This is something totally different from what I usually write. So, huge thanks to Jen (swinglifeawayxx) for beta-ing this and encouraging me that I could write this. I hope you guys like it.
december 19th
d e c e m b e r n i n e t e e n t h
good bye.
it's over.
we are done.
--
do you remember what you did to me?
or are you too busy with
HER?
--
but me, i have moved on.
to that t w e n t y year old.
that one guy people hate.
they can say whatever they want.
but he, HE is my savior.
--
i've
got a world
of chances
for you,
chances
that you're burning
through.
my f a i t h has lost its strength again
we're at an end
--
l o v e
that four letter l i e.
the thing that every girl wants.
one word can tear you apart.
that same word can bring you to
l i f e
--
how have you been, nicholas?
have you been happy?
have you smiled that smile that i got to see?
the miley smile?
--
beforethestorm.
before the thunder.
before the lightning.
before the rain and
the p a i n.
the hurt and the sorrow.
beforethestorm, I experienced
that l o v e.
--
i want to stop pretending.
i want to stop acting like we're
best friends.
when truth is, we barely talk.
--
do you know what i want?
do you care anymore?
--
i want you to tell me the truth.
it's hard to do.
i know.
but if you
l o v e
me like you whispered to me,
then tell them.
tell all of them that SHE is not my
r e p l a c e m e n t.
--
the question that's going through your mind.
do i
l o v e
you?
do i want you to tell me you
l o v e
me?
get that question o u t of your mind.
--
the questions that are going through my mind?
you shouldn't c a r e.
because you have HER.
--
do you miss me nicholas?
do you want to hold me again?
do you want to touch me again?
how about to lay your finger onto my
s o f t skin?
just like you did beforethestorm.
just like you did before d e c e m e b e r n i n e t e e n t h.
Alright I really liked writing that. Tell me if you want me to write more stuff like this.