The Draw of Darkness
By Chyna Rose (chynarose8@hotmail.com)
Disclaimer: I don't own Digimon. I don't follow the show all that well, so forgive me if they seem
out of character or off cannon. I think
this just may be plausible in some way, but I'm not betting on it. I don't own the rights to 'Silent all These
Years' or 'Black Dove'. I do, however,
own a copy of the songs on cd. This is
my first fanfic involving Digimon. Send
feedback.
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Darkness.
It always comes back to darkness.
The darkness that throws me away when I wake up.
The darkness that mercifully engulfs me when I fall
asleep.
I live for the darkness.
And I wonder…
I wonder.
"Excuse
me but can I be you for a while. My dog
won't bite if you sit real still. I've got the…"
Morning.
The time I've come to dread in my deepest heart.
Yet today doesn't seem so bad.
I'm meeting my friends at the pool a while later.
For now, I have to put up with breakfast.
Another mask.
Another performance.
Another lie.
Another pancake.
"So
what are your plans for today?"
"I'm
supposed to meet my friends at the community pool. We plan to stay there most of the day. Afterwards we're going to go to Sora's house to watch some
videos. I probably won't be home till
late tonight."
"It's
good that you're making friends. But I
want you home by eleven."
Masquerade.
It's all a masquerade;
A parade of hidden faces.
We all wear too many masks.
Hiding from even ourselves.
Almost nine thirty.
And it takes about fifteen minutes to get to the pool.
I'd better get ready.
"Hi
Kari."
"Hey
Izzy."
"Who
else is here?"
"Tai,
TK, and Matt. Sora's gonna be a little
late. She had to help her mom at the
shop."
"Kari…
Oh hey, Izzy. You're here. Great! We could use another referee."
"Hey
TK. … Referee?"
"Are
Matt and my brother trying to kill each other again?"
"Afraid
so Kari. We better stop them before
someone drowns."
Water.
Drowning.
Would it be so bad?
The cool water caressing the body,
So soothing.
To just let go;
It would be so easy…
Just drifting away.
Like my gaze drifts.
An empty gaze.
Looking without seeing.
Just a wandering stair.
Meaning nothing.
Yet I see something-
Someone…
Someones.
Joe and Mimi.
Together.
"Joe,
you came. I didn't think that you'd
join us till later."
"Why
wouldn't I come? Since I had to have a
gym class, I figured that I'd learn to swim. After my track record with water, it had to be better than
drowning. Turns out I'm pretty good at
it."
"Way
to go Joe."
"You've
got to be kidding."
"Shut
up Tai."
"Really. I've even been offered a place on the swim
team if I ever want it. The coach says
I have the build for it. But if you
can't believe even that, then you probably won't believe who I found
wandering around."
"Hey
guys."
"Mimi!"
"I
just came in from America yesterday. I
was on my way to surprise you guys when Joe found me. I was worried that…"
God!
Look at them.
They can barely stop from touching each other.
Kinda like the way Tai and Matt are always doing-
But with less violence.
How can I tell them?
Any of them.
What I feel;
How I feel my heart shatter when I seem them-
Joe and Mimi;
Together.
They are my friends.
But I just can't tell them.
They wouldn't understand.
"So
what have you guys been up to lately?"
TK and I've been busy
making sure these guys don't do maim each other. I swear, they can't go five minutes
without an attack."
"I've
been thinking of asking Sora and Jun to
drag Matt and Tai to opposite ends of Obidia, just so Kari and I can take a break."
"We've
got to plan it carefully though. Matt
avoids Jun like the plague normally. And with our luck, chances are that they'll bump into each other
anyway."
"At
least I won't be the one to play peacemaker when they do."
"Thanks
a lot Kari."
"So
what about you Izzy? Izzy? Izzy?"
Darkness.
It always comes back to darkness.
It began in darkness,
It ends in darkness.
How fitting.
I only hope my friends can forgive me my trespasses.
They don't understand the darkness/
Or why it lures me into itself.
"She
was a January girl. She never let on
how insane it was. In that tiny kinda
scary house. By the woods, by the woods, by the woods."
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Author's Note: I left things ambiguous on purpose. Does Izzy have a crush on Mimi or on Joe. Do Matt and Tai love or hate each other. Did Izzy attempt suicide in the pool, or just space out for a bit. Will he try to kill himself? What is his secret? You are to draw your on conclusions based on your experiences and expectations. In other words, to paraphrase Madonna, 'You will only see what you want to see'. Feel free to tell me what you saw. Both the music and the form are deliberate. A while back I flirted with the thought/dialogue concept, and it didn't really work then but it works now. You were never meant to know everything in this piece. The music sets the tone. Both songs are by Tori Amos, and are pretty nice to listen to. The last song is there as a reader soundtrack. If you can't quite figure out the passage of time in this story, don't worry. The time through out the piece doesn't hold the same length. But the entire thing does take under twelve hours to occur. If anything else bothers you that you want to know, email me at chynarose8@hotmail.com.