Sakura at 18
A Card Captor Sakura fanfic
By Michael Hopcroft
It
was a chilly day in late March of the year 2007. As Sakura Kinomoto walked home
from school she puzzled over why she was alone today.
The
high school choir had been preparing for a concert, at which Tomoyo would be a
soloist, so she couldn't get her normal escort home. As for Syaoran, he was
being held late by some other sort of business. She wondered if he'd gotten in
trouble with somebody – it didn't happen often, but when it did, it was pretty
bad.
It
wasn't a long way home from the high school, but Sakura was tired. The day at
school had been harder than she'd expected.
She
looked around to see if anyone was looking at her. No. Nobody in sight. Worth
taking a chance. Sakura reached down around her neck and pulled out the Key.
Then she reached into her backpack and pulled put a card.
"Get
me home quickly," she said under her breath "SPEED!". She lightly touched the
card with the key and took a step.
In
an instant, she was home. After all these years, magic was still cool.
"How'd
you get home so early?" asked a curter-than-usual Touya as he got home from a
lecture. Sakura had already been there for a while and was quietly munching on
cookies. "And why are you hogging all the cookies?"
"I
burned a lot of energy today." Which was the truth, although a lot of that was
a side effect of using the card. The cards Sakura had created were not as
perfect at the ones Clow had created, but the spirits she had captured were
thankfully not as inherently troublesome as Clow's either.
"Well,
if you keep running around like a rampaging beast you will."
"ONIICHAN!"
"Anyway,
Otou-san will be home soon and you can stuff your face with real food. He's
bringing home take-out Chinese."
"Great!
Syaoran's been looking for a good restaurant to take me to! Maybe Otou-san can
tell me where he got it!"
Touya
issued a snort. "Typical brat. He's lived here five years now and still doesn't
know any restaurants. He doesn't deserve a social life."
"That's
a rotten thing to say, Oniichan. Syaoran doesn't have time to go looking for
restaurants. He has school, and clubs, and training, and the college exams to
prepare for. The only company he has time for is mine – and he MAKES time for
me." Sakura then turned bright red. "That reminds me! I have to study with the
girls tomorrow!"
"The
girls?"
"You
know – Tomoyo-chan, Chiharu-chan, Naoko-chan. The same study group that got us
all into high school together."
"Any
excuse to hang out, I suppose." Touya said. "As long as it isn't coed."
"Oh,
we help Syaoran-kun and Yamazaki-kun too, but they won't be there."
Touya
was about to make another comment at Li-kun needing more help than anyone could
give him when the door opened. Fujitaka appeared at the door, carrying a huge
bag of food. Touya's jaw dropped when he saw who was standing next to his
father.
"Yuki…."
"Konban-wa,
To-ya! We just had the most surprising coincidence. Who'd have thought that I'd
be getting take-out the same place your father was at the same time!"
Touya
noticed the huge bag of food in Yukito's arms. Time, it seems, had not dulled
the Snowbunny's appetites. "That's all yours?"
Yukito
laughed. "Silly! Some of this was for you! I was going to pick you up on the
way home."
Touya
wished Yukito had been a little more discreet with that statement, but Father's
cheerful smile indicated to him that he was the only one embarrassed. Not even
Sakura seemed to mind Yukito saying things like that anymore.
"I
figured we could all eat together," said Fujitaka, "and then you guys can go
wherever you need to. Between us we got almost everything on the menu, so let's
enjoy!"
It
only took a moment to set the table and set out all the boxes of food. There
was indeed a lot of food, and it was all delicious. Yukito and Sakura were both
eating like there was no tomorrow, leaving Touya to wonder just what Sakura had
been doing all day.
"Your
birthday's coming up, isn't it Sakura-chan?" asked Yukito between bites of kung
pao chicken.
"Hai.
In a week."
"Sakura's
turning 18. A grown-up," said Fujitaka. "It's kind of hard to imagine where all
the time went."
"I
want to have my friends over for a big party!" said Sakura. "It'll be great!"
"No."
said Touya firmly. "Absolutely not."
"TOUYA!"
complained Sakura. "How can you say that?"
"You
have the university exams to prepare for, and I have studies too. A party would
be too distracting. Besides, the only place you could have it is your room, and
that's right out!"
"It's
not your decision, Touya!"
"She's
right," said Fujitaka gently. "I sometimes think you forget that I'm her father
and not you. And you have another reason, don't you?"
"Another
reason?" said Touya, taking a sip of tea to calm himself down.
"Admit
it. If Sakura were only going to invite her girl friends, there wouldn't be a
problem, would there?"
"Well…."
"Touya,
that's mean!" said Sakura. "I think Syaoran should be able to come here if I
want him to!"
"Why?
You go to his place often enough, and Heaven only knows what you do there."
Sakura
began to crimson. "That's…. that's…."
Fujitaka
picked up a piece of beef with his chopsticks. "I think you've said enough to
make your point, Touya. I don't mind Sakura having her party here. And it isn't
that bad if Syaoran comes over."
"To-ya",
said Yukito, "I still think you should come over to my house tonight. I think
you need to decompress."
Touya
sighed. "You're probably right," he said.
"Besides,"
Yukito continued, "You need to get your share of the food. The shrimp is almost
gone."
Yukito
opened the door to his house and shrugged. "My grandparents are going to be
moving out soon.", he told Touya. "They want a smaller place in the country and
feel it's time to let go."
"Is
that so. Aren't they afraid of…."
Yukito
lightly touched his friend's nose. "To-ya, you're the only one who cares so
much about what people think. I admit it was hard to win my grandparents over
to my seeing you like this, but eventually they came around and accepted it.
And your family seems just fine with it, although that wasn't easy either."
Touya
walked into the traditionally decorated living room and took a seat. "What are
they going to do with the place?"
"They
have enough money they can afford to keep a second house. I get to keep it."
"I
can't imagine you alone in such a big house, Yuki."
"Neither
can I. To-ya, can I ask you a question?"
Touya
sat up and looked at Yukito quizzically. "I suppose."
"Why
are you still at home? You're 26 years old, in graduate school and ready to
enter the world on your own. Soon you'll be able to teach at a university
yourself. What ties you to that house?"
"I
think you know the answer, Yuki."
"You're
right, I think I do. But have you ever considered it might be the wrong
answer?"
Touya
swallowed hard – it was unlike Yukito to criticize him.
Yukito
noticed the reaction, but continued. "I know Sakura-chan will always be the
little sister to you – the one you tease and protect. I know you feel
responsible for her and always will. But part of loving your family is being
able to let them go when the time comes. And you need to let Sakura-chan go her
own way."
"What
are you suggesting – that I hand her over to that Chinese brat?"
"Exactly.
Li-san isn't a bad person, To-ya. And they've been through a lot together. She
needs him. She loves him. And that hurts you, doesn't it?"
Touya
was suddenly very uncomfortable. "Of course it hurts. Yuki, can we talk about
something else?"
"Sure.
Let's talk about us. You're right when you say it isn't right for me to be all
alone here. Is anything holding you back from joining me?"
Now
Yukito was doing something else that seemed unlike him – being extremely
forward. "You mean…" Touya stammered, "move in…. here…. With you…."
"How
about it?" Yukito said. "I'm sure I can make you very happy here. And
Sakura–chan will be fine, trust me. Her independence will be the best birthday
present you could give her."
Touya
sat in the chair a bit stunned. Yuki had surprised him on many occasions
before, from their first meeting to the time when he had first confessed
feelings that at the time seemed incomprehensible but were now clear as day.
Touya knew, however, that what Yukito was saying made perfect sense.
Before
he could do much thinking about it, though, he felt gentle hands on his
shoulders. Under their ministrations, the tensions he had accumulated over the
course of a very stressful few hours began to melt away.
"This
isn't fair." Said Touya.
"You
need this.", Yukito replied.
As
Sakura lay on her bed after dinner, she was still angry with her Oniichan. Why
couldn't he let her alone for once? But she knew that a party at her house was
impossible. For one thing, she would need help to set everything up and with
Touya uncooperative it would be difficult. For another, the place was a bit
small for the number of people she was having. She'd already made out a guest
list of sorts; the girls, Syaoran, Yamazaki, whatever boy Naoko-chan chose to
invite and – Rika.
Rika
had not gone to the same school as the rest of the girls since graduating from
Tomoeda Elementary. For a while they had been able to keep in touch, but
recently Sakura had lost track of her refined friend completely. She missed
having Rika around, and wondered what had become of her old friend.
Not
that she didn't have new friends. Sakura had made friends easily at Seijou High
School. Her brother had evidently been quite a celebrity there and all the
teachers were eager to se her do well. She was Captain of the cheerleading
squad and played some volleyball on the side, and was doing better in her
studies than she had expected.
The
biggest help, of course, was that Syaoran was also there. It had taken a
Near-Herculean effort to get them into the same high school, but it had been
successful and Syaoran was a student in good standing. His grades were
college-level and they managed to remain classmates. Ever since that day in junior
high when they had reunited at the gates of the school after three years apart,
they had been inseparable.
Not
that people hadn't tried. Sakura was well aware of the many girls who tried to
wrangle dates and favors out of Syaoran, and spent a lot of time fighting off
the advances of high school boys who didn't know her from before and assumed
that Syaoran was just a "boyfriend" to her. Sakura knew better. Still, there was many a young man in the
school who had gotten a taste of Syaoran's fists for being too insistent with
his attentions.
Of
course, even more boys were flocking around Tomoyo, who also fought off every
single one of them. Sakura could not understand why – many of those boys were
cute and smart, and seemed like good matches. She'd even been tempted to try
and set up a bind date for her friend, only to think better of it.
It
was just as she was thinking of Tomoyo that her cell phone rang. Tomoyo
continued to supply her with the latest in communications technology, because
occasionally a supernatural menace would crop up that required the attentions
of the Card Mistress. Although her activities remained mostly secret, every so
often Tomoyo would whip out a new costume or two and they would go forth on a
new adventure. Since only Tomoyo, Syaoran and Kero-chan had this number, and
Kero-chan was snoring away in her drawer, she figured it had to be Tomoyo-chan.
And she was right.
"Konban
wa", Said Tomoyo at the other end of the connection. "How are you doing,
Sakura=chan?"
"Terrible.
I'm worried about my birthday."
"Coming
of age. You must wish we could stay children forever sometimes, ne,
Sakura=chan?"
"That's
not what I mean. But I wanted to have the party here and I can't."
"Well,
if that's all you're worried about, why don't we have it at my place? There's
plenty of room here for a great party! And it's not like we're inviting the
whole school."
"Tomoyo-chan,
arigatou! You'd really do that for me?"
"So
Sakura-chan won't worry, I'll do anything. Just tell me who's coming and I'll
take care of the rest."
"Let's
see, Syaoran-kun of course, Chiharu and Yamazaki, Naoko and whoever she wants
to bring, and…. And…."
"Rika?"
"I
don't even know where Rika-chan lives anymore."
"I
can track her down, no problem, And I'm sure she'll love to come. I think that's enough, It'll be just like
the old days."
"Aren't
you going to have a date over, Tomoyo-chan?"
"I already do. See you tomorrow at school,
Sakura-chan!"
The
alarm clock woke Tomoyo from a sound sleep. She punched the button, got up, and
began to prepare for the morning, conscious of her night's sleep a little more
than usual. She had had one of those dreams again, and while the dream itself
had been a very pleasurable one the thought of it afterwards was rather
disturbing.
Tomoyo
didn't have the kind of prophetic dreams Sakura did. Her dreams were the normal
workings of her subconscious mind – and her subconscious desires. In this case,
those desires had once again involved Sakura. She had tried to avoid
consciously fantasizing about being with her best friend, but her dream self
knew no constraints in imagination or behavior.
What
was weird, at least to Tomoyo, was that she never had that kind of dream about
anyone else. Not boys or girls at school, nor teachers, not even the latest hot
sex-symbolic pop idol or movie star. It was always Sakura.
It
was the kind of dream she knew could never come true. If there was one thing
she had learned about her friend, it was that she was very, very straight. For
Sakura, it would always be boys – one boy in particular, of course, but
apparently Sakura still daydreamed about hunky guys. Tomoyo thought that
Syaoran would be quite a catch for ANY girl, and that Sakura was really lucky.
Her thoughts then turned again, to her phone conversation with Sakura the
previous night.
It
would indeed be a grand party they would have for Sakura's birthday. Tomoyo had
long been the enabler for Sakura and Syaoran, a bizarre role for someone who
should be Syaoran's rival. She had said, long ago, that Sakura's happiness was
her happiness, and she still meant it. For Tomoyo it had been a long process
coming to terms with things: that her feelings for Sakura were far deeper than
real friendship, that she would never really be interested in boys…. In school,
Tomoyo never dared use the word "lesbian" to describe herself. In truth, she
had never really had that kind of encounter with another girl. The girl she
wanted most was, and would always be, out of reach – and she knew it.
Sonomi
Daidoji was getting ready for the trip to work when Tomoyo stepped into the
kitchen. "Ohayo, daughter.", she said politely. "I'm sorry I missed you last
night. How is your project coming?"
"The
audition tape for film school? Fine. Thank you for offering to help with the
tuition."
"When
it comes to helping my daughter fulfill her dreams I'll do anything I can.
Sakura's birthday is coming up, isn't it?"
"Hai!
I told her we could use the house for her party. Didn't you tell me I could?"
"For
Sakura-chan, of course. Tomoyo-chan, I've been meaning to ask you about that.
What are your plans?"
Tomoyo
stood puzzled. "Plans? Why to have a party for Sakura and her friends, of
course. One she'll never forget."
"I
mean long-term. When are you going to let go of her and find someone else?"
"Sakura-chan
will always be my best friend!"
"That's
not what I meant. I've been through this myself, remember? You've been nursing
a broken heart for eight years. That can't be good for you. And I can't bear
the thought of you pining for her the rest of your life."
Tomoyo
shook her head. "I really am OK, mother. I know Sakura will never be mine, that
she has someone she loves who loves her. And I'm OK with it. I want Sakura to
be happy."
"And
what about yourself? Do you want to be happy?"
"I
am happy. I'm happy to see Sakura
happy. That's why I'm looking forward to this party so much. She'll be
positively glowing!"
"Because
of Li-kun, not because of you."
"Mother,
there are two ways I could have dealt with this. One was to become bitter and
reject her, the other was to help her and accept whatever happened. I chose to
take the other path, and I have no regrets. Sakura doesn't even know what I
really feel for her, and I can't will her to love me."
Sonomi
shook her head. "Then you're a wiser woman than I am, Tomoyo. I have never been
able to let go of Nadeshiko, never been able to accept that she was happy. And
I hated Kinomoto-san for taking her away from me. Nadeshiko never knew how I
loved her so much. Why should I have expected any other result?"
"Won't
you make peace with Kinomoto-san? For Sakura's sake, if nothing else?"
"I
can't…."
"You're
right, Mother. I am the wiser of us."
Lunchtime
at Seijou High was when the girls usually got together. Although they had all
managed to get in the same school together, Sakura and Tomoyo had ended up in
one track with Naoko and Chiharu in another. That didn't stop them from seeing
each other almost every day – that is when they weren't having lunch with the
various boys in their lives.
Today,
however, Syaoran was in the teacher's office for lunch. Chiharu had no idea
where Yamazaki had run off to.
"So,
Sakura-chan", said Naoko, "Tell me about your party."
Sakura
shrugged. "Ask Tomoyo-chan, she's planning it."
"Well,"
Tomoyo said, "it's going to be at my house. It's a pretty big place, and we'll
have plenty of room for all sorts of things. I'll get lots of food from a
caterer, and I'll be making a couple of chocolate cakes. There should even be
room to dance."
"What
if it runs late?" asked Chiharu.
"No problem. I've got some guest rooms set aside so anyone who needs to can stay until morning."
Sakura
sweatdropped on hearing this. Guest rooms also meant there would be spaces
where a couple could go and remain completely unobserved – assuming Tomoyo
hadn't wired the whole place for video. Now she was wondering whether the guest
of honor would be permitted to attend – she would have to leave last of all,
and if there were guest rooms Touya might well do everything in his power to
block her going. "Maybe guestrooms aren't such a good idea…" she finally
stammered out. "I mean, Oniichan might object…."
"It's
OK, Sakura-chan. You don't need a chaperone anymore – you're going to be an
adult now." Tomoyo suppressed the urge to wink knowingly, because it would make
Sakura even more nervous.
"I
think it's a lovely idea," said Naoko. "We all trust our boyfriends."
"Of
course I trust Syaoran! I know he'd never take unfair advantage of me!"
Sakura's crimson face displayed what Tomoyo could plainly see was her true
thoughts.
"Yes,
but will you take advantage of him?" insinuated Naoko slyly. "I know you must
be curious what it'll be like – unless, of course, you already know and haven't
told any of your friends."
Sakura's
face was indistinguishable from a burning coal.
"Naoko-chan!"
Chiharu scolded. "Respect their privacy, please! What they do when they're
alone is their business!"
Naoko
settled back, picked up a pickle in her chopsticks and chuckled softly to
herself. This would make all the better material for the book she would someday
write about her school days.
"Why
did you just sneeze, Li-kun?" asked the headmaster.
Syaoran
would rather not have had to eat lunch with the headmaster, but this time he
had little choice. The excuse was a planning meeting for the Spring Festival,
but he had dark suspicions about the headmaster's real motives. "Nothing.", he
said. "Just an allergy."
"So
tell me, you will get Kinomoto-san's help on this?"
"Ask
Daidouji-san. She's class leader. I have a lot of pull with Saku – with
Kinomoto-san, but I don't know what I could say that would convince her to put
on a weird costume and dance around on stage."
Class
resumed and the group returned to their classes. Syaoran took his customary
seat behind Sakura. "Darn that headmaster.", he said to her. "Why does he think
that way?"
"You
should have been with us", Sakura replied. "We were discussing something
important."
"Your
birthday?"
"Uh-huh.
We're doing something."
"We?
I thought….."
"Tomoyo-chan
is having a party."
"Oh.
Darn.", Syaoran muttered.
They
were silent for a moment as the sound of Syaoran's voice sunk in. Sakura looked
back at him with sudden concern. "Oh, Syaoran! I didn't know you wanted to do
something! I could have told Tomoyo not to do it! Gomen nasai!"
"It's
all right. Have fun with your friends."
"You're
coming too, you know!" chided Sakura. "There's no point if you don't! We're all
counting on you being there!"
"I'm
no good at parties.", Syaoran complained.
"You'll
be fine! If I know Tomoyo-chan, she'll give us plenty of time together.
Please?"
A
whack from the front of the room made Sakura turn around. She was surprised to
see their teacher with a ruler in his hand, looking very unhappy.
"Kinomoto-san! Li-san! The whole class is watching you!"
They
looked around to see that they did indeed have the undivided attention of the
entire class.
"Obviously,"
the teacher said, "You have something important to work out. So go stand in the
hall!"
Sakura
and Syaoran got up, picked up their buckets, and stepped outside.
'I'm
sorry I got you into this.", Sakura said as they stood in the hall.
"No,
it's my fault for raising my voice."
"Should
I tell Tomoyo to cancel the party, Syaoran-kun? I will if you want me to."
Syaoran
stood dumbfounded. "You'd do that?"
"Of
course. I'd rather spend my birthday with you than anywhere else on Earth."
"Then
I'll go to your party. But promise me you'll see a movie with me the next
night?"
"Of
course. I'll go wherever you want me to. Arigato, Syaoran-kun."
"For you, Sakura."
"Are
you sure this is such a good idea?" asked Sakura as she and Tomoyo approached the
shopping district. Much as she loved shopping, Sakura for some reason felt a
bit nervous about doing it right after school.
"It's
OK, Sakura-chan. We have plenty of time. It's not as I we're going to places
they don't let high school students into."
Sakura
wondered for a moment just what those places would be like, but let the thought
pass as they approached a shop. "Is this the place?" she said, pointing at a
shop window where a long dress was hanging on a form in the window.
"Hai!
This is where my mother likes to buy me party dresses. It's her way to try and
convince me to go to parties."
"I don't know, this place looks awful expensive. My family isn't poor, but I'm not sure we can afford this kind of…."
"MY
family, on the other hand, has money galore. And mother buys things for me here
all the time. I know she won't mind an item on her bill for you."
Sakura
stammered at the thought of Tomoyo spending this much money. This would be
almost as bad as Tomoyo making the party dress herself. No, worse. Now in
addition to being embarrassed by wearing something much too fancy for her,
she'd have to deal with the guilt of not liking a dress Tomoyo had spent the
equivalent of three month's allowance on. "I. . . I don't think we could do this, Tomoyo-chan. I can wear something
that's…."
Tomoyo
pouted. The pout did not look good on her. "Sakura-chan! It's your birthday! A
big night! Besides, you can wear it to the senior formal too! You need to look
nice."
Sakura
thought about raising another objection, but the sad look on Tomoyo's face made
her think better of it. For some reason she couldn't identify, she had never
figured out how to say no to Tomoyo, especially when she was persistent like
this. With a hand tugging her by the arm, Sakura entered the shop.
Inside
the shop was a surprisingly small selection of dresses. "These are the style
models." Tomoyo explained. "The dress you'll be getting will be custom-made to
your measurements."
"You
mean some guy is going to measure me?"
"It's
a woman, silly! I'll get her now." Tomoyo walked over to the counter and rang
the bell. "Itsukake-san! It's me!"
A
middle-aged woman peeked out from the back of the shop. "Oh, Daidoji-san!
Welcome! Sorry I wasn't out there. I was busy sewing. How can I help you
today."
"This
is the girl I was telling you about. I wanted you to make a dress for her."
"You're
not doing it yourself?" The woman walked over to Sakura and began looking her
up and down. "So you're Sakura-chan? Daidouji-san told me so much about you.
What were you looking for?"
"Tomoyo-san
says I need a party dress. I'm not sure about…."
"I
know just what you need then!" The woman went over to a rack and pulled out a
long, red dress with a surprisingly low cut. "This is perfect. Your young man
will be amazed. Syaoran, was it?"
"Hoeee…."
The
fitting had not taken all that long, but Sakura had been rather uncomfortable
throughout. Being fitted by Tomoyo, she realized, was not nearly as bad as
being fitted by a total stranger, especially a chatty stranger who was
constantly trying to draw her into conversation.
"His
jaw will drop clear to the floor when he sees this! Don't you think so,
Sakura-chan?"
Sakura
started to ponder just how Syaoran would react to this dress. Sakura had never
really dressed to make an impression on him; she hadn't felt the need to and
Syaoran had never asked her to. On reflection, it seemed a little odd. Chiharu
liked to talk sometimes about how she dressed up for dates, and while Sakura
had always dressed nicely when she went out with Syaoran she'd never dressed
like this. What would he think? What would he DO?
What
did she want him to do?
The more she thought about Tomoyo's party,
the more it smelled like a setup.
The
fitting was finally over. Tomoyo agreed to pick up the dress and made the down
payment. She smiled at Sakura, but could tell something was wrong. So she
immediately declared they were getting ice cream.
"Cheer
up, Sakura! The dress will be lovely."
"That's not what I'm
worried about. I just don't know if it's me. And what if Syaoran think I'm
trying to –" she stopped, shocked at what she almost said. "I'm sorry", she
blurted out. "I didn't mean it that way."
"It's
all right, Sakura. You're just afraid of being too forward with Li-kun, aren't
you?"
Sakura
nodded.
"You
dream about it, don't you? Being with him that way, I mean. It's OK, you can
tell me."
"That
way? Yes, I suppose I do. I spend a lot of time with Syaoran, we see each other
a lot, but…."
"Look,
it's OK. If you two want to, it's fine. Nobody's telling you to wait until you
get married or something. Unless you family is saying anything…."
"Oniichan
would mind. He'd try to kill Syaoran if he found out we did something like
that."
"Then
he's being a bit of a hypocrite, isn't he? Don't pay any attention to him.
Listen to yourself – that's all the guidance you need. Ah, here we are. I love
Bobson's. What's your favorite flavor?"
"Mint
chocolate chip. If Syaoran were here he's want the double chocolate fudge. I'll
get a scoop of that in his honor."
"You
know, if Li-kun had been listening to us he'd be glowing a fiery red right now
– if he hadn't fainted."
The
next day, Tomoyo had done quite a bit of searching trying to track down Rika.
Nobody at the school had known where she had gone to school. Her parents didn't
answer her query. Finally, she made a desperation move and checked their old
elementary school. There she got a most surprising answer.
Which
brought her to the door of a little house in Tomoeda. She rang the bell, not
quite knowing what to expect. "Hai!" came a voice from inside that Tomoyo
almost recognized. Footsteps approached and Tomoyo wondered what she would do
once the person answered the door.
A
young woman answered the door. The figure was a bit fuller than she expected
and Tomoyo could detect an early bulge in the woman's belly, but the face and
smile were unmistakable. It was Rika.
"Tomoyo-chan!"
said Rika. "It's been so long! Come in! Come in!"
"Rika-chan?
I don't believe it!" Rika took her by the arm and led her to the living room,
where there was already tea waiting. "I can't believe you're married."
"Didn't
my parents tell you?"
"Your
parents didn't tell me anything."
"They
must be in one of their disapproving phases again. They expected me to go to
college and do all that, but I just couldn't wait any longer."
"When
did you get married to…."?
"Terada?
Last year. I wanted to have a formal wedding but we couldn't pay for it. We got
married at the registrar and settled down here. I've been out of touch ever
since. I sort of feel bad about that."
"You
must have been wrapped up in things. So, is it working?"
"Splendidly.
He's a wonderful husband, and he'll make a wonderful father, He's working hard
to get ready."
"Why
did you marry him? And why so soon? He was our fourth grade teacher, after all.
Did you meet him again after all that time?"
"Not
exactly. It's a long story, but ever since we met the first time there's been a
strong connection between us – I'd call it a spiritual thing. We're like a pair
of joined souls who need each other to be whole. Everything else is the details.
I waited until I was old enough to marry, but I knew all along that he was the
one."
Tomoyo
sipped her tea, reminded of her own unrequited love.
"So,
how is the old gang?" asked Rika. "How is Sakura doing?"
"That's
why I'm here. Sakura is having a birthday party this week at my house. Did you
want to come?"
"I
wish I could. But I'm at an awkward stage of my pregnancy right now. If I leave
the house, I throw up. Papa-chan has to do everything for me.. Sakura needs to
know how I'm doing though. I'll send her a gift. I hope this isn't a downer for
you."
"Not
at all, Rika-chan. I'm glad you're happy."
"I
am happy. And looking forward to being a mother. Wish them all luck for me."
Sakura
took off her shoes at the door and slipped on her house slippers. She had just
gotten home from school and was still in her Seijou uniform, even hungrier than
usual. She hoped it wasn't her turn to cook, or nobody else in the family would
get any food.
She
took a look at the well-worn chore bored and was relieved that she had dishes
duty tonight. Touya was scheduled to cook, so she looked into the kitchen.
Touya
wasn't there.
She
looked at the board again. No engagements. He should be there. Sakura wondered
what was going on. That's when she heard the voices coming from the den. She
crept up and put an ear to the door.
"I
hope you realize just what you're asking me." she heard her father say.
"I
know" was Touya's muted response.
"This
isn't America. You two are going to go through some very hard times if you do
this. You may not get that University job you wanted."
"That's
stupid!"
"I
know it's stupid, but those are the facts. Your reputation will plummet once
you commit to this. I'm not saying I disapprove – I don't. I think that for you
personally it's the best move you can make. But I want you to be aware of the
consequences."
"And
what will Saku –"
"This
isn't about Sakura. This is about you. If you're worried about what Sakura will
think, ask her."
Sakura
decided she didn't want to eavesdrop on any more of this conversation. She
moved away from the door and quietly climbed the stairs to her room.
Kero-chan
was there, of course. He did not have full run of the house, and usually stayed
in Sakura's room sleeping or playing on the Playstation 3 while she was at
school. Just as she walked in the character in the game he was playing had died
a particularly nasty death. She hardly ever used the Playstation herself –
Kero-chan was the real fanatic.
"Curses!"
he said. "I can never get past that boss!"
"I
see you're enjoying yourself." replied Sakura blandly.
Kero-chan
looked at her. "Sakura-chan, what's wrong? You look glum."
"It's
Oniichan. He's about to do something."
"What?"
"I
don't know. Move out, maybe."
"Great!
That means I won't have to pretend to be a stuffed animal as often!"
"KERO-CHAN!"
"Gomen,
gomen." Kero gave her a curious look. "You really are worried about him, aren't
you?"
"I don't know why.
He teases me, he calls me a kaijuu even after all these years, and he keeps
threatening to do bad things to Syaoran. I shouldn't even miss him when he
goes. But…."
"But
he's your brother and you love him in spite of everything."
"Kero?"
Suddenly
there was a knock on the door. Kero flew to the bed and went into toy mode.
"Hai, hai!" said Sakura as she went over and opened the door. Sure enough,
Touya was standing there with a drawn look on his face. "Oniichan?" she said.
"Is something wrong."
"Otousan
said we needed to talk. Sit down."
"But…
what do we need to…."
"Sit."
Sakura
reluctantly sat down on her bed. Touya took a seat at Sakura's desk and turned
the chair towards his sister.
"How
much of my business do you know?", Touya asked.
Sakura
thought back to listening in on the conversation downstairs and gulped.
Touya
smiled. "You don't need to answer that. I've tried to keep some secrets from
you. I probably couldn't, but I tried. I came to tell you about my secret."
"Your
secret?"
"Yukito
and I – we're not just friends. Did you know?"
Sakura
paused for a moment, thinking about what to say. How could she avoid hurting
his feelings? Still, she did know. Anything else would be a lie.
"Yes,
Oniichan. Yes I know. I figured it out years ago. I just didn't say anything."
Touya
had a sad expression on his face as he continued. "Yuki – Yukito and I have
been seeing each other for eight years now. I'd have been very surprised if
you'd said you didn't know."
"Yukito
told me as much when I confessed my own feelings to him seven years ago."
Touya
raised an eyebrow. "Your feelings?"
"I
had a massive crush on Yukito for the longest time. That was before I realized
I was really in love with Syaoran. I finally got up the nerve to tell Yukito
how I felt and he told me I wasn't the one he loved best. You were. Even then."
"Kaijuu."
Sakura heard the word she hated so much, but she could detect a tone of
affection to it this time.
Sakura
spoke up. "You're an adult now, Oniichan. If you two love each other, why
aren't you together?"
"You
mean living together in one house?"
"Yes,
that's right. Why are you still here if that's how you feel?"
"Yuki
asked me the same question. The truth of the matter is I worry. I worry about
the future. And I worry about what will happen to you if –"
"Don't
worry about me, Oniichan! Please! I can take care of myself now. And if I need
protection there's father and there's Syaoran. I know you don't like him, but
he's the one –I- love best."
"Are
you saying you – you don't need me?"
"You'll
always be my Oniichan, and I'll always need you. But I've got to get a chance
to grow up, and you deserve a chance to be happy. You and Yukito deserve that
much."
"And
you don't mind that your brother is… is…"
"Homosexual?
No. I admit it took some getting used to, but I've accepted it. It won't change
what I think of you."
"It
will change what the world thinks of me. I'm worried about that."
"The
world will always find something to disapprove of. Oniichan, you're stronger
than they are. You don't have to lie to
yourself or anyone else. And yes, I really believe that."
Touya
sat silently. He had not expected this level of maturity, this level of
tolerance from Sakura. He had expected her to be naïve, to need to have
everything explained, to cling to the old ideas of him.
"Maybe
you really have grown up, Sakura.", he said.
"Well,
don't just sit there moping!" Sakura said. "Doesn't someone want to hear your
decision?"
"Someone?"
"Look,
I'll even help you pack up if you like. Go to him! If it were me I wouldn't
hesitate. Go! Call him already!"
"Hai
hai. Arigatou, Sakura-chan."
"Arigatou,
Oniichan."
Sakura
went with him to the phone, and then walked away as he made the call.
The
phone rang at Yukito's house and was picked up right away. "Moshi moshi?" asked
Yukito.
"Yuki?"
asked Touya. "Are you ready for my decision?"
"Decision?
On coming to me here?"
"All
right, Snowbunny, I'll do it."
"You
talked to your father? To Sakura?"
"They
both want me to. And I want to."
"I'll
make sure you never regret this, To-ya. Everything is ready when you are. Thank you. Thank you very much."
"I
– I love you."
"I
know. It was so hard for you to say that the first time. Did they hear you?"
"I
don't care."
"Progress,
To-ya. Progress."
"Because
Sakura believes in me."
For
Chiharu and Takashi, it was an annual ritual by now. They didn't have to give
Sakura a big present, but they always felt they had to get her something.
"You
know the legend about the Princess's birthday?" Takashi said.
"Yes,"
said Chiharu. "I know all about it. And you don't need to go telling anyone
else."
"Why
not? It's a great story!"
"We
need to get something for Sakura. I pick it out and you help pay for it. That's
the deal."
"AH
yes, barter. The ancient arrangement of exchange of goods and services. Even
kings and queens used to barter their crowns in exchange for armies and
navies…"
Chiharu
shrugged her shoulders and lightly grabbed his shoulder. "Hai, hai. Just get in
the store."
The
store in question was Twin Bells. It had first opened in the Tomoeda
neighborhood seven years before when Chiharu was still in elementary school,
and even though she had grown up a lot since then it remained a favorite.
Little girls were hanging out there constantly, of course, but some of the
older girls frequented it as well. A teenage girl in another school's uniform
was carrying a bag on the way out. Takashi stared at her a little too long as
she passed, and received an elbow for his trouble.
The
lady who ran the store greeted them by name. "So, Chiharu-san," she said, "what
brings you here today?
"Present.
Kinomoto-san's birthday.
"I
owe a lot to Kinomoto-san. Maybe I can help you select something."
Chiharu
and the owner spent the next fifteen minutes looking through suitable items.
Takashi just watched. He would never understand this business of presents for
friends. For him to be able to choose a present, it would have to be for
someone really special. For some reason, the only one he could buy for was
Chiharu.
It
was obvious why. Chiharu would always make a show of complaining about his
weird selections, like the space penguin dolls he kept buying her. Or that she would eat the strange foreign
foods he bought – like the time he brought a foul-smelling fruit to school.
Nobody else would go anywhere near it, but she had some. She even proclaimed
the fruit delicious, but said she'd have to wash up after eating it to avoid
offending the rest of the class. He hadn't even tried the fruit, but she had
insisted he do so and indeed it was quite tasty.
Then
there were so many times…. For all the times Chiharu had hit him or scolded him
or otherwise reacted to him doing something embarrassing, he still couldn't
resist being around her. Maybe there was a reason for all of it after all. For
some reason he couldn't fathom, he just couldn't imagine himself with another
girl. Ever. And watching her negotiate through the presents was fascinating to
him now.
"Yamazaki-san!'
the store owner finally said. "We need you here."
Takashi
was snapped out of a very nice daydream and came over. It was time to pay the
piper.
"First
time in a jeweler's store?" asked the girl at the counter.
Li
Syaoran blushed a little. "Yes. I've never been in one before."
"Then
maybe I can help you out. What kind of present are you looking for?"
"It's
a birthday present, and…." Syaoran suddenly found himself unable to speak.
"Oh,"
said the salesgirl, "it's THAT kind of situation."
"What
kind of situation?"
"I
think you know. This is for the really special person in your life, isn't it?"
"Yes,
I suppose you could say that."
"A
pity such a cute guy is so shy. I bet she must be really frustrated by now."
"Frustrated?
How?"
"You
need to express your feelings to her."
"I
do. It's just that…."
"Well,
a nice gift will do wonders. That's why I got into this business, after my
fiancé bought me that diamond, nothing was ever the same again."
Syaoran
had to think for a moment. A stranger being so forward was very un-Japanese,
but she may have been right, Syaoran had bought Sakura gifts before – clothes,
food, books, tapes, and video games. He took her to movies, took her out to
dinner and saw her a lot. But he had never bought her jewelry before. Maybe it
was because that seemed like such a big step. Was he ready?
Maybe
he was.
Touya
was working on the last box when the knock came on the door.
"I'm
busy, kaijuu." He said.
"I
promised I'd help pack, and now you won't let me. You're so mean, Oniichan."
Touya
reluctantly opened the door. Sakura was standing with what looked like a teddy
bear under her arm. But it wasn't the bear she always called Syaoran-kun after
that brat. It looked different.
"Come
on in, then." He said. "If you want to help, close up those boxes."
Sakura
made short work of the boxes and helped Touya finish packing the rest of his
books. Then she helped him fold and packs his clothes in suitcases. "Otousan is
on his way to pick up the van." She said. "He'll be back in a little while. All
the other arrangements made?"
"As
if it were your business. But yes. Yuki's going to meet Otousan and I at the
house and he'll help get everything moved in."
"What
about the furniture?"
"It
stays. I won't need it in the house; there are already enough desks, chairs,
and…" Touya's voice trailed off.
"Beds?"
finished Sakura.
"Shut
up."
Sakura
hmmphed. "Oniichan, before Otousan gets here there's someone I want you to
meet."
"Meet?"
Touya was genuinely puzzled. Is that why you brought in that – toy?"
"He's
not a toy."
"I
know."
Sakura
face faulted. "You – you know?"
"I've
known all along – Card Captor."
Sakura
was stunned. She had worked so hard to keep everything a secret from Touya, and
he'd known all along? How was this even possible?
"It
took a while for me to figure it out; why you were out at night all the time,
why all those strange things were happening all around you. I figured you
didn't want anyone else to find out, so I kept quiet. And no, as far as I know
Otousan doesn't know. You know what the hardest part of it all was? That I
wanted to stop you, stop the whole thing. But I knew I couldn't. Something told
me that what you were doing was too important."
"Thank
you for not stopping me, Oniichan. The disaster would have been too much to
bear."
Kero
listened to all of this with interest. He'd spent so much trouble hiding,
freezing, and trying to conceal his presence from Touya, and now he learned his
efforts have been for naught.
"So,
that thing – it talks?" asked Touya.
"Yes
it does. Say something, Kero-chan."
"I
don't want to. I'm insulted." Said Kero-chan. Touya shook his head.
"Arigatou,
Kero-chan." Touya said. "Thank you for protecting this kaijuu. I only wish I
could have been there with you."
Kero-chan
suppressed a smile.
"What
will you do now?" Sakura said. "Everything is going to be all right, isn't it?"
"It'll
be fine. Between us Yuki and I will have no trouble supporting ourselves. Yuki
has a good job now, and my graduate studies are almost finished. By the end of
the year I'll be ready to teach at the university, and if they won't let me for
any reason I'll do something else. I feel kind of bad about not being able to
be a parent like Otousan, but I'm sure we'll be all right."
Sakura
reached over and hugged her brother. "In spite of everything you do to me, I'll
miss you, Oniichan."
"I'll
miss you too, imouto. Good luck with that brat."
"He's
not a brat!"
"If
he ever hurts you, I'll be there. If ANYONE ever hurts you, I'll be there for
you."
The
day was here. April 1, 2007. Sakura Kinomoto was now 18 years old.
The
day had started normally enough. Sakura had gotten up at her normal time, which
was about five minutes later than she wanted to. She'd dressed in her school
uniform and gone downstairs. It was a bit strange not having her brother around
to argue with; he'd only been gone a few days and she already missed him.
Breakfast was not the same, but she got through it with no trouble.
Since
it was her birthday, her father had decided to give her a ride to school.
Normally she walked to school, although by now she had an instruction permit
and her father was teaching her to drive. During the ride they had talked about
the day and that party she was going to; Fujitaka had been a little concerned
about Tomoyo's plans, but he had decided it was OK if she was going to stay
late.
At
school the day went normally enough for a day when she was so nervous. Those
classmates who knew it was her birthday greeted her cheerfully. Her Japanese
teacher brought her a book as a gift, as did her English teacher. "You have a
lot of potential," he homeroom teacher said. "Don't waste it."
At
lunch Tomoyo gushed over plans for the party. Sakura had gotten Syaoran to
promise to come, and he said he would have a present for her.
After
school, Tomoyo told Sakura that her bodyguards would come by the Kinomoto house
and take her to the party, and bring the dress. Sakura had sweatdropped at the
thought, but reluctantly agreed.
It
would be an – INTERESTING night….
Li
Syaoran rang the buzzer at the Daidouji residence with a lump in his throat. He
expected to hear Tomoyo's voice, but instead it was a stranger. "Daidouji
residence. Please state your business."
"I'm
Li …. Li Syaoran. I'm here for the party."
"You're
on the guest list. I'll open the gate for you. Please wait on the inside. Your
escort will be with you shortly.
Escort?
He knew the house was big, but he didn't think he'd get lost. Then he remembered how wealthy Tomoyo's
family was and how much care they took with their security. It was a good thing
he didn't carry his sword around in its enlarged form, although he did still
carry the amulet. Syaoran felt uneasy in his suit and fingered the small box in
his pocket nervously.
Soon
a woman with shades in a black suit appeared. "She took out a picture, looked
at the very nervous Syaoran, and replaced the picture in her pocket. "Li-san.
You pass. Come with me, please."
Syaoran
walked quietly behind her, trying not to attract attention to himself. He
wondered just what he was going to do once he got there. Did he have the nerve
to….
Finally
he was let into a room where he found that several others were already waiting.
Chiharu and Yamazaki were sitting together. Naoko and a boy from the B class
were sitting together in another corner of the room. And then, he was surprised
to see….
"Terada=sensei?"
Their
former elementary-school teacher bowed slightly to Syaoran. "Welcome,
Syaoran-kun. I hope it's not too strange that I'm here, but I'm here with
Rika-chan." Sure enough, Rika was sitting beside him, beaming.
"I
felt well enough to come, and Tomoyo-chan welcomed me." She said. "I couldn't
help but bring my husband along."
Syaoran
stood stunned and clutched the box in his pocket. "Husband… husband…."
Naoko
beamed at him. "Don't tell me you never noticed, Li-kun."
"But
she was a child when they met!"
"So?"
asked Chiharu. "Takashi and I met in kindergarten. I think it's great they're
happy together."
Syaoran
sighed. This was no time to disapprove of anything. He had to manage something
important. "Is this the party room?" he asked.
"No,
this is the waiting room. The big room is on the other side of that door. I'll
go let Tomoyo know you're here so she can let us in.' Naoko opened the door a
crack. "Tomoyo! Li-kun is here! Are you ready?"
"Hai!
Everybody come on it!"
The
doors opened from the inside and there, in the middle of the room stood Sakura.
She was wearing a red, floor-length dress with a surprisingly low cut covered
with lace. Long red gloves covered her forearms and red bows were in her hair.
There was a look of embarrassment on her face, but to Syaoran it was a glorious
sight.
"Beautiful."
He said, just enough over his breath for Sakura to hear. The look of
embarrassment changed to a deep red blush as she cast her eyes down. Syaoran
walked up to her and gently cupped her chin in his hand. "I mean it." He said.
"You look beautiful."
"Tonight?"
"Always."
Sakura
closed her eyes almost involuntarily, only to stop as that sixth sense kicked
in. she looked out of the corner of her eye and, sure enough, Tomoyo was taping
them.
"Do
you mind?" said Syaoran.
"Oh,
I'm sorry. Did I do something wrong?" asked a bewildered Tomoyo.
Soon
afterwards the caterers came and wheeled in the food. It was an extremely
impressive spread. Some of the dishes were Western, some Chinese, and some
traditional. Sakura wondered when she had seen so much sushi before outside a
restaurant. "I hope you're all hungry." Tomoyo said.
"You
went to so much trouble," Sakura said.
"NO
trouble at all."
"WE'RE
EATING!" said the group, and everyone dug in. There was enough variety in the buffet
that everyone could find something they liked, and the food was all prepared
very well. Syaoran was very happy to get some delicacies from home, at one
point she looked up and was surprised to see a piece of sushi hanging over his
face, attached to a pair of chopsticks which was in turn attached to Sakura's
hand.
"Here."
She said. "I don't think you've had this kind before."
Syaoran
nodded and took the piece of sushi from her chopsticks into his mouth. It was
indeed tasty. Syaoran picked up a dumpling in his chopsticks and offered it to
Sakura. She giggled and took it. Tomoyo watched them beaming.
After
dinner, the whole group sat and talked. "Ne, Tomoyo-chan. " asked Sakura. "When
you called me to host the party, you said you had a date. But I don't see
anyone. Just what did you mean."
"Sakura-chan,
I'm so happy to see you happy together that it's all the satisfaction I need."
Sakura
smiled. "I suppose you're right. Just don't wait forever, OK? There's someone
out there for you, I just know it."
Yamazaki
spoke up. "It used to be in ancient times that all girls had to be married by
the time they turned eighteen."
"Really?"
asked "Syaoran?"
"Oh,
yes. Back then all marriages were arranged, and women never chose who they
married. If their parents couldn't find a husband for them one was chosen at
random on their eighteenth birthday. They had the birthday party, the wedding
and the honeymoon on the same night."
Chiharu
had heard enough, she grabbed Yamazaki by the face and did something that
surprised him immensely. She kissed him, deeply and forcefully.
"You're
rewarding him?" asked Terada-sensei, a bit surprised.
She
looked up at her former teacher. "How else was I going to shut him up?
Tomoyo-chan, where are those rooms?"
"I'll
show you. Sakura-chan, you too."
"Me?"
"If
I'm not much mistaken, Li-kun wants to talk to you. In private."
"I
never said…" said a stunned Syaoran.
"I
know you do. Just thought I'd play Cupid one last time."
Sakura
and Syaoran both sweatdropped. But when Tomoyo led, they followed.
"I
just hope there are no cameras." Sakura said as she looked over the room. This
was a spare bedroom that she had never seen in Tomoyo's house before,
presumably used for guests.
"I
wonder what she expects from us." Said Syaoran. "I know she has some reason for
wanting us here."
"Syaoran-kun,
I didn't tell you this before. Oniichan left the house this week, for good."
"He
did?"
"He
went to live with Yukito-san."
Syaoran
smiled. "I see. So that chapter is behind us for good. We were both attracted
to Yukito's hidden power, but now we know where our hearts really lie."
"Syaoran…."
"Sakura,
I have come so close to losing you so many times. Never again. I'll never
forgive myself if I were to drive you away. But I'm worried."
'The
future? When we won't be in school anymore?"
"Yes,
We graduate this year."
"We'll
go to college together. I have an in at father's university and your grades are
good enough hat you'll pass the entrance exam. I don't want to lose you either,
Syaoran. I couldn't bear it. If something were to happen o you, and I couldn't
see you anymore, I'd be lost forever."
Syaoran
tenderly touched her face. "Sakura. Leaving you the first time was the hardest
thing I ever did – and the stupidest. I never should have done it. And I'll
never do it again. As long as we live, I want us to be together, Always,
Forever."
"I
want that too. Why is your hand in your pocket?"
Syaoran
backed away for a moment; not having realized his other hand has\d lingered
into his jacket pocket. He pulled it out and was surprised to find that cradled
inside it was the small box he had brought in. "I was sort of – afraid to give
you this. Afraid you wouldn't take it."
"Let
me see it." Said Sakura. She took the box out of his hand and opened it. Inside
was a gold ring, just her size, with a perfect little diamond mounted on the
top. Sakura looked at it and started to cry.
'Gomen!"
said Syaoran. "I didn't mean to…"
"Syaoran,
it's beautiful! I can't believe you're giving this to me. This must mean…."
"Sakura….
I know we can't do it right away. Your father would object, and I need to learn
the skills it will take to support you. But when that's done and the time
comes, will – you – ma –"
"Syaoran!
You're proposing!"
"Will
you be my bride, Sakura?"
"YES!
Yes I will!" Sakura carefully removed the glove from her hand and offered the
ring to Syaoran. He silently lipped it on her finger.
"It
fits perfectly." She said. "I can't wait to tell Tomoyo! Syaoran, I love you so
much!" Sakura stepped forward into his embrace and they exchanged a long, deep
kiss. When they finally broke it, Sakura looked up into the face of her one
love and smiled. "Let's go tell the others." She said. "If you're not too
embarrassed."
"Not
any more. The worst is over. I was terrified you'd refuse me. If you had, I'd have
died."
"Someday,
Syaoran, we will be married. I swear it."
"I
love you, Sakura. I can't imagine living without you."
"Don't
imagine bad things."
By
the time they got back to the main room most of the rest of the party were
watching a DVD that Tomoyo had provided. It was X-Men 3, released that very
day, in English with subtitles. Tomoyo looked up from the screen and saw a very
nervous-looking Sakura and Syaoran.
"That
was quick' she said. "Chiharu and Takashi must have had a lot to discuss.
They may never come out." Naoko and her boyfriend, and Rika and Terada-sensei,
eyed each other knowingly.
"Tomoyo-chan,"
said Sakura haltingly, there's something we've got to tell you.
Tomoyo
paused the disk for the announcement. Even before Sakura could speak, she saw
the ring on he finger and knew what she was going to say. Great walls of
happiness and sadness rose up in her spirit when she saw it. What she had
always wanted for her friend, what would always be denied to herself, all came
together in that moment. Then came the words themselves and Tomoyo's heart rose
and sank simultaneously.
Naoko
was astonished. Rika smiled knowingly. Tomoyo ran over to Sakura and clasped
her hands.
"Sakura-chan!"
she said. "You'll be so happy together! I just know it. Any my happiness has
been achieved!"
Sakura
didn't ask what that meant. It had been a big night, and she had determined to
accept whatever came for the rest of the night.
THE END
