Hello all! I've been messing around with this idea for a while and being stuck inside with nothing to do all day because of the snow has finally forced me to write it.

If you are reading my other stories, I'm sorry I still don't know when I am going to update them. I still haven't been able to get out another chapter for them.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything Twilight, SM does. I do however own a car that is currently trapped in my driveway. Damn snow.

Chapter 1

One year, three months and four days.

That's how long it's been since the Cullen's left, moving to another state. It was the middle of March when they left, promising that they would come back during the summer; well not all of them said they would come back. He said that he would come back, that being away from me for that long would hurt too much; but yet here I am over a year later and not one of them have ever came back. Sure those first few months after they left hurt but it was when summer began and I was alone that really got to me.

Charlie threatened to ship me off to Jacksonville with Renee but I just got mad and told him that I wouldn't go. I cried myself to sleep almost every night that summer, all over him. I refused to say his name at all and luckily Charlie and Jake had picked up on that along with my friends at school. Jake was what made the past year livable for me, we had grown extremely close and had, much to Charlie's delight, started dating about five months ago. Jake was like my ray of sunshine in the dark, he made me laugh when I wanted to cry and held me close when I needed to just let it all out. Before we started dating I told Jake that no matter what I would still love him, and that if they ever came back I would more than likely go back to him. I hated telling Jake that, giving him false hope, but I wouldn't lie to him. No matter how much I had been hurt the feelings I had for him, for his entire family, would always be there and there was no way that I could let them go.

Over the past few months with Jake everything felt natural, like that's how it was supposed to be for me. We were always hanging out at his dads garage in La Push where I could watch him work on a new project. That garage held a lot of memories for us, it was where Jake held me as I cried over the fact that the Cullen's were never going to come back. That garage was also where Jake asked me out and where we had shared our first kiss. That was also where Charlie had walked in on us sharing our first kiss, if that didn't make it awkward enough then Charlie looking back and forth between us and mumbling 'bout time' did. Since then Jake and I have done almost everything but have sex, we would be close but I just couldn't go through with it. I know it frustrated Jake to no end but I couldn't help it.

Tonight felt different for some reason though, for some reason I wanted to go through with it, I wanted Jake to be the one that I would share that experience with. I didn't really think anything about it as I got in the car with Jake for out date and the rest of our night went as usual. Jake always pointed out the pointless things that no one else would take the time to notice and I couldn't help but laugh along with him most of the time. As we pulled back up to my house I noticed that Charlie's cruiser wasn't there and told Jake to come inside with me. We sat on the couch watching TV for a while, Jake sitting on the end and me leaning against him as usual. As the show we were watching went to commercial I turned my face toward Jake and kissed him.

The kiss started out slow as usual, just our lips moving against one another then I felt his tongue slip across my bottom lip wanting access to my mouth. I opened my mouth letting him deepen the kiss and I could help but moan. I moved so that I was sitting on Jake's lap with one leg on each side, never breaking our kiss. My hands moved so that they were tangled on Jake's hair and I felt him place his hands on my hips, I felt him push down on my hips causing my center to come in contact with his erection. I gasped at the contact opening my eyes to look at Jake and see the lust I felt at that moment reflected back in his eyes. As I went to move off his lap he pulled me back.

"Come on Jake, we can't do this here. Not on Charlie's couch, he would kill us." I moved away again and grabbed his hand leading him up the stairs and into my room.. As soon as we were through the door Jake had me on the bed, hovering over me. He started to place kisses down my neck and I felt his hands at the hem of my shirt slowly inching it up. He stopped for a second to look at me.

"Are you sure you want to do this Bells?" I didn't want my voice to crack so I simply nodded my head and sat up to remove my shirt in the process.

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After Jake left that night I cried myself to sleep, I couldn't help but think back to when he was here and I wanted that to be him more than anyone else in the world. I guess that's his fault for not coming back. I felt bad for Jake, for letting him love me the way he does and knowing that I can never fully return what he feels for me. I hadn't even told him I loved him yet even though he has told me numerous times.

The next morning I still didn't feel any better about what I had done but knew that there was no going back, so I grabbed my backpack as I headed down the stairs for the first day of school. I knew today would be hell, just like last year, I wouldn't really have any friends that I could talk to. They all left me alone when I got depressed about the Cullen's leaving and they never bothered to try and talk to me after that. So as I made the lonely trip to Forks High School I couldn't wait for this day to be over. As I walked the halls I heard people whispering 'did you hear who came back?', 'I can't believe it, I never thought they would.' I blocked them out, it didn't matter who they were talking about because I knew the people I actually wanted to come back never would.

I walked into my first period class and made my way to the back row where I had taken up sitting since I seemed to be invisible and settled in for the worst school year ever.

6 weeks later….

School was going okay, my classes didn't seem to be that hard and I had actually found someone that I could talk to, Angela Weber. She was quiet and didn't push on the subjects that I didn't want to talk about, it was an easy friendship. The mysterious group of students that were supposed to be coming back never showed up, but that really wasn't a big surprise, there were always students that were supposed to be starting at Forks then never do. As I was walking to lunch with Angela I caught a whiff of someone's cologne and ran for the bathroom. The past few days there were certain smells that would send me running and having me see my breakfast for the second time that day, lets just say I would have liked to only see it once. After I was done in the stall I stepped out to find Angela giving me a sympathetic look and holding a wet paper towel out for me.

"Thanks Ang." I said as I took the paper towel from her.

"Not a problem Bella. Are you feeling okay? Do you need to go home?"

"No, I'm fine. I think someone had a little bit too much cologne on in the hall."

"Oh." She waited for a few minutes before she spoke up again. "Bella I want to ask you something but I don't want you to get mad."

"What is it Ang? You can ask me whatever, you know that."

"Bella when you and Jake, you know, did you use anything?" She was the only person that I had told about sleeping with Jake. As soon as the words left her mouth I felt my mouth drop open and I knew the words that I wanted to say but couldn't make them leave my mouth because they weren't the truth. I knew then what she was talking about and felt the tears start to roll down my face. I leaned back against the wall and slid to the floor as my vision blurred, how could I be so stupid. Angela was at my side as soon as I hit the floor. "It's okay Bella."

Between sobs I managed to choke out, "No, it's not… I really screwed up this time…. Charlie is gonna kill me."

Angela pulled me into a hug and started to rub my back. "Bella you don't even know if anything is going on. You need to get a pregnancy test first." As soon as the last sentence left her mouth I cried harder, this can't be happening. She sat there with me until the tears stopped then helped me stand up. "Bella, if you want me to I can tell Mrs. Cope that you don't feel good and you need to go home. I can see if she will let me drive you."

"Thanks Ang, that would be a big help." She helped me gather my stuff from the floor and walk toward the office, I was officially on auto pilot. I didn't really hear her explain to Mrs. Cope why she needed to drive me home but clearly all she had to do was look at me and could see that I was somewhere else. The next thing I know Angela was stopped in front of the corner store and was just looking at me.

"So Bella, did you want to go in or do you want me to?" I just sat there staring at the window of the store not moving. After a few minutes she apparently got tired of waiting and went on inside. After sitting in the car for what seemed like and eternity she came back holding a paper bag and handed it to me. "Here, now we have to go back to your house. My parents are home and I really don't think you want to explain this to them." I shook my head no still just looking at the paper bag that she had handed me. I stared at that damn bag the whole way back to my house knowing that what was inside of it could change the rest of my life. We pulled up in front of my house and I slowly got out and took my keys out of my bag.

After finding the right key I let the door fall open and walked inside heading straight for the kitchen for a glass of water. I stood there at the sink for a good five minutes hoping and praying that I wasn't pregnant, finally Angela spoke up.

"Bella, do you want me to stay here with you while you take the test or do you want to be alone?"

"No, please Ang, I need you to stay." My voice came out broken and barely a whisper. I turned and headed for the upstairs bathroom before going inside and peeing on the stick like the instructions told me to. As soon as I was done I opened the bathroom door to find Angela standing there with her arms open waiting for me to fall to pieces, so that's exactly what I did, I cried and let everything out that I had kept bottled up for so long. I'm sure my face looked disgusting, I could feel the snot coming from my nose but couldn't make myself care.

Finally Angela spoke up, "Bella I think you should look at the test and see what it says." Moving away from her I walked back to the sink in the bathroom where I had left the test lay, I didn't want to turn it over and see what it said but I knew that I had to. Slowly I turned the stick over in my hand and looked at it, as soon as it registered what I was seeing I bawled like I was two. Angela ran up behind me asking what it said and I stood there for a few minutes before I could answer her.

"I'm… I'm pregnant." As soon as the words left my mouth I collapsed to the floor and cried even harder. Just then there was a knock at the front door and I didn't want to move to get it. As I sat there crying over the mistake that I had made the knocking on the door didn't stop so I eventually got up off the floor and made my way down the stairs while trying to compose myself. Angela was right behind me and stopped at the bottom of the stairs waiting on me to open the door. As soon as the door was open I was being knocked over by a girl that barely stood five feet with jet black hair.

"Bella! I've missed you so much! It has been way to long since we talked and Edward has been moping around like crazy!" As soon as it registered who was standing there hugging me I broke down again. Of all the days that they had to come back it was the one day that my world was falling apart.

One year, four months, and eighteen days later to be exact.

A/N:

So thanks for reading this and PLEASE let me know what you think about it. I know it may have been done before and if it is close to another story i'm sorry it's not on purpose.

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