A/N: Alright this is a story I wrote when I was uber sad. This is for a
friend who wanted me to write a romance fic, with actual romance. I don't
know how long it'll be...maybe a couple of Chapters...but anyway here we go.
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Kai walked into the darkened room. He looked around for the sign of movement. He knew there was none. It had been 3 years since Ray left. He walked towards the bed laying down, sighing heavily. He ran his fingers through his hair as he thought about Ray. Why did he leave? Why? That was the word he ran through his mind over and over again. Not that it mattered. Kai never told Ray how he felt. He was to stubborn. Even when Ray confessed he loved Kai, he didn't do anything.
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Rays PoV:
Aww man...I had to do it. Tonight. I had to tell him. Sigh But it was so hard. No. I had to do it. It was now...or never. Even though Kai wasn't at good terms with me right now after the loss we had this afternoon. It wasn't my fault! I couldn't help it...but Kai was Kai after all. How could I love someone like him? Why do I? This tormented feeling...I can't take it anymore. I need to tell him.
I walked down the hall towards Kai's room. I knew he was in there...I don't know how but I knew. I stood in front of the oak door, taking a deep breath and exhaling slowly, lifting my head and knocking on the door.
"Enter" he said, coldly. Even when he talked like that, I still couldn't help but crumble under the beauty of his voice. I slowly turned the doorknob, pushing the door open. He was sitting at a desk and, from what I could tell, was writing a letter. I wondered why Kai would be writing a letter to someone. I stood in the doorway, not sure of wither I would be aloud to step in any further. I sniffed the air. It smelled like Cinnamon...Like Kai. I swear I almost fainted then and there. The wonderful aroma that filled the air. I stopped when I noticed Kai was looking at me.
"What is Kon...what do you want?" He said quietly and harshly. I knew he was still mad. I sighed at looked at him.
"I was...was wondering if I could...talk to you." I said quietly, still standing at the doorway.
"Whatever...Well...come in," he said pointing to the chair beside him. I walked to the chair and sat down slowly, my eyes never leaving the back of his head. "So...what is it?" He said, not looking up from his paper.
"Right. Umm...Kai...I...I just came here to say that..." He looked up from his paper and turned to face me.
"Say what?"
I couldn't look at him while I said this. I moved my eyes to the lamp on the bedside table.
"Well Kon...what Is it?"
"Kai...I need to tell you something that could ruin our...'friendship' forever...and I tell you this now...if you don't feel the same way...I'm leaving for China."
"Ray...just tell me what it is"
"I love you. I love you Kai...and I mean it...I...think about you all the time. You pop into my mind every moment of every day. Kai Hiwatari...I love you." I said, with one fast breath.
Silence.
What seemed like an eternity, we both just sat there. Me looking at the ground, Kai looking at me with shocked almost angry eyes. No one said anything until...
"Get out Ray." ~**~End Flashback~**~
Why was he so harsh? Kai sat up on the bed and looked towards the chair sitting beside the desk. He recreated what happened in his mind when Ray walked into the door.
~**~Flashback~**~
Kai's PoV:
KNOCK KNOCK
Who the hell could that be? I knew who I wanted it to be. I looked at the piece of paper in front of my face as another knock on the door sounded.
"Enter" I said...was I too harsh saying that? I turned around to see him. The one I want. Ray Kon. I looked at him as our eyes met.
"What is Kon...what do you want?" I asked. God I hated being such a prick to him.
"I was...was wondering if I could...talk to you." He said quietly. His smooth luscious voice swirling in my mind. God I loved it.
"Whatever...Well...come in..." Ha! Whatever. God knows I wanted him here. I wasn't going to let Ray know that though. He crossed the room, sitting down in the chair beside me. His beautiful sent filled the air around me. The smell of pure bliss. One word. Ray. "So...what is it?"
I glanced at him. He looked nervous. I turned my attention back to the paper.
"Right. Umm...Kai...I...I just came here to say that..." he said in almost a whisper.
"Say what?" I asked. By this time, my eyes were on him. He turned to look at the lamp on my bedside table. "Well Kon...what Is it?"
"Kai...I need to tell you something that could ruin our...'friendship' forever...and I tell you this now...if you don't feel the same way...I'm leaving for China." He said quickly.
God...that hit me like a ton of bricks...but little did I know that was only the beginning. China...Why would he go there? Back to...I shuddered inside...back to Mariah? "Ray...just tell me what it is," I asked.
"I love you. I love you Kai...and I mean it...I...think about you all the time. You pop into my mind every moment of every day. Kai Hiwatari...I love you". He said, even quicker then before.
My mind shut down. I looked at him with a look of Utter disbelief. MY mind turned back on. It was screaming at me. 'TELL HIM!! TELL HIM YOU FEEL THE SAME WAY!' It told me. 'HURRY UP! YOU HEARD HIM!! HES GOING TO LEAVE IF YOU DON'T!' My heart felt like jumping right out into my hand...as if to say I should give it to Ray. That I should crush my emotional barriers and love him like I want. God...it seemed like hours before I could think of what to say. It hurt me to do so...and why I did...I don't know.
"Get out Ray," ~**~End Flashback~**~
A tear slipped out of Kai's eye as he thought about Ray. He tucked his head into his knees and covered his head with his hands as he cried silently in the darkness of his room, sobbing over the dark void that he called his life. A knock sounded at the door and he looked up at it.
"Go away" he said, wiping his eyes with his hands.
Another knock.
"I said go away"
"Please Kai...let me in" said a familiar voice...one he hadn't heard for a while.
He took the blankets and wiped his face, running over to the mirror to make sure his eyes wernt swollen. He walked over to the door, hoping it was who he thought it was. He slowly opened the door and gasped.
"Ray..."
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OoOoOoOoO...who saw that coming? . '' Yea so its corny and over used...so what? I liked it...Hehe...sorry...Please R&R! PLEASE!
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Kai walked into the darkened room. He looked around for the sign of movement. He knew there was none. It had been 3 years since Ray left. He walked towards the bed laying down, sighing heavily. He ran his fingers through his hair as he thought about Ray. Why did he leave? Why? That was the word he ran through his mind over and over again. Not that it mattered. Kai never told Ray how he felt. He was to stubborn. Even when Ray confessed he loved Kai, he didn't do anything.
~*~*~Flashback~*~*~
Rays PoV:
Aww man...I had to do it. Tonight. I had to tell him. Sigh But it was so hard. No. I had to do it. It was now...or never. Even though Kai wasn't at good terms with me right now after the loss we had this afternoon. It wasn't my fault! I couldn't help it...but Kai was Kai after all. How could I love someone like him? Why do I? This tormented feeling...I can't take it anymore. I need to tell him.
I walked down the hall towards Kai's room. I knew he was in there...I don't know how but I knew. I stood in front of the oak door, taking a deep breath and exhaling slowly, lifting my head and knocking on the door.
"Enter" he said, coldly. Even when he talked like that, I still couldn't help but crumble under the beauty of his voice. I slowly turned the doorknob, pushing the door open. He was sitting at a desk and, from what I could tell, was writing a letter. I wondered why Kai would be writing a letter to someone. I stood in the doorway, not sure of wither I would be aloud to step in any further. I sniffed the air. It smelled like Cinnamon...Like Kai. I swear I almost fainted then and there. The wonderful aroma that filled the air. I stopped when I noticed Kai was looking at me.
"What is Kon...what do you want?" He said quietly and harshly. I knew he was still mad. I sighed at looked at him.
"I was...was wondering if I could...talk to you." I said quietly, still standing at the doorway.
"Whatever...Well...come in," he said pointing to the chair beside him. I walked to the chair and sat down slowly, my eyes never leaving the back of his head. "So...what is it?" He said, not looking up from his paper.
"Right. Umm...Kai...I...I just came here to say that..." He looked up from his paper and turned to face me.
"Say what?"
I couldn't look at him while I said this. I moved my eyes to the lamp on the bedside table.
"Well Kon...what Is it?"
"Kai...I need to tell you something that could ruin our...'friendship' forever...and I tell you this now...if you don't feel the same way...I'm leaving for China."
"Ray...just tell me what it is"
"I love you. I love you Kai...and I mean it...I...think about you all the time. You pop into my mind every moment of every day. Kai Hiwatari...I love you." I said, with one fast breath.
Silence.
What seemed like an eternity, we both just sat there. Me looking at the ground, Kai looking at me with shocked almost angry eyes. No one said anything until...
"Get out Ray." ~**~End Flashback~**~
Why was he so harsh? Kai sat up on the bed and looked towards the chair sitting beside the desk. He recreated what happened in his mind when Ray walked into the door.
~**~Flashback~**~
Kai's PoV:
KNOCK KNOCK
Who the hell could that be? I knew who I wanted it to be. I looked at the piece of paper in front of my face as another knock on the door sounded.
"Enter" I said...was I too harsh saying that? I turned around to see him. The one I want. Ray Kon. I looked at him as our eyes met.
"What is Kon...what do you want?" I asked. God I hated being such a prick to him.
"I was...was wondering if I could...talk to you." He said quietly. His smooth luscious voice swirling in my mind. God I loved it.
"Whatever...Well...come in..." Ha! Whatever. God knows I wanted him here. I wasn't going to let Ray know that though. He crossed the room, sitting down in the chair beside me. His beautiful sent filled the air around me. The smell of pure bliss. One word. Ray. "So...what is it?"
I glanced at him. He looked nervous. I turned my attention back to the paper.
"Right. Umm...Kai...I...I just came here to say that..." he said in almost a whisper.
"Say what?" I asked. By this time, my eyes were on him. He turned to look at the lamp on my bedside table. "Well Kon...what Is it?"
"Kai...I need to tell you something that could ruin our...'friendship' forever...and I tell you this now...if you don't feel the same way...I'm leaving for China." He said quickly.
God...that hit me like a ton of bricks...but little did I know that was only the beginning. China...Why would he go there? Back to...I shuddered inside...back to Mariah? "Ray...just tell me what it is," I asked.
"I love you. I love you Kai...and I mean it...I...think about you all the time. You pop into my mind every moment of every day. Kai Hiwatari...I love you". He said, even quicker then before.
My mind shut down. I looked at him with a look of Utter disbelief. MY mind turned back on. It was screaming at me. 'TELL HIM!! TELL HIM YOU FEEL THE SAME WAY!' It told me. 'HURRY UP! YOU HEARD HIM!! HES GOING TO LEAVE IF YOU DON'T!' My heart felt like jumping right out into my hand...as if to say I should give it to Ray. That I should crush my emotional barriers and love him like I want. God...it seemed like hours before I could think of what to say. It hurt me to do so...and why I did...I don't know.
"Get out Ray," ~**~End Flashback~**~
A tear slipped out of Kai's eye as he thought about Ray. He tucked his head into his knees and covered his head with his hands as he cried silently in the darkness of his room, sobbing over the dark void that he called his life. A knock sounded at the door and he looked up at it.
"Go away" he said, wiping his eyes with his hands.
Another knock.
"I said go away"
"Please Kai...let me in" said a familiar voice...one he hadn't heard for a while.
He took the blankets and wiped his face, running over to the mirror to make sure his eyes wernt swollen. He walked over to the door, hoping it was who he thought it was. He slowly opened the door and gasped.
"Ray..."
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OoOoOoOoO...who saw that coming? . '' Yea so its corny and over used...so what? I liked it...Hehe...sorry...Please R&R! PLEASE!