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Mom says I'm meant for Amity, that I'm all kind, but I would beg to differ. I don't fit in. People think that I am violent and insecure, but they don't know me. It is just my born to be Dauntless kicking in. I've constantly had detention for not getting my work done, failing my tests and projects, and of course getting into arguments and or fights in class. I even got suspended once, and I almost got expelled. So I would like to ask my mother, how am I cut out for Amity? She would say, because you are my daughter.
Whatever.
But, today it is time for a change. It is the Aptitude tests. I will see exactly which faction I am cut out for: Amity the peaceful, Dauntless the brave, Abnegation the selfless, Candor the honest, or Erudite the intelligent. Obviously I wouldn't be cut out for Erudite, but that is all I'm sure of.
"So, Sadie, what faction is the Aptitude test going to point to today?" She asks. I know this is a one answer question.
"Amity." I mumble.
"Exactly, don't lose faith in that. I can't lose you honey, you stay with me." She says. Part of me understands where she is coming from, I mean I am her only child and my father is always gone.
"Mom, what if I don't want to be Amity." I know that even if it doesn't show on my aptitude test, I can still choose to stay with my mom. But, I know I should be Dauntless, and that is what I really want. Adventure everyday, and new obstacles to overcome. Not just same old peace.
"Don't you?" She asks, biting her lip.
"I don't know." I answer, truthfully. No use in keeping it from her. I can't always make her proud. Always put her before me.
"Tell me, honey. What do you want?"
"To be in Dauntless." I say.
"Dauntless? No." She answers, shaking her head in a persistent manner. "You don't want that."
"So what if I do?" I ask, "Because I do."
"No. Sadie, I don't want you to end up factionless." She says.
"I won't, mom. Besides, With Tobias Eaton and Tori in charge, it won't happen. It will be less hard to pass."
"No, it won't. You still have to jump onto a moving train."
"So? I can do it." I snap, "It will be fun, even. Exhilarating."
"Sadie, no." She scolds, "You can stay with me in Amity, and that is the end of it."
"Fine." I say, but it comes out as barely a whisper. I walk to my bedroom and close the door. Tears creep into my eyes. I thought that now that I'm sixteen, I'd have freedom to do what I want. But, I don't. I'm being forced by my own mother to stay in Amity. Which obviously, I'm not the kind of person to be Amity. I pull out yellow jeans and a red sweater to put on. The only thing that I'd miss from Amity other than my parents and home, would be my red sweater. It is comfortable and it relieves my stress. I guess I would also miss my bedroom, mainly because of the sunset orange walls, that made me feel warm and cozy. Dauntless would be dark, and dark and I never went together. But, overall I am cheating out myself. I am supposed to be in Dauntless, and that is the end of it.
My mother walks me to school today. She wants to give me support on such an important day. And, since she doesn't have to work until noon, she can come with me. We walk through the orchards until we get to the Erudite part of the city. I can see the Hub clearer from here. I heard once that the Hub used to be named the Sears Tower, but that just sounds weird to me. I could see the glass building that I went to school at, so I turned to my mom to say goodbye.
"Bye, mom. I'm going to take the bus home today. Okay?" I say. She nods and wishes me luck. I walk through the glass doors, hoping to find Bonnie, my friend. I find her by the science class, crouching down on the floor with her science book. No doubt she's going to be Erudite. They are intertwined.
"Hey, Sade." She smiles at me, letting her eyes dart from the book for just a fraction of a second.
"Hi, Bonnie." I answer, sitting down next to her quietly. "Aptitude tests today."
"Yah, I know. Are you nervous?" She asks without peeling her eyes from the book.
"Kind of. How do I know what I'm going to be in? My mom is practically forcing me to stay in Amity, but what if-" I start, but don't finish. She already knows what I'm going to say. She has heard it a million times.
What if Amity is not meant for me.
"I don't know, Sade. I think you could stay in Amity, but based on what I've seen, you are more of a Dauntless. You don't have to do what your mom says. Choose what's right for you." She says.
"I don't want to upset my mom. All she has is me and my dad, who's barely ever home!" I say.
"Oh, stop being so Abnegation, otherwise you might end up there instead." Bonnie points me a sly grin.
"I just don't know." I sigh. I'm nervous. Very nervous. What if I make a decision that I will regret the rest of my life? That would be terrible.
The first bell rings and I wave goodbye to Bonnie, and head to class. The next time I'll see her, at lunch. When the aptitude tests are. We will both see are results but not be able to tell each other. Bonnie says that I will end up telling her because, first off, I'm to rebellious to listen to anything the authorities say, and second, according to her I could be Candor.
So not true.
By the time lunch comes, my hands are clammy with sweat. My breaths are uneven and choppy. And I can feel my body shaking. Why the heck am I so dang nervous? My answer; I have no idea. I join Bonnie at the lunch table with a group of her friends. Not mine. Bonnie is really my only friend here, so I just stick with her. In order to calm the nerves, the girls start the musical clapping game, that we call "Clapping Jays". Honestly, I don't know why that's the name but I don't question it. It is what it is. Bonnie and I don't join in, for us it's a waste of precious thinking time. But, of course we are thinking about completely different things.
"Wow, Sadie, you are as pale as a ghost!" She whispers in my ear. I nod to show her that I already noticed it.
"Aren't you nervous?" I ask.
"Not really, I'm either in Erudite or Amity, and my parents and siblings are all fine if I choose Erudite." She says.
"My mom is too uptight. I'm being forced to choose Amity." I say, looking down at my red sneakers.
"Stop worrying about the choosing. The Choosing Ceremony is tomorrow, so you'll have plenty of time to think, and weigh your options." She says, then quickly adds, "I just know I'm going to miss you if we don't end up in the same faction."
"I'll miss you, too." I answer, just as the names Kelli Lopi and Bonnie Karton are called. I wish Bonnie luck as she disappears into the hallway. After about five minutes she's back. She gives me a small smile, but looks unusually uptight. Could she be divergent? From what I know, people usually become uptight with the stress of being divergent. Or maybe, Erudite or Amity were not her options. Whatever it is, it makes me become more nervous. After a few other names are called, I hear mine. The woman comes out and calls Darrel Mikedon and Sadie Dareton.
I slowly rise from my seat, my legs feeling like jelly. I walk shakily toward the hallway, stumbling over my feet. I walk into room six, where a Dauntless woman waits for. She gives me a calming smile and says, "Hi, Sadie . My name is Shauna. I need you lie here on this chair." She points to the metal chair.
I notice that Shauna is in a wheelchair. If she is in a wheelchair, how is she still in Dauntless? Wouldn't she have become factionless? She couldn't do anything that they could do in a wheelchair, yet she was still Dauntless.
"You are in a wheelchair." I say.
"Yes, I am." She nods, curtly.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean for it to sound that way." I say bowing my head, slowly.
"I know. I got shot once, so I can't walk anymore. But, the leader, Tobias Eaton is my friend. So, he let me stay anyway." She says, "I'm going to attach some electrodes to you. The simulation will then begin, and that is all I can tell you." She begins to attach wires to my forehead and forearms.
"Wait, does it hurt." I ask. She shakes her head in response and I feel myself slowly slipping from the bright room.
The simulation has begun.
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