The Secrets of the Diary and the Hopes of just one person.

Chapter one...The first of many

Disclaimer: I have no rights to the Beyblade characters.

YAOI (boy and boy relationships) Kai x Ray. Tyson X Max

First Fanfic please review and go easy.

"Talking"

'Thinking'

Kai POV

Do you ever feel like there is a part of you that wants to help someone, but then when you build up enough courage to do so, it all goes away when you go up to that one person?

Well that is me, Kai Hiwatari. They all say that I am so tuff, and that I can do anything. But they are wrong, I can't do everything, I can't even help the one person that I really love in this world.

I try and try to go up to him, to ask him what's wrong, but every time that I do go to him, he looks so happy and I don't want to spoil that, because that is what I want, to make him happy.

I have even resorted to reading his private diary. I know that is the wrong thing to do, but you're not in my position. I have tried so many times to go and ask him what is wrong, but I can't, I freeze. All I want is this to go away so that I can help him.

I sit there and read his thoughts of how he feels, it kills me inside that he doesn't try and seek help for it, that he doesn't ask me for help, the one person that has been his friend and who will be there till the end.

Everyone bar me around him doesn't see what is really going on, what is really going through his head. The thoughts of him trying so hard to end his pain, through cutting himself in various places on his body.

I have seen the cuts. At first they were just red marks but now they have been upgraded, I know he has been spilling his blood, the cuts have been bleeding. It hurts so much that I just stand back and do nothing when I know what has been going on.

When I read his diary it is not specific on what had happened, as I guess he can't even write what happened to him even on paper. All I know is that it happened in his childhood. Something back there must have hurt him so much, that now this broken angel cannot even fly away to a better place.

"Kai!"

I hear someone calling me.

Normal POV

"Kai," a raven-haired boy poked his head around the corner of his and Kai's room.

"Ya," Kai sat up so he could see the keeper of Drigger.

"You coming down or what? We have been waiting down stairs for you about ten minutes."

"Yeah, just give me a sec," Kai said with a slight smile then Ray left. Kai collapsed on his bed breathing hard, he cold believe that he was almost caught. Kai slipped the yellow diary back into the draw next to Ray's bed, and then left the room.

...Downstairs...

"Kai I'm glad you made it," Tyson said with a smile. "We thought that you might of fallen out of bed and died."

Kai shot him a glair. "I hope you ready to train hard Tyson."

"Great Tyson," Max slapped him on the back.

"Sorry babe you know words, and me they just don't agree, and one has to leave," Tyson told him with sad eyes.

"Whatever," Kai said walking up to the dish, I want Max and Ray to start first."

"Ok," Ray said pulling out Drigger.

"Yep, yep," Max said happily and bounded up to the bey dish.

Kenny sat near the dish and began to set up dizzy.

"Oh Kenny it is about time you got me out again, it was getting a bit cramped there for a second."

"Sorry dizzy," Kenny apologised and put the camera on the dish and began to type.

"Are we ready!" Kai yelled as he looked to each of the bladers who gave him a nod. "3,2,1."

"LET IT RIP!" both bladers yelled as they released their blades.

Both bladers, blades hit the dish with compelling speeds, and each of them focused like it was a life or death match.

"Ray keep up your defence," Kai told him as he saw that Drigger was being knocked about.

Ray didn't listen.

"Ray."

"I've got it Kai," Ray said looking at his team captain.

"No you haven't look at Drigger Max has been knocking it around like it was a leaf in the wind," Kai stressed.

Ray tried to calm himself but it wasn't working and everyone could tell as Drigger began to spin out of control.

"Ray," Tyson said hesitant.

Ray looked at him with slits in his eyes, like the tiger inside of him was coming out. As he did this, his blade went flying out and cut Kai across the cheek and landed in a tree.

"Kai!" Max cried as he came over to his captain that now had blood running down the side of his right cheek.

Ray's face softened as he looked at Kai. "Kai...I..." Ray didn't even finish his sentence he just ran away.

Kai watched Ray run towards the house as max tried to find something to stop the blood from seeping out of the wound on his cheek. 'Ray.'

"Kai hold this to you cheek," Max said handing Kai some cloth. "Now add pressure to it, Tyson as go to call a doctor."

Kai put the cloth to his cheek then took it away to see how much blood was really coming out of the cut. The cloth was covered in it. 'It must be a deep cut.' Kai looked up to the window where Ray and he sheared a room. 'Ray.'

Well first Fanfic what do you think?

Please review, as I want to know if it is good.

Disclaimer: I have no rights to the Beyblade characters.

YAOI (boy and boy relationships) Kai x Ray. Tyson X Max

First Fanfic please review and go easy.

"Talking"

'Thinking'

Ray POV