I dropped to my knees, crying hysterically, I was confused.
"JAMES! HARRY!"
James was dead. Harry probably was too.
"I LOVE YOU JAMES." I sobbed "I LOVE YOU HARRY. PLEASE COME BACK, PLEASE COME BACK!" I pleaded.
"Lily...?" I heard someone say in a soft voice. No, not 'someone', HIM, but... how? It couldn't be...
I didn't look up. My mind was playing a cruel game on me, and I wasn't going to let it trick me.
I felt a hand on my shoulder.
"Lily, it's me... It's me, look!"
The voice was gentle, as if trying not to scare me. Too late, I was scared more than I thought was mentally possible. I thought it was them, those who took my husband and baby away, they were trying to torture me. I was convinced that they were, I just knew it.
"GO AWAY!" I shouted "I don't know what you want anymore just go away! Go away please! I have nothing else, YOU TOOK EVERYTHING! Just kill me! Please!" I let out another sob, a said in a quiet, scared voice "Please."
"Lily please! Look at me! It's James!"
I closed my eyes tighter.
"Tell me something only James would say, or remember."
"The day of our wedding, I asked you 'Still rather date the giant squid than me, Evans?', you called me a git, said no, that your relationship with the giant squid was going quite well actually, and then kissed me."
It was him.
I slowly opened my eyes, as soon as I had them fully open, I saw his big hazel eyes, looking right at me, they were red, obviously he'd cried too. I did the first thing that came to my mind, I threw myself at him.
He held me for some minutes, finally, he pulled away.
"Lily, we have to go." he said.
"What do you mean 'we have to go'? James where are we?" tears started forming in my eyes once again "Where's Harry?" Silence. I pushed him away and said in a more demanding voice "James, where's my son!?"
"He's okay." he said quietly, looking down "Don't worry about him. He's alright, he survived."
"That's not enough!" I snapped, and looked around, crying again "James where are we...?" I took a step closer to him.
He hesitated, then sighed and spoke.
And he said it.
And it all clicked.
"Dead."