay there forever. I know that you are quite a stubborn man. Strong in your beliefs. That's why you believe you need to do this … Switzerland. But I also know this: You are strong in your feelings too. You want to have a life with me. And that's why I am asking you with my actions to stay. Stay … I know you want to stay. As I know that even if you still insist on doing what you plan to do in Switzerland, you will always love me and I will always love you. But please don't do this. We have got to be together.

I am a whole new person because of you. Well, actually, you made me understand who I really am. I am a woman that craves life, adventure and epic love. And my epic love is you. So please stay. I can't live without you because you are my other half. I am lost without you.

I see you, right now, next to me. And being here with you my Will …. That's ….

The ultimate gift.

And that's why I am begging you ….. to stay.

Stay with me!