Love Said No…

Love's light blue led me to you, through all the emptiness that had become my home. Love's lies cruel introduced me to you, and at that moment, I knew I was out of hope again…

The kid took sit in front of him; at first sight, he knew there was something wrong with him. It did not take two minutes for Yamato to notice the weird aura surrounding him, a sad and heavy one, still the he was smiling, but the smile was empty like the ones fashion models use on photographs. He shook his head; he was beginning to speculate without even letting the patient talk. He took the clipboard and looked through the files, nothing he had not read in other cases of child abuse. The kid was abandoned by it is parents, thrown in to foster care of some depraved head case that had not only abused him physical but also mentally. Yet the he was smiling, the other doctors who had taken the case before found this rather disturbing, since the kid never demonstrated any of the symptoms that come with such abuse. He was rather social, able to live alone without hurting himself or others, never also demonstrated violence, and his intelligence was pretty high able to absorbed any information at mere sight.

The kid looked around, the annoying smile still plastered on his face. The small studio office was comfortable; décor was set to minimal, neutral colors adorning the walls, wooden desk and two large bookcases behind it. Two large windows against one of the walls covered with white curtains. The view was good not amazing, but good enough. He finished his circle of observation, resting his gaze on the man in front of him, tall, brown eyes, brown hair, an average Joe in fact, yet to his eyes so attractive. He pushed the idea aside, and tried to focus his attention on the books. They were many about architecture, yet the man in front of him was a psychologist. The man suddenly looked up which caught him by surprise erasing the smile from his face.

"So Sai, My name is Doctor Yamato." –He extended his hand to kid, who after a few hesitant moments gave his. –"How is Academy going?" –Said the doctor, fixing his attention on the clipboard again.

"Ohm, it is fine." –The statement was point it out with another empty smile.

"That is good, any friends?" –The smile still bothering him.

"No. I was put on a team for the rest of the course. So I guess with time." –Sai tried to catch his eye again with no luck. –"Am I doing any progress?"

"Sai you do know that I am only taking your case because Doctor Fuhi is on pregnancy leave." –The Doctor looked up only to find the kid watching him with the curiosity of a cat, he smiled then removing his glasses. –"The fact that you have to see me it was only to make sure your therapy is not interrupted."

"I dreamed of Shin again last night…" – he said now locking his attention on the window.

"How does that make you feel?" –Said Yamato

"I do not know. Do I have to feel something?" –His eyes went to the doctor once more.

"Well, Shin was your best friend, and previously you have referred to him as almost your brother." –Yamato put the papers on his lap giving all his attention to Sai. –"Normally when people see death friends or family on his dreams, they feel sad, angry, or happy."

"Uhmm, then I feel… Curiosity. I guess."

"I see. Why do you feel curiosity?" –Said Yamato fixing his reading glasses.

"I would like to know, why is he in my dreams?" –Sai said turning his attention to the books. –"Why do you have books about buildings when you are a Psychologist?"

"Well, let's just say it one of my hobbies."

"Hobbies?" –He caught a glimpse of curiosity on the boy's dark eyes.

"Is when you do something for fun…" –Sai's head went to the side as if trying to understand the concept. –"You know, not because you have to do it, but because it pleases you."

"Like drawing?" -A smile was forming on his face at the mere sound of the word.

"Yes, on the files Doctor Fuhi says you like to draw…" –He felt as if he was getting somewhere now. –"Do you still have interest on it? How does it make you feel when you draw?"

"It helps me remember things…" –The mask was on again, which made Yamato frown. –"Things that I may forget." –He got quiet all the sudden and the smile went back to his face like a protective shield. The doctor was trying to figure out another question that would make him open up.

The phone rang, after a small conversation with the line the Doctor turned to Sai once more.

"Well Sai it seem that our time is up." –Doctor Yamato said walking towards the door. –"I have another patient waiting outside… So I'll see you next Wednesday." –Sai gave a small nod with his head in an affirmation way, getting up he walked to the door also. –"Good bye Sai, why don't you bring some of your drawings next time? I would like to see them."

"I will… Seeyah next Wednesday Doctor…" –He smiled again, but this time Yamato notice an interesting change that was not the same empty smile, there was definitely some warm on it now. He pushed the feeling away as he welcome his next patient. Sai walked out of the small office in direction of his apartment. He passed by a store and bought some goods for lunch and breakfast. He was about to walk out of there when the newspaper stand caught his attention, he got near it and took along look at a magazine about buildings. On one of the first sessions with Doctor Fuhi, he had mentioned his struggles to make friends; noticing his eagerness on the matter, she had recommended some book about relationships. He bought the magazine in order to have a new conversation topic for his next session with Doctor Yamato.

Yamato got home, and his first instinct was as always to check his answering machine. He had been reluctant to buy a cellular for personals issues, not because he was cheap as his best friend Kakashi had pointed out. He found having a mobile as an invasion of his privacy, since carrying one would mean he would have to answer it every time it rang, even during his session with patient or in his way home, and he found this just rude. In addition, he liked to escape from everyone from time to time, in order to recharge energy. His machine had four messages three of them were from Kakashi, the other one from Doctor Kurenai, also a closed friend. The messages had the same meaning they were inviting him for dinner, with the two of them and their respective couples. He looked at the clock he had two hours to get ready, he called Kurenai to confirm since he knew that calling Kakashi would result on three possibilities either his friend was in a chatty mood and would talk for hours, or he would not even answer. The third possibility was that he would get Kakashi's lover and then he would be stock to the phone endlessly until Kakashi would rescue him. After having a small chat with Kurenai about her well being, he went in to his room to get ready.

He showed up at the restaurant hoping that his friends would not be trying to set him up on a date once more. Last time it had been disastrous, not that the girl was bad or anything it was just not Yamato's type. He approached the bar and saw that two f his friends were already there.

"Asuma, Kurenai, how is the baby?" –He could not help but smile he always liked them as a couple they made it seem so easy.

"Oh, is growing…" –Her hands went to her stomach, while her husband hand surrounded her protectively. They had a lot of history those two, they had meet in the academy only to find out that their families were already close; and then they started to work together. Moreover, when she had decided to leave the force and start working as a Doctor all by herself that was when it hit him, he was not ready to let her go, so in the spirit of the moment he proposed. They were about to hit their first anniversary with a baby on their way. –"The Doctor said that maybe next week he can tell us if it is a boy or a girl."

"It will be a girl… Just wait and see" –Interrupted Asuma, taking a long sip of his drink.

"As you can see he wants a girl." –leaning back to give her husband a kiss.

"There is nothing wrong with that, girls are softer and cuter than boys." -He put a cigarette on his mouth, which gains him a disappointed look from Kurenai, he decides than not to light it. –"I am only thinking on you, as Shikumaru would say girls are less troublesome. If it is a boy he might want to be like me, and who wants that."

"I would not mind another Asuma running around." –She said smiling.

"Really?" –To Yamato that was the first time he had seen Asuma blushed. –"I still want a girl thou, just so she can look like you."

"Yeah and the fact that you bet with me on it has nothing to do with it. Right Asuma?" –Interrupted Kakashi with a smile on his eyes, his best friend had always this carefree aura around him although his job was not necessary an easy one, he always managed to look free of stress. Not far behind him was the love of his life, Iruka Umino. Kakashi was a proclaimed bachelor until he met Iruka, a private school teacher who literally knocked his socks out. He certainly did not make things easy for Kakashi, he played hard to get until Kakashi almost got tired, but in the end all, and that work had his reward. They had been together for almost two years. –"Where is your date Tenzo? Are hiding her from us?"

"I was not aware it was a couple's dinner, if I knew I would have brought my cat." –He could not hide his playful tone yet sarcastic at Kakashi's question.

"Kakashi behave." –Afford Iruka in a way to calm the waters. –"Long time no see you Yamato, how you have been?" –Yamato knew the moment he saw Iruka for the first time that he was the one for Kakashi.

"I am great Iruka thanks for asking." –Iruka regarded him with a smile and then turned his attention to the other two. He a little glimpse in Kakashi's eyes that could only mean he needed to talk.

"Iru-kun we are gonna go see if our table is ready," –Yamato saw the question form on Iruka's face but it went away as fast as I got there the first time. –"I am taking Tenzo. We would be back in a minute."

"Why are you dragging me away?"

"Because I need to talk to you and I can do it in front of Kurenai or Iruka." –He tried to cover the most he could from the others so they would not see what he was saying. –"That new kid of yours, how much do you know about him?"

"I am not discussing my patients with you, it is unethical." –He whispered trying not to get attention. –"Plus what's up to you?"

"Well he has been pushed in to my team without my consideration, so I want to know what I got." –Kakashi tried hard to make his reassuring face, which only told Yamato a completely different story. –"What you don't believe me? It is not like I am telling you to give his file; I just want your opinion about him."

"Why? –He had learned long ago to always question Kakashi's ways.

"Ok." –Kakashi looked out to find Iruka already looking for them. –"This is all I know, word is out that he is still working for that chief Danzo." –Yamato nodded with understanding, that guy had not make things easy for Kakashi. –"I trust my team with my life and they trust me theirs, I need to know if I have a spy on my team. So then I can know how to deal with it." –Kakashi then saw Iruka walking towards them. –"It is obvious that we don't have more time, can we meet for coffee tomorrow?"

"At three would be fine."

"Kakashi, we have our table already, what you guys doing?" –An upset looking Iruka interrupt them.

"Work stuff…" –Kakashi said casually throwing his arm around Iruka –"Don't be jealous my sweet dolphin. I am trying to convince Tenzo to come back to the force."

"Don't call me that in public…" –Iruka shrugged revealing a dark blush on his face. -"Why do you have to be such a perv?" –His attention turned to Yamato who for once got to know Iruka the jealous. He was smiling but his eyes told something different, it was a warning and just for a second it scared the hell out of Yamato.

His evening went without fuss as any evening with old friends goes, and as always Yamato end up paying. Kakashi had a way to always make it happened, after insisting to Asuma that he would take care of the thing, he turned to Yamato saying, "Oh darn I forgot my wallet, you would not mind paying this one, would you Tenzo?" Iruka just rolled his eyes feeling sorry for Yamato. His week went by faster than he would like it, at some point he thought of taking the weekend off only to find out it was already Monday and he had to go back to work. His lunch with Kakashi had not been any different from the others, Kakashi had just come sit, eat, had his questions answered and then left leaving him with the check, after calling him cheap. If someone was cheap was Kakashi who was always taking advantage of his position of Yamato's old pal, to make him pay.

Wednesday came and he found that kid Sai sitting in front of him again, same smile plaster on his face, but now also wearing a black eye.

"Who did that to your face?" –Asked Yamato thinking on a bunch of possible answers.

"The girl name Sakura." –Sai stated on the most casual way.

"She punched you in the face… Did she have a reason?" –Trying to make this a two-way conversation.

"Well, I read in a book that the best way to make friends was to call the nicknames…" –Yamato nodded trying to follow. –"These nicknames should reflect the person character, personality, or appearance."

"What did you ever said that she got offended?"

"I called her ugly." –Sai said looking for approval.

"Why would you do that to the girl?" –Yamato was now trying his best to understand the kid but not really getting nowhere.

"Well she is ugly…"

Authors Note: Thanks for reading.