Tats/hime has been my latest muse. Mostly because I love any relationship that should be because they would be wonderful and complementary and compatible and make each other super happy but for whatever reason it can't work and ends tragically.
Dead Violets
She thought it was the kind of thing she'd eventually grow out of.
That's what everyone always said about Chizuru. "Oh she's just in a phase-" "She's just young and confused-" "Once she meets a nice guy all that silliness will stop-"
Personally, Tatsuki never really thought it was a phase for Chizuru.
(But oh god did she hope it was because then maybe she would eventually stop this inconvenient wanting-)
Everyone always smiles sympathetically when she tells them Orihime is her best friend because oh Orihime wow she's really beautiful and all the guys love her that must get annoying right-?
(And Tatsuki just smiles and nods because they have no idea just how hard it really is-)
Sometimes when she goes to Orihime's apartment to make sure she's not eating bean paste and ice cream again, she'll smile at her and her heart beats a little faster knowing she is the reason for that smile, and some teeny tiny little part of her will hope for something she knows is so insanely impossible but she's only fifteen, that age when impossible only has meaning in the abstract and enough determination can make anything happen.
When she gets older she finds to her dismay that it's not a phase.
And even though love always wins in the movies and the mangas it doesn't work that way in real life.
She watches, heart predictably breaking into a million little splinters, as Orihime marries her childhood friend in a pretty dress looking radiant and more beautiful than she'd even seen her and so damn happy Tatsuki hates herself a little for ever thinking she could ever be enough to make her friend smile like that.
so. personally i am straight. writing a queer narrative is something I can only do from imagination soo if this sounded too straight feel free to call me out.
also TWO MORE DAYS UNTIL MY STUPID SHOW!
also someone asked me this in a review in another fic…so:
to answer your question if you're reading this jobananasan, I body build competitively. I highly do not recommend it.