I knew exactly where I was going before I got there. I understood the risks, the power, and the pure evil that I was about to unleash. I slipped beautifully into grandeur, recognition yet with complete autonomy. Ever since my fingers touched those stale faded pages, my life was split open. To the pages I spilt my blood, soaking it, nourishing it; I wanted to give birth to a new existence.
I've tried many times to describe the position I'm in: to justify it, to make it right. After all, there must be some reason, some explanation that I'm not impart. But I cannot let that unknown falter my beliefs.
Once I began. I could not stop.
I was a deep reader of an unimaginable book. The names and the lists all embellished their own stories. The minute they killed, the minute they raped, stole, or exploited, I was there- stealthily waiting with a dripping pen. I've already read and created half the pages… so there can be no turning back.
My mind was set on fire. I saw evil, became it, and in turn attempted to destroy it.
Little by little, even fragments of me were picked away with each dark spirit I crushed. My fingers curled through the web of life, sitting perfectly behind the spindly curtain and waited patiently as the performer stepped from the stage. They all fell so gloriously. I sketched out some beautiful deaths, worthy deaths; they were filled with such pain and agony to match their crimes.
For this, I am neither man nor spirit.
The devil's greatest achievement was making sure people thought he didn't exist.
I am that devil.
And it is time that I exist.
I will move freely between this world and guide you to the next. That fragile little muscle dancing in the walls of your chest will loose its step, the rhythm will fall, and its little ventricle feet will slip.
Down, down, further into your disgusting mind you will become a trapped soul bound for neither hell nor heaven.
And when I join you, there will be no hope for escape. I will harness your evil. Capture it. Keep it close to me so that no one else can ever be hurt again. I will be the guardian of death.
A true Shinigami.