Terminal Love

Chapter 1

My New Life

Written By Natalie Gradillas

"So do you get what I am telling you?" I asked my friend. She stared at me with those sincere, innocent eyes. She looked at the floor of my bedroom. She turned her face to look at mine. I'm guessing she didn't take it so well. I grab her hand, in hopes of helping her calm down. I felt her hand shake insanely fast. I hug her but she pulls away and stands up in hopes of getting away from me. I look down, I felt my eyes get moisten from the breaking of my heart. I look at her, she looks at me with such pity and hatred. I never knew that just because I finally told her the truth that she had been bugging me to tell her. That's what I get for getting attached to someone especially falling for her. I guess I should also tell her how I really feel about her, people would call me a lesbian, but I don't care what everyone thinks but she does so that means we can never be together. That's good I guess, I would get over her, well I hope I do. If I'm not able to then I will kill myself. She won't even care now that I told her the truth. I just realized that I was staring blaknly at the wall. I look at her and I notice that she is looking at me differently. I kind of can't explain it but there is a sexual tension going on. She sat down next to me and hug me. When she made physical contact with me, I felt my body go into some kind of heat, I think she felt it to. Because she jump back quickly. I have no idea what went through me because the next moment I knew, I had moved my face toward hers but she didn't pull away, so I moved my lips closer to hers, I didn't go in, I waited for a second then out of nowhere her hands grab the back of my head and pushed my head which made my lips smash aganist hers. I always did imagine how those juicy lips felt and her tongue against mine. She had her hands on my waist and she continued pushing her body against mine. I pushed her down the bed while I was still kissing her. She put her hands under my shirt and started rubbing them down my back. I returned the gesture then I felt her unclasp my bra and she started doing some stuff with her hands to my breasts that actually felt insanely good. We ended up being completely naked under the covers and both of use felt satisfied. I looked over at her and she was looking at me with such adortion in her eyes, I can't believe that in those same eyes held such a hatrd in them. I touch her face, it felt so soft. I asked her, "What kind of moistureizer do you use?" She laughs then she kisses me softly. When she was about to pull away I pull her back in. We began the love making again. I love her so much, I whispered, "I love you. She pulled back and says, "What?" I looked at her and said, "Nothing." She looks at me then pushes me off her. She grabs the blanket that was covering us off me, and she wrapped it around herself. I joke, "Girl, we have the same parts." She looks at me and says, "True." She let the blanket fall off her which revealed her nude body. I grab the mattress to stop myself from grabbing her and having sex again. She smirked and said, "See that's why I wanted to cover myself. When she finished putting on her clothes. She looked at me then hug me. She whispered in my ear, "I guess this is goodbye then." I grab her and kiss her. I grab her hand and placed it on my breast. She moaned but immediately pulled back. " I can't do this." She whispered in my ear. "What? We already did it like 2 times, so what's wrong with 1 more time?" She looked at me then says, "It's going to be extra hard to say goodbye." I look at her and ask, "Who's leaving?" She stares at me then kisses me.

That's when I wake up, that all seemed so real. I still don't want to tell her the secret. I wouldn't stand it when she looks at me with those eyes again. I look to my bed stand, the clock on it said, 3:33am. This is like the fifth time this happened, waking up at this time almost every single day. But then again I was warned that this would happen. I was warned for a lot of things, I should've paid attention, but like the butt head that I am, I ended up getting exiled. Now, I live in some home, with a family that is brain washed into thinking that I am a distant cousin's daughther or somewhat. It's okay, I guess. The dad doesn't hover, pretty much he lets me do what I want and his daughther, whos around the same age as me, well lets just say she hates me, because I get away with everything. Yeah, I'm that good, sometimes I think she is out to try to get me into trouble. It's hilarious, how hard she tries. She even tried doing those stalker things like you would see in a movie. You know like, a person follows the main character around and stuff, but never gets caught, because they are sneaky like that. Well, she isn't sneaky at all, like when she tries to be silent while walking to one place to another, you automatically hear her footsteps. Even if she wears the proper clothing, it still doesn't work. I wish she would just get over it. Sometimes I wish that I can just use my power on her. Well, that's one of the reasons I got into exile. So, yeah I have to be pretty careful with my temper beacuse that just makes me more tempted to use it. So, that's why I am glad that I am best friends with Haley James. She's like my safety net, whenever I have a bad day or I'm just pissed at something, it just takes one look at her smile, like magic,all my troubles go away. Also, I think that might be one of the reasons why I fell in love with her. I never really felt this way about anyone, especially for a girl. Well, I guess that makes me a lesbian, huh? Oh well, it's life.

I start to hear something outside, I walk up to my window then pull the curtin open a tiny inch. I notice nothing out of the familair until my eyes spots a sports car, but not just any sports car, well I'm not good with cars, but that's the only kind of car I actually know, it's Porshe. That's all I know, I use my night vision gift, and I see that it is a yellow one with light green stipes on, it kinda makes it look like a Viper. I notice the driver looking straight at me, I seriously mean, like right at me. I don't get scared easily, so I continue looking. He drives away in a rush. I just sigh when I realized who it was. It's this rich guy at school, his name is Felix Tagarro and he has been trying to get in my pants ever since I first started attending school here. He like sent me flowers and chocolates with little love poem on them for like almost 5 months. Well, after that he started like stalking me, I have no idea how he got my number, not like the house number but my cell phone number, so he would like call me every 5 minutes, he would even text me all this love poems, which he says he wrote, but actually he copied from a book. What? I read poetry, and I recongized all the ones he tried to take credit for. This one time he even send me a picture of himself, shirtless. Man, he is ripped. He has like a 8 pack, but I'm still not interested and this has been going on for almost 3 years, well I'm a senior now, so I guess that's right. Also, I've been told that I am the first girl who never was interested in him, like almost every girl in school want to get in his pants and stuff, yeah, I know those sluts. Well, he even tried to start a rumor that I was and I quote a "dyke", he spray painted it on my locker.I really hate those 4 letter words, but no one believed it because I was currently dating this one dude when he decided to try it. So I wanted to get even with him, but I didn't start the rumor, but it spreaded like one. I told my lab partner that I saw some dude, with like only his boxers on, running out of Felix's penthouse. That quickly spread like wild fire through out the whole school, so everyone for like almost a year thought he was gay. It was kind of hilarious, but then he soon found out it was me that kind of started it, so he asked me what I was doing in front of his house, I just told him that I was walking with my friend and we happen to see this. But the most hilarious part was that it was all true, well I kind of used my power with this, I read his mind and saw that imagine. So, I guess I got him good.

I layed back down on my bed, but I can't fall back to sleep. I try closing my eyes, in hopes of dozing off. Okay, maybe I should go take a cold shower right now beacuse when I had that dream I kind of went into heat in other words I'm insanely horny.

I walk to the bathroom, andsatrted to take my cold shower for the day. While, I was rinsing my hair, my mind wondered to Haley's head. I was standing in the sidelines of her dream. She was dreaming of finally figuring out my secret but then something slipped there, something I never thought was possible. She is starting to like me more that a friend. Man, I know those things are suppose to be private and all but I'm condidered to be very nosey where I come from. But just knowing is fine with me, so that means I can start to try to send some siganls to her. But.....I don't think I would be able to do this. I always did dream of the day, that I fianlly did find out how she feels about me. I never thought it was so easy, I could've done this a long time ago. Then I remebered that wasn't Haley's mind, it was Felix's. That stupid perve, man, I do want to find out if Haley likes me more than a friend but I have to respect her privacy. If she wants to be with me, then when she is fianlly able to admit it to herself then she can tell me. I want to do the same but I'm scared that she might not feel the same way and I don't want to lose her. I know if me and her get in a relaionship, it might get doomed and stufff but I will always look into the bright side of things, so that means if we do break up then I will grateful for the good times we had together. It's like what this one person said, you will never know until you try. So I guess that's true.

I shut off the water, I still stood there for a few more minutes. I love the silence in this house when everyone is sleeping especially their daughter, Peyton. She is very annoying that's why she doesn't have any friends. I actually have a lot of friends, well most of them are guys. But still I have friends and Haley is the only best friend I would ever want. Peyton sometimes tries to hang out with me and my friends, but it didn't work out because she wouldn't shut up about the project she has been doing in science. Look, I know she didn't know what to say but still she could've waited until we started talking about something that she can relate to. I know she was probaly nervous beacuse I heard she had a crush on my buddy,Jake. Who by the way is insanely hot but he has a girlfriend that he has been going out with ever since I think was kindergarden. I'm not sure I really don't remember. Like when I first heard about that I was all like dang someone here is whipped badly and stuff. But when you see them together, it's like true love. It's like they really are meant for each other. You can tell by the way they stare at each other. It's just pure love and adortion . I wish I had something like that but the only man I ever really had a series relationship with was this guy back at home. His name was Jake, he was the most loveable guy you would ever meet. I still love him, but we had a reason to break up. We know what the percent rate of how long distance realrtionships last, but we still tried it. It didn't last, we broke up like 2 months after I arrived. I still miss him, we still talk but not like we use to. He has a girlfriend right, going on 2 years now, her name is Angel. He sent me a picture of her, man, speaking as a lesbian, she is insanely hot. When he talks about her in his letters, just the words he uses to describe her, you can tell that it is true love. I'm happy for him, that he fianlly found his soul mate. I wish I found mine already, but still no such luck. I guess I will meet this soulmate of mine soon. Sometimes I really do think that it is Haley. My buddy Jake know how I feel about Haley and he pointed out to me the other day, how she looks at me. He says that she has such an adortion in them when she stares at me. I even tried to get one of my friends dig it out of her but no such luck. I remember back then like 2 years ago, when I first started realizing the feelings I had for her, I just told my friend Jake how I felt, he had So I waited then like 5 months later, she caught him with another guy. Yeah, that's right I said guy, what did you think I was really going to say girl. Well, she was heart broken because he had just told her that he loved her and she was going to lose her virgintiy with him but good thing she didn't. I really didn't want to bring anything up that had anything to do with one person liking someone form the same gender. So, I gave up hope. Until Jake told me about the look in her eyes whenever she sees me. That was like last week, so I'm planning to make my move on her when we go to go watch this one movie together. The movie is suppose to be very sad, so I guess that seems like the right movie to choose for a moment like this, I guess.

I walk out of the shower and put a towel around me when I heard somthing outside again but this time it was like right next to the bathroom window. Good thing I had the curtains over it, I wouldn't like it if anyone saw me naked without permission. I make sure the towel is wrap securely around me. I walk as light as cat to the window and peek under the curtain. I see someone dressed in a black, tight suit patrolling outside with some type of gun, I guess it's a sniper. I walk out of the bathroom and change in to my pj's again. I lay down the bed and finally with all that I had in my mind right now, I fell asleep. I would think about spandex man tomorrow.

My alarm clock started to buzz. My eye lids start to slowly open, everything in my sight was blurry. Also in the blurriness I saw the spandex man standing there, just staring at me. But once my vision cleared, he disappered. I don't know why but I think I know who it was.