Suffer

by: Kuyuki Mitsuru

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You waited.

You waited forever for the time to come, for the moment to arrive, because you knew it would.

When you would see your beloved talk to her, you would break.

But when you would see your beloved hold her, caress her, love her, you would shatter.

You haven't heard him tell you your desired words in days, weeks, months, years.

How longs it been this time?

Your heart hurts more today than yesterday, and you know it will hurt even more tomorrow.

If only tomorrow didn't come.

You walk along the concrete road, the winter snow having patterns of shoe marks after each step. You look ahead of yourself and see him and her sharing a scarf, before remembering how you would share that same scarf with him in your earlier years.

If only you could go back to those times…if only you could be with him again.

But, does he desire that? Is that what he wants? If it's not, then why bother?

You are only here for his happiness, his happiness alone.

You knew he was lying all along about his love for you. You knew it was a trick, a mockery.

Because if he really loved you, he would be able to figure out the pain that you have felt all along.

All of those times really were acts…to you, at least.

You are the other folded side of a one sided paper. You are the other side of a coin. You are the reflection in a mirror, a glass picture of the real thing. You are a symmetrical human who opposites the existent individual.

If he is happy, you are suffering.

If he is a success, then you are a failure.

If he is brave, then you are a coward.

If he is everything, then you are nothing.

It's finally time to say goodbye to him, your beloved.

It's your last chance to let out your feelings, to show what you've been holding in all along.

Your final words are not "Thank you", nor "I love you", but something that will maybe get him thinking.

"Roses are red, violets are blue.

If you love me, then I hate you."

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I hope this fic isn't too confusing…I wrote in second person this time for the first time, and this is also my first Ouran fanfic…so I also hope it came out okay.

I left the person as "you" and the person as "him" unknown, so you can decide. I'm sure you probably know who "her" is, but you can make up your own "her" as well (depending on which twin you choose).