"Pain, Love & Ohana"
Hawaii 5-0 Epi tag
a/n: yah, finally a Chin episode and quite a clever one at that...and some insight into how he's dealing with Malia's death...just hope it doesn't degenerate into a sappy pairing between him and that weakly portrayed prison nurse...anyway, although it was a good episode, I felt like it was missing something...it was just so fast paced...it started and it was over...so, I am gonna fill in the blanks...
a/n: couldn't remember the nurses name so I just pulled something off the top of my head...she's a throw away character anyway...at least I hope we never see her again...
...Hawaii 5-0...
As the copter headed towards the hospital, the team watched as Chin finally lost his battle for consciousness, each one with a jumble of thoughts and feelings fighting for dominance...
"...it was close...too close...Chin had already been beaten and stabbed by the time they had finally arrived...a few minutes later..."
"...if it hadn't been for Chin's therapist they would still be unaware of Chin's plight...and would they have even found out or would the prisoners have actually have been able to cover up the murder and dispose of Chin's body...his team none the wiser..."
"...how much more could the man take...his wife dead...and the man who killed her, and nearly killed Kono, seemed to have a plethora of people willing to exact revenge for his death at Chin's hand..."
Steve-
Steve spared another glance at his injured friend, before his eyes flickered briefly to Kono and then over to Danny.
He saw shock in Kono's eyes...her mind still not quite wrapping around the sight of her cousin bleeding out in front of her; in Danny's eyes he saw more clarity...which in Steve's mind wasn't much better...because with the clarity of the events of the last twelve hours comes the fears and what ifs...and Steve saw the unmasked worry in Danny's eyes as he looked down at Chin.
One thing Steve McGarrett did know was that it was notgoing to happen again...he had failed his friend to many times already; and it wasn't happening again, if he had to flag every last member of the Delano family...no one was getting to Chin or anyone else on his team like this again. He was of a mind to go over Chin's entire fifteen year arrest record and make sure that every one of them were securely locked up...
He couldn't help but wonder at what Chin had gone through over the past day...the gut-wrenching fear he must have felt upon realizing he was trapped inside a prison with dozens, maybe hundreds, of men he had put there, the things he probably had to do that would have gone against his nature, just to survive. Not knowing if anyone on the outside even knew of his plight...if help was even coming.
He likened Chin's experience to Iraq and Afghanistan...of being dropped behind enemy lines...knowing that to be caught, to be recognized as American, meant certain death...or worse; and he wondered what Chin's "or worse" had been this day.
He gave himself a shake, 'No, they got Chin out...he may be a little worse for wear, but they got him out...he would be alright; he had to be alright."
Danny-
It was just too much to process...Chin kidnapped, dumped in the cruel, harsh environment of a maximum security prison...with the very felons he had arrested.
He had to admit, he was never as grateful as he was today to have a highly trained Navy SEAL in his corner. Steve's determination and laser focus in the planning and execution of Chin's rescue...it was both terrifying and exhilarating: that there were hundreds of rioting and dangerous felons between him and his friend did not seem a worthy consideration to the commander, and that left Danny to truly contemplate just what exactly Steve had gone through in his time as a Navy SEAL...when the dangers of entering a rioting prison didn't register with the man.
But for Danny William's what was even worse was that they didn't know...his team didn't know that Chin was in danger. For nearly twelve hours Chin had to go it alone, without his team at his back. Only because his doctor had alerted them to Chin's missed appointment did they even begin to suspect their friend was in some kind of trouble? And that was the kicker...they didn't know, didn't know their friend's pain was so overwhelming he chose to speak to an outsider (albeit an outsider that was a doctor).
Then a new feeling washed over him...one he knew he had no right to feel, but there it was all the same...indignation. It was just like the reserved and reticent man to keep his pain to himself, not wanting his friends to see his grief and turmoil; after all they had witnessed firsthand how closely Chin guarded his personal life...his choices, with the whole convoluted debacle involving the money stolen from the forfeiture locker.
He let just a little bit of righteous anger slip into the hurt...feeling somehow insulted that the man he had worked with for almost three years, who called them ohana as well as his team, would think that they would see him as weak in his grief for his murdered wife. Danny had shown his team his trust...had made no qualms about showing then his fear and relief during Graces kidnapping...he knew Chin didn't think of him as weak...so why couldn't the man have trusted them to show them his grief...to let them offer their support?
He hoped he would get the chance to ask his friend just that. As he again looked down at his unconscious friend he could feel tears burning in his eyes, refusing to let them fall.
'God, it was close...to damn close...' and as he looked towards his unconscious and bleeding friend he had to wonder if they had made it on time. Despite Alanine's efforts, Chin's stab wound was still bleeding freely, and it was likely that the beating had given the man a concussion, not to mention the after effects of the drugs used to subdue the man to get him in the prison to begin with.
Danny knew the fear he felt going into that riot filled prison well-armed with super-SEAL at his back...Chin had been alone...trapped, and Danny couldn't help the shiver that coursed through his body at the thought.
KONO-
Her eyes never leaving her cousins face, Kono kept repeating the litany in her head, 'He's gonna be alright, we got to him in time...he's gonna be alright; he's got to be alright..."
Then her eyes would involuntarily fasten onto the growing red stain on the orange jumpsuit...she decided she really hated the colors red and orange and couldn't wait to get her cousin out of that offensive jumpsuit...
'But he's not alright, not by a longshot,' her subconscious chastised, 'he's been alone and in pain...dealing with Malia's death all on his own...and you didn't help him...didn't see it...what kind of cousin does that make you..."
The accusing thoughts went round and round in her head. How could they...how could she have not seen it...the others, Danny and Steve, it was understandable that they missed it—they didn't know Chin like she did and they respected her cousins fierce privacy. But she was different...she was family, she should have seen his pain, should have known he was having difficulties adjusting.
But she let herself believe him when he said he was fine...was coping...coping so well that it was a stranger...a therapist that had to inform her, and the team, that Chin was in trouble. And before they had discovered it was related to Delano, she had to wonder at the doctor's willingness to break her patient's confidentiality by coming to them...did the doctor think Chin was in trouble, that he was perhaps a danger to himself.
That thought sent cold chills through her body...that her cousin could be even remotely considering, in his grief, something as drastic as hurting himself; the thought terrified her.
Running a gentle hand over his sweating brow she vowed 'not anymore'; Chin would not hide his pain from her. She would not let him sink so low in his despair that he would actually act on any self-destructive thoughts. But first, first he just had to survive...
For a brief moment the team's eyes met in silent support before each again became lost in their own thoughts and worry.
Her eyes refocusing on her cousin's face, Kono again began repeating the litany in her head, 'He's gonna be alright, we got to him in time...he's gonna be alright; he's got to be alright..."
/././././ HAWAII 5-0 /././././
a/n: hope it didn't suck...wrote it in like five hours...just had to get it down before it got lost in the writer's block I'm experiencing with my other stories.