Title: Save Me From Myself
Author: RetrospectMex
Rating: M
Summary: Edward is tired of life and just wants to let go of everything – but a certain black haired male won't let him do that.
Pairings: Roy and Edward. 3
Warnings: cutting, depression, anorexia, cussing, and more.
Authors Note: So, I did a story like this with Naruto and Sasuke – and I want to remake it with Roy and Ed! At the end of the story, I will post – in order – of what songs were posted.
I sighed when I felt the red slime pour out of my freshly made cut – I always did this before I went to bed. It helped me sleep and ease the nightmares away for a bit.
Everyone that died was because of me. My brother, Al, was no where to be seen. I was missing – and he could be dead. I can't remember anything that happened in Liore – my mind wouldn't let me. I've been to countless number of shrinks, but they can't help. No, my pain was much more than what any simple therapy can help.
I bet Roy wouldn't even look at me if he knew of what I have been doing with myself. Throwing up everything I ate, cutting myself, and my depression would drive everyone away.
I cleaned my wounds, drowning them in salt so I can feel more, wrapped them and got ready for bed. I glanced at myself while I brushed my teeth to get rid of toxins that I've thrown up.
My blond hair was dull and lifeless, the same for my eyes with some bags underneath, my skin was pale, my body was thin and it looked as if I could break with the slightest touch.
I was happy with how I looked – because that's how I felt. Horrible, disgusting, and sick.
After rinsing my mouth out, I climbed into my bed after I turned off the lights – and as soon as my head hit the pillow, I feel into a horrible nightmare and couldn't bring myself to wake up. I was born to live a nightmare...
So, uh, yeah. I defiantly plan on finishing this tomorrow – I'm just uber-ly tired right now. So, love you guys. :]
-Aurelia
[Aw-reel-e-uh]