EPOV
I was doing my rounds in the hospital it has been 10 years since that horrible day back in forks the day I left the love of my life… alone….in the forest ,
After that day I swore to myself that my bloodlust would be conquered and I would become as good as Carlisle and it happened and that's why im here in a hospital in Seattle doing my rounds in the children's ward. I never stopped loving Bella and it still pained me to think of her, I tried to go to the volturi so many times but Alice would see and guilt trip me or call Emmet to stop me after a while I stopped I knew it hurt Esme
it was 1 am so most of the children were asleep but I still went in to make sure they were breathing properly and to stop nightmares when I saw them develop in their minds the main reason I stopped my suicide attempts was much to everyone's surprise a small boy who one night during my shift started coughing and choking but he surprised me" doctor (cough) Cullen I don't want to die (cough)" I looked at the boy shocked "your not going to die Jason I promise"
"I know your (cough) special dr Cullen I know your (cough) doing everything you can but tell (cough) my mum I love (cough) her and not to miss me too much"
I looked at Jason in confusion still trying to calm his breathing I gave him an oxygen mask "you're not going to die Jason look your breathing properly now ok?"
Jason weakly smiled before falling back to sleep I looked at the small boy he was very brave the next morning a nurse came up to me and told me one of my patients wanted to talk to me she walked me to Jason's room I smiled at her in thanks and walked in upon hearing me enter Jason looked up and smiled and pointed at me, his mother turned and looked too
"Look mommy it's the angel that saved me last night when I couldn't breathe"
The women rushed up to me and hugged me fiercely thanking me profusely for saving her baby boy it was then that I made up my mind I couldn't take my life when people where fighting to keep theirs.