I can't keep reading the same line!

Joey was frustrated, editing was taking its toll tonight. It was already 11pm, and she had to be up at 6am for a press call for a book which was about to come onto the market. Great stuff, she thought.

She sighed heavily, when she saw that she had a new email. Smiling at the recipient, she opened the email.

Hey Jo,

Just thought I'd say hey, it's been a while. How ya been Potter? How's the big City at this time of year? Are you coming back to Capeside for Christmas? Hope so, need to see your pretty little face around here again, It's been too long.

Just letting you know that I'm in New York next week, if you would like to meet for a drink?

Let me know.

Pacey

Joey sighed heavily again, not sure how to answer this one. She still missed him so much. She honestly believed that her and Pacey would have worked things out. Be together forever. But I guess things don't turn out the way you plan.

Hey Pace,

Was just heading to bed and saw your mail. I'm great thanks Pace. I know It's been a while, I've been so busy with work that I haven't had a chance to head back to the Cape as of yet. But yes, I am planning on coming back for Christmas. It's beautiful here at Christmas, so many lights, there's the most amazing Christmas Tree with tons of decorations which makes me feel like a kid again everytime I see it. Man, I'm sad.

I'm glad you're coming to New York, I need a good friend to take me out for the night. I assume you're paying... ha. Well, I must run, bed is calling me and I have to be up early...urgh, sometimes I wish I didn't have a job! Email me back with a time and place and I'll see you there.

Much love to you,

Joey.

She closed her laptop and rubbed her eyes tiredly. She headed to her bedroom, and got changed into her pyjamas. After brushing her teeth, she crawled into her side of the bed. Not that there was someone on the other side to share it with her, it was just her side that she always seemed to keep to. She lay there quietly for a few minutes, then sat up slowly and opened her bedside drawer. She pulled out a small frame, which contained a picture of her and Pacey on True Love. Man, she missed those days. She missed the days where everything was carefree, and life wasn't so serious. She looked at the smile on her face in the picture. She was content. He was her heart, and now she felt lost.

After Jen died, Pacey blurted out to her that he loved her, had always loved her, and just wanted her to be happy. Jen knew that Joey wanted to be with Pacey, and her heart literally jumped out of her chest with Pacey's admission. She was so happy she wanted to scream the place down, not appropriate for a wake, she thought, as she tried to tell him back that she loved him. She had loved him from the age of 15, when he kissed her the first time. The second time, she kissed him back, even though she refused to admit it for so long. And since then, the love had unravelled at full speed, their hearts always on the line, falling through high school together with more love most people share in a lifetime.

She looked again at the picture, now with fresh tears in her eyes. She tried to tell him she loved him too, wanted to spend her life with him, move back to Capeside for him, but she kept being interrupted. Everytime she went to admit her feelings, she was interrupted by someone or other.

She gave up, knowing there would be a better time. She headed to Dawson's, and admitted to him that even though he was her soulmate, that she would never get over Pacey, as she loved him with too much of her heart. That he had taken her heart all those years ago, and she never fully got it back. Dawson understood with such graciousness that she remembered back to when she once cared for this boy as a lover. She looked back at their childhood romance, which was entirely innocent, and compared it to her and Pacey's romance. Pacey was her first. She had given him her heart, body, and soul. And yeah... that was a fixed point.

Joey roughly shoved the frame back into the drawer, and slammed it shut.

It was a week before she got to see Pacey again after Jen's funeral and seeing Dawson, to admit her true feelings to him, ready for their life again. She remembers the way she full of nerves, anticipation, and excitement, as she was ready to move forward with him.

And that was when Audrey had walked back into their lives.

And then Pacey had to go and marry her, didn't he.

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