At some point of time, I thought.
To pretend.
That everything was fine.
To just keep lying to myself until I believed that lie.
Because there weren't really other solutions.
And actually, what I couldn't understand was.
Why did I fall for Antonio in the first place.
What is so great about him, anyway? Just forget him!
I can't.
He's just stupid! He doesn't deserve you!
Man, I'd love to forget, but...
What?
I just can't.
Why?
Because it's quite impossible to get up...
When you fall so hard.
In the depths.
For someone who...
Barely looks in your way.
Or cares.
Didn't you know?
What...?
He's with Francine.
Then all the times he peeked at me.
Said stupid jokes.
Flirted.
They meant nothing.
At all.
Just like me.
Didn't you know he was just toying with you?
No.
But I suppose I should have known.
Who wants such a foul-mouthed tomboy.
No one.
Because even when I tell myself that I don't care...
I dream him.
Every night.
I can't stop my dreams...
He comes and he loves me in my dreams.
But then I wake up.
And everything disappears.
My happiness and his love.
Everything I always loved and wanted and cared about.
Nothing remains...
Nothing lasts.
I should just accept...
That I'm not quite like Francine.
She's prettier.
More elegant.
With a good language and many skills.
What can Chiara Vargas do.
Complaining.
Bitching.
Fighting.
Cooking, dancing... those skills, she's got them too.
But she's too insecure.
You know, nobody believes in her.
Not even I do.
No one.
Yeah, I don't believe in myself.
I'm gonna disappear any time.
I'm so broken.
A broken plate.
Glued so many, many times...
But glue doesn't last forever.
Once the plate falls again...
Goodbye, Chiara Vargas.
Or is it supposed to be badbye.
Badbye to the lies.
Pain.
Being used.
Destroyed.
Maybe that badbye would come soon.
Soon enough...
Because Chiara Vargas has no patience.
So she'll probably get tired of fighting for love.
Since there's not much left then.
Julia and Belle.
They could live well without her, anyway.
Same went for her sister.
And for everyone.
They all, would be happy.
They'd think Chiara killed herself because she was selfish.
But in truth.
She did it because she knew how much of a burden she was.
So she just decided to die.
It would have been better for everyone.
Yeah, so she thought.
But I know.
She will not be brave enough.
To kill herself.
Too coward even for that.
She's just that coward and useless.
It would have been better to never meet her.
At all.
For everyone.
So she decided to keep living...
Till all the others started to hate her.
That would be it.
Because soon enough...
They were gonna hate her guts.
Her personality.
Her.
And then, she would have been ready.
To say badbye.
To the world.